TheComfortCorner | V.7

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would anyone even notice
if i just disappeared?

ah
my god, it hurts
this aching in my chest
this awful loneliness
its tearing me up

there's nowhere to go from here

what do i do?

[dib membrane]

boy, do i love it when my friends find yet another one of my social media accounts and proceed to follow and basically stalk me on it, giving me intense anxiety and making me unable to post art that i'm actually proud of because i'm incredibly afraid of them judging me for said art.

i'm tempted to just block them so they can't see my stuff,,, but i don't want them to question me about it because then i'll be even more nervous and scared and just....hhhhhhhhhhhh i hate anxiety.

god, why did i have to mention i was on that app in the first place?? maybe then i wouldn't have to deal with them judging me for liking what i like and shipping what i ship. :')))

[Thalassic]

I'm just so lonely

[*Infinity*]

boy, do i love it when my friends find yet another one of my social media accounts and proceed to follow and basically stalk me on it, giving me intense anxiety and making me unable to post art that i'm actually proud of because i'm incredibly afraid of them judging me for said art.

i'm tempted to just block them so they can't see my stuff,,, but i don't want them to question me about it because then i'll be even more nervous and scared and just....hhhhhhhhhhhh i hate anxiety.

god, why did i have to mention i was on that app in the first place?? maybe then i wouldn't have to deal with them judging me for liking what i like and shipping what i ship. :')))

Stalking is *not* okay!! I quit almost all social media, deleting accounts or pretty much removing everything identify able on them because of stalking. It had started getting scary.

My suggestion... back up all of your art, delete your accounts. When they ask you why, tell them it was getting to stressful, don't go into details. Let them guess. See if anyone apologizes.

Also, start new accounts on your favorite sites/apps. Just dont tell anyone this time. Other fans will find you, and you won't have to deal with stalking.

Stalking is a serious crime, and not okay. Tell some adults about it, and let them know it is upsetting you. Change accounts. But most of all, be safe!!! Good luck!

[.zombie]

i dont know whats wrong with me.
i like to talk to people, i try to be freindly with everyone i meet.
but idk?
like here i am in the media center avoiding lunch [where i usually eat with the guys], and they dont allow food here. i just feel like im going to embarrass myself if i go down there again.
most of my freinds dont know this but im really self consious. i have to put on makeup everyday to try and convince [myself, not anyone else, myself], that im pretty..
theres really like nothing i can do about it though. ive had a history of kids teasing me every now and then, and even though i act as if it doesnt bother me, it really does. it really hurts me. every no youll never date him or youre not pretty lol lowers my self esteem and i hate it. there are some girls in my class who are just so beautiful and loved by the other kids that sometimes i imagine what it would be like if i were them. im not happy with what ive got, and i wish i was.

also,, all of the people i consider friends dont consider me freinds at all. they usually like to tease me and stuff ughh.

[*Infinity*]

i dont know whats wrong with me.
i like to talk to people, i try to be freindly with everyone i meet.
but idk?
like here i am in the media center avoiding lunch [where i usually eat with the guys], and they dont allow food here. i just feel like im going to embarrass myself if i go down there again.
most of my freinds dont know this but im really self consious. i have to put on makeup everyday to try and convince [myself, not anyone else, myself], that im pretty..
theres really like nothing i can do about it though. ive had a history of kids teasing me every now and then, and even though i act as if it doesnt bother me, it really does. it really hurts me. every no youll never date him or youre not pretty lol lowers my self esteem and i hate it. there are some girls in my class who are just so beautiful and loved by the other kids that sometimes i imagine what it would be like if i were them. im not happy with what ive got, and i wish i was.

also,, all of the people i consider friends dont consider me freinds at all. they usually like to tease me and stuff ughh.

I know where you're coming from. Believe me, it *will* get better, little by little. The low self-esteem never really goes away, though tbh. Putting on a mask or a costume (put me in uniform and I'm a bada$$, but regular old me? I'm still a bit of a shy wallflower who hates hanging out with people I don't really know) helps. Keep doing it as long as it works!

Teasing is one thing, but if it makes you feel less than you are, or happens all of the time, then it is bullying, and bullying is *not* okay. Remember one thing, too... that those pretty girls are hiding insecurities of their own, and them putting you down is their way of feeling better about themselves. You could always retaliate with "Have *you* looked in a mirror lately?" (which would honestly just make everyone involved feel worse, or start a fight) or you could think about where you are all going to be in a few years (looks only get you so far - brains, manners, and a willingness to work will get you everywhere - believe me!), or you can keep avoiding this as long as you can. Or you can try something entirely new and different (these are just based on my experiences).

It really is your choice, and you are the only one that can make it.

Looks aren't everything. The chances of meeting "the one" in school are pretty slim. It happens on occasion, but there are so many awesome people out there that you'll meet that if the other girls in your class want to squabble like hens over the boys available, let them. There's an old saying, "Pretty is as pretty does..." I think that fits you perfectly.

Have you ever considered that some of these girls feel threatened by how beautiful you really are, your true nature shining through the facade? You have an amazing life in front of you, to make of it what you will. Don't let these petty girls spoil your life, your potential, and your passion. Be amazing!

One day you will have a school reunion. Where will your amazing talents have taken you? It'll be awesome to see!

[Lya]

Today's just... one of these days.... I could need a hug, but I'm too anxious to go into the bedroom to my fiancé. I'm afraid he'd notice that his presence doesn't help. I feel like crap for not feeling more secure when he hugs me... I'll spend the rest of my life with him, so I should, shouldn't I?

[cainhurst]

so we just had to call an ambulance for my mother
my day was going pretty well and now this
why does it always have to be like this
it's either my dad who nearly dies, or my mom
i can't describe how bad it is to constantly worry that you'll get that kind of call one day

[Thalassic]

I'm just so lonely

[madness,]

i just realized that i along with everyone i love is going to die one day and that i'll never be able to see them or hear them again and now i'm in tears and i don't know why anymore
i've been so emotional these past two weeks because my cat, who was one of the only things keeping me emotionally stable, died wednesday of last week
i really just need a hug but i've barely had any contact with other people because i've been out of school. last week it was because of my cat and this week it's because i'm sick with the flu.
i just need my friends..
i wanted to invite them all to do something with me this weekend, but if i'm not sick, i have to go do something with my grandparents on saturday.
my gf probably won't be able to do anything on sunday, my best friend's mom is afraid that, since im gay, my friend is too (she's not.. and just because i'm gay and your kid is friends with me doesn't mean she is too!! just because she's a girl doesn't mean i like her in that way. and even if she was gay, that's not even a bad thing!) and therefore barely lets us hang out outside of school, and my other friend has to go to her weekend classes.
i just feel so alone...
a pm would be greatly appreciated. i really need a friend right now.