TheComfortCorner | v.6

[.zombie]

i dont know if im being dumb or not but im so jealous of other people i just cant take it anymore grr.
theres this one girl who everyone adores. there are guys flocking around her at every second of the day. her friends are also my friends, and it makes me very self-conscious when they choose to literally ignore me and talk to her.
most of my guy friends talk about crushing on her and seriously my self esteem is at an all time low every time they talk about how pretty she is. then they turn around and start telling me how dumb i am thats great.
thats why i cut them off recently.

its actually really fun to never be complimented. i just keep on thinking about how great she [and other girls they talk about] are, and how ugly i am. most of my friends like me, ya know, for company. not cause im a good friend or they actually give a crap about what im doing and/or feeling. there are also people i consider friends that rarely have this moment that its alright to make fun of me and i just dont get it???

going back to her, i mean, what can i say? shes sweet, nice, and short to the point that its adorable.

im probably being selfish. i just cant stand others ruining my self esteem like this.

[Pyjaks]

i dont know if im being dumb or not but im so jealous of other people i just cant take it anymore grr.
theres this one girl who everyone adores. there are guys flocking around her at every second of the day. her friends are also my friends, and it makes me very self-conscious when they choose to literally ignore me and talk to her.
most of my guy friends talk about crushing on her and seriously my self esteem is at an all time low every time they talk about how pretty she is. then they turn around and start telling me how dumb i am thats great.
thats why i cut them off recently.

its actually really fun to never be complimented. i just keep on thinking about how great she [and other girls they talk about] are, and how ugly i am. most of my friends like me, ya know, for company. not cause im a good friend or they actually give a crap about what im doing and/or feeling. there are also people i consider friends that rarely have this moment that its alright to make fun of me and i just dont get it???

going back to her, i mean, what can i say? shes sweet, nice, and short to the point that its adorable.

im probably being selfish. i just cant stand others ruining my self esteem like this.

First off, good for you for cutting those people off. It's never okay for "friends" to be putting you down by calling you dumb or anything like that.
And you're not selfish! It sounds like you have a severe lack of self esteem and that's manifesting in a way that makes your compare yourself to others. Do you have anyone to talk to about this, like a school counselor or a therapist? Feelings of insecurity this strong aren't healthy. Unfortunately they happen to a lot of us, but it can help a lot if you have someone to discuss them with.

[vulture,]

Today marks the end of week one since the husband has left for basic. 17 more to go. My illnesses have been getting progressively worse. I need to hear from him just to give me some sort of motivation to move. But, I don't know when that will be.

[spooks.]

uugh i wanna lose wight.
i wanna work out.
but how do i ask my mom if i can?
like, how do i bring it up?
we have a membership to the ymca, so i could totally workout there if i wanted to.
i just can't seem to bring it up. i don't have the guts.
what if she says no?
what if she makes fun of me?
what if she brushes it off as a phase and doesn't give me a chance?

i want to change.
i want to be a healthier version of myself.
i'm tired and bored of being jiggly.
i want to start working out, how do i tell my mom?
we eat nothing but junk food at my house, and i'm tired of it.
i want to eat healthier, and i want to exercise.

anybody have and ideas? how do i bring it up without getting super embarrassed?
how do i ask? how do i get over myself and just spit the words out?
how would you phrase it without her thinking i have issues?

just how do i go about asking/how do i react if she says no?

[Topsy Turvey]

Oh my god.
My boat crashed like a week ago and I lost EVERYTHING. My home, my kittens my possessions all gone so I have to stay at my Nana and Poppa's until we can move onto our smaller boat. My Nana has dementure so she gets all her information from my Poppa because otherwise she can't understand whats going on, that would be fine but you see, my Poppa isn't the nicest of people.
He invited us into his home and then INSTANTLY starts telling us what to do (which would be fine if he wasn't so damn rude about it) and I hear him at LEAST once a day complaining about us. Least night I heard him call me a spoilt brat, and he often has a go at me for being lazy. The problem is he's forgotten what it's like to work so every three minutes he's harrasing me for lying around and doing nothing but at the same time he keeps pushing me to believe that this place is my home. Home is a place where I go to RELAX, not be pushed around and critized. I also have depression and anxiety and I can literally FEEL it all coming back after all my progress and so I HAVE to move out at some point because emotionally, I can't take it. He also has a habit of saying we don't look after our dog;

Oh she's way too skinny you don't even feed her! - It's the breed AND she has short fur, just because your used to big fluffy dogs doesn't mean she's unhealthy.

You never even exercise the thing, that's why she keeps on running away! - She keeps running away because you take her out early in the morning when we're sleeping and then don't keep an eye on her and the grumble later and shove all the blame on us. And we excercise her, we don't spend all this time away from the damn house sitting in the car, we go places and we take her to the horse place down the road (We used to do work around there so they like us) and we let the dog off and she loves seeing all the people and the horses and just running around in general.

IAnother problem is, because he always used to insult me and my family while I was in the shower (he thought I couldn't hear but I very much could) and so now I get WAY too nervous to have a shower there but I don't really get the chance to shower anywhere else so my dad's getting grumpy at me for it and my Poppa's taking advantage of the fact that my dad doesn't like it to have a go at me for it.

The dog is literally the only thing I have left and I lost our last one to the road and he's so careless with my dog but he doesn't care what I think or say and I just, this isn't fun guys. Sorry for the long post <3

[critter]

So, two guys asked me out.

Yay.

I'm about as straight as a circle, so I turned them down, and I'm too lazy to write my whole problem.

[Roadhog]

I'm sobbing right now.
I want to join band soooo bad because my only few friends+people I like are in it, and I want to make new friends+get my other gym credit+go to disney to perform+play the saxophone
I need some re-assurance or something. I well.. just.. uh really want to do this because I do nothing but plays/musical(s) and I really want to get involved in band. The people there are like me, really nice, my only friends, and I think it would be a great experience.
my dad supports me with wanting to learn it/join band, but my mom meh not really.
She tried to tell me "If you join you HAVE TO STICK WITH IT" and talked for 10 minutes about staying with it, not being mean, and other junk.
I'm just I.. I don't even know right now. I just really want to do this, but I really don't know.....

[megapolis]

i would love to vent here
i just can't get my
problems into words

so uh
don't worry about me.
<33

[Snow's Storm]

I want to leave so badly. I am capable of leaving. But if I leave, my mother and brother will start fighting again. And these aren't mother-son petty little fights. These are "oh my gosh they're actually going to hurt each other and I have to call the cops again" fights. I hate being here, and I have the ability to move out at any time, but I'm worried about my brother. I am the mediator in their fights; if I leave, I don't know what will happen. The question is: should I be selfish and leave to live my own life, or be selfless and live trapped in this place until my brother can leave with me?

[saturnz barz]

quite disheartened bc basically
me and my boyfriend agreed to not spend money on each other this Valentine's Day
but we were allowed to create things

so I discovered the idea of getting people from around the world to write
"s/o, Kourtney's love for you is so big its reached (place)!"
and a handful of people from CS have helped which I appreciate more than words

but I feel like it's flopping
I wanted at least 14 (14th of Feb etc.)
but can't seem to get more than 4

starting to feel like it was a super dumb idea
and now I don't know what to do
bc he's making something and he's so talented and creative
that no matter what I do it's gonna look so dumb