TheComfortCorner | v.6

[critter]

Why do I even try? I have school work to catch up on, I have to make my dad proud, I just thought I was happy a few minutes ago, but now I just feel sad and useless??? I love my family to bits, but it never seems they love me just as much I love them. My dad only loves me to make my future big enough for him to steal, that cheating rat. My mom favors my brother so much, she gives him what ever he wants, if I even look at something I want I'm called ungrateful and my mom loves to start fights and make me so upset to the point I can no longer create words to fit them. I just got out of a five year lingering hell, and I have five+ more years until me and my friends move and I can cut my ties with my family aside from a few that care.
God I hope these years go by quick.

I just wanted a normal life. But I can't even be able to see to run correctly I'm so messed up.
My vision is terrible, my legs are weak, and I have so many other medical problems that just tear me apart.

[honey,]

i haven't posted here in a bit but something came up and its really bothering me.

my grandpa, who has parkinsons disease and dementia has taken a turn for the worse.
he has started falling more, and he keeps slipping in and out of reality.
they are moving him to a place where his mother is, and it just pains me to see this.
they told us it could be a month or less before he starts forgetting important people in his life.
he was confused for awhile when he saw my grandma.
its really killing my dad, he feels so guilty and has just been acting strange.
he bottles all of this up, i'm just scared that when he does forget my dad will break.
i really don't want to lose another person.
and its worse this way, because we know he's going to die without a memory of us.
its not like my other grandpa, who died of heart failure. its terrible to say this but i feel like he
went out more peacefully then my grandpa who is still alive will.
we can't make the drive down there, and admittedly i'm scared to see him.
last time we saw him he was doing good, he was writing down scores to football games and everything.
that was just two months ago.
how could it change so fast?

[majima]

i got 2 b's on my report card when my mom had pressured me to get straight a's and im just rlly worried bc i know she'll yell at me and probably take away something of mine even though i tried my hardest and i understand why i got a b in pe but ionly got a b in math bc the ppl in my group wouldnt pay attention hhmhnmhn

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[.Spaceman.]

Why is it that I feel so incredibly lonely
I'll laugh with them, talk with the, be with them,
but I just can't seem to connect with them.
Are they my friends?
Am I worth having?

No wait
we can't be friends
it's pointless to have friends
not when I have homework and my future to worry about
there are more important things
Why do I even bother speaking with them,
when in a few years, we'll graduate and never see each other again?
I'm sick of being loved by nobody
I just want a friend
is it too much to ask for?
Is a friend too much to have?
I guess so

I always feel like I'm just walking into another relationship
they've known each other for years,
and I just show up and act like I matter

Someone please see me
the nothingness is suffocating
I can't breathe

[snubbulls]

I'm so stressed
Finals are tomorrow
They gave us study guides yesterday
I didn't have enough time
I need to ace these
My mom will take everything if I don't
And no matter what I tell her she won't change her mind
I don't know my Spanish at all
And my English is crazy
And god I'm not ready
I'm considering just skipping school I guess

[crabodile]

I was trying so hard not to write this, but I can't bottle it up anymore.

I hurt
Everywhere
My ribs especially
Third day of PE
Second day doing Basketball
Got stuck with the same guy twice since he doesn't really have many friends
Nor do I but still
One of the quiet boys I used to have a small crush on was nice enough to be my partner the third time

Its not just me
I heard one of my friends complaining that her ribs hurt too
I'm not going to be able to do the sit-ups tomorrow
Then i'll get yelled at, he'll make me re-do them, and it'll repeat until he gives up and tells me to sit on the bleachers and I won't get points for it

I feel horrible
The only other time that I can remember I felt like this was a couple years ago after I had spent the weekend stuffing my face with all the junk food possible and sitting in front of my grandma's computer all day and all night.
That week I had to run the track for a race, although we still won out of the our grade, but both grades running against us beat us
Because I got hit by a wave of pain in the middle of my run

I can't sit up either, a burst of pain explodes in me and makes me wan to puke
I might go to the nurse before gym and ask her about it
Maybe.
I don't want to be yelled at or lose points.
My brother got an A in gym

I want to get an A in gym
But I can't even do a pushup, much less the plank or sprints

I want to sleep for a whole month then wake up again
I need to get arm strength if I want to pass this class.

I need to start changing too, before I die of heatstroke or something.

[.zombie]

i need help
i dont know whats wrong with me. school has taken over my life.
same classes. same anxiety. same depression. same. same. same.
why does a letter represent my intellect? why cant i succeed with poor grades? why am i considered stupid when i know im not?
but i know im lazy. im a procrastinator. im scared to talk to my teachers. i know.
i want to break through my grades and show everyone what im made of. but that wont happen.
i got a c on my report card last quarter, i promised my mother to do better.
turns out ive got four c's all in one quarter. thats great.

thanks school, for ruining me. i couldve been something great without your "help".
thanks for causing stress and depression in every single student in america. thanks for rising the suicide rates all over the world.
and most of all, thanks for ruining my future.

[durden.]

Ugh, I got a 70 on this test in English and now my grade is a 70. I don't know what to tell my parents. I'm so nervous and stressed this week. I'm on the verge of crying. I hate seeing bad grades like these. My parents get so mad at me for getting anything below a B on anything. At least my teacher will post a retake soon and I have three grades that I got 100s, but she hasn't put them in yet. I wish to curl up in a ball and hide until my grade changes.

Sorry for the rant, it's not as important as other posts on here, just needed to get it out.

[chanel]

I had a panic attack today and yesterday... I've just been overthinking too much and my anxiety has been acting up.

[watermelon.]

could i get a pm ?