The Almighty Lioness wrote:The emotions.
I can't stop.
I cried for an hour straight yesterday over my math!
Why is it so hard.
If I can't do this, how will I ever graduate?
I just...
I don't know
My dream was to be a vet. To help animals in need. Save lives.
We disected a worm yesterday. Between classes I stood over the toilet and tried not to puke.
How can I be a vet when I can't handke looking at worm insides?
I feel like a failure. I almost want to cry again.
But I don't want my friends to worry.
I already cause to much trouble.
I remember back in sixth grade we went camping as a class with another school.
I freaked out, just like everytime I try to camp with the GS troop.
I just... broke down. Again and again.
You guys couldn't play with those balloons because of me and my latex allergy.
It is all my fault.
Wht can't I not ruin one of these trips?
You all act like it was nothing.
Is that how you really feel?
I feal honnored that (name) cares enough to try and save me.
The dark. Oh man one thing I hate about camping. And the raccoons that banged on the wall every night.
The one time he was under window.
Staring up at me. Like he was going to claw my eyes out.
Just, no. I can't.
I don't deserve your friendships, guys.
But I feel honnored you let me in.
I have the wierdest fears, I know. Stuff that isn't exactly normal.
But then again, I guess our whole squad isn't exactly normal.
Hey, I think you're pretty brave for trying out to be a vet. I would never have the courage. Knowing me, I'll probably just do something really easy. For the math, I know exactly how you feel. I'm a block head at math, always last in class. But keep working and I'm sure you'll do fine!
And then the worm. Honestly, who wouldn't feel sick after seeing the insides of a creature, even if it's just a worm?
Don't feel bad about yourself, I'm sure you'll be fine with whatever you do as long as you don't let the emotions pull you down. After all, you are an almighty lioness, isn't it?