Write a Letter You Cannot Send (Read the Rules!)

[Sleeping With Issues]

Dear S,

I'm sorry this is going to be so short but I talked to a physic I'm not sure if I believe her but she said we're gonna be together for a long time if not the rest of our lives. I hadn't even mentioned your name to her before she brought it up I guess that means she means it huh. Anyways you still make me nervous and I'm glad we trust each other enough to be able to go through each other's bags to get stuff for one another and go through each other's phones. I'm sorry if I accidentally grabbed your hair instead of my calculator today it was an accident if I did I was under a lot of stress but the way you smiled at me made it all better. I'm sorry this is so mushy I usually don't act this way. I also want you to know that J and I are just friends him and my other friend have a thing that I don't want to interfere with. I like you and only you. You're my first love. And those over protective looks you give to other guys when I talk to them makes my heart thump. I'm still struggling to ask you and to tell you how I feel. It's so weird that you're one of the only people I trust and yet I can't tell you this simple thing.


Love,
The girl that's always nervous.

[bearlike]

dear S.
if only you knew
how i felt about
you.

how i care about
you.

[bewitched.]

Dear F,
I love you, you're like my biggest friend ever. But at times you can be problematic. Like I understand at times you can feel frustrated, especially with Christmas because you don't celebrate it, but it doesn't exactly give you the right to complain about it and say "why do white people get ready for Christmas so early" when you've always talked about Halloween 3 months prior, even though I don't celebrate it, but again, you throw a fit when people listen to Christmas music in the beginning of December. Also you cartorize EVERYONE who celebrates Christmas, as white, which is incorrect, you also constantly bash people for what they like, which is kind of bad too, and I realize I also do it, but at least I'm aware of it. You also make me feel really guilty at times, like just because I like someone who's a few years older at the most, doesn't make me or him a bad person, and you have to right to tell me how to feel, especially yesterday when you called my feelings on him, just admiration. Because you don't know how I feel. and yesterday night when I told you what I wanted to do in the future (6-10 years from now) because I'd feel better with it, and I wouldn't be so self conscious about it. But did you support me in it? No. You said I couldn't do it because it's not for people like me, but rather for people who's lives get affected from it. But isn't that what my problem is? Aren't I affected from it? Because I am, and I don't appreciate you telling me I can't do something to my body because what I want done, is only seen in media and photoshop.

[Snowyx]

Dear Me,
Please try to show more emotion when people talk to you so that they can tell you're paying attention to them
Thx

[peppermints & poetry]

dear g,
help. i don't know what to do.
you're so far away.
i'm still mad at h and j and e and s and d.
i can't help it.
and it started again.
i don't know which path is better...
i'm just wandering so aimlessly.
i don't even know if i like writing anymore.
i'm just trying to get through this.
please give me some direction.
it never stops, does it?

loyally yours,
one of the sheep

dear "marinette",
so i finally, finally told you.
and you supported me, like i hoped.
but...it wasn't enough.
i was too scared to mention my anger.
the prejudice.
your words were sweet & sincere.
i almost cried.
but it still wasn't enough.
i'm not sure how to make it enough.
and why do i feel like you want to best me?
besides the fact, i didn't let out how sad i was.
how betrayed i felt, how i cried so much.
i don't want you to feel like she was the only one.
i wish you could feel it how i do.

love,
your "alya"

dear u and sp,

please let me in. please accept me.
i'm holding on. i think it's what i want.

from a dreamer

[Cemetery-Mutt]

Dear, J,P,T and F,

Stop. Just stop it, it's gone on for too long now and its starting to really get to me. Everyday you call me it, Everyday A gets really worried about me. A belives your 'Banter'. She wants to me to stay over her's because she belives that i really am the starving artist out on the streets.

I want to proctect her from you. I don't ant you near her but what can i do about it? After all it is just a stupid name.....

[LonelyGuldfisk]

Dear R.

You forgot. About everything. I don't blame you, you have a lot going for you at the moment. A boy. I'm happy for you, really. But I can't neglect the feeling that what we had, whatever we had, is no more. I've wanted to say this for some time now, but the words can never come out. Not because I can't get them out, but simply because I choose not to. Besides, whenever I do, it always ends up twisted.
You go on about how alone you are. How much similarity you have with me and my social life. But your not alone. In fact, you have more friends then I could count. It's an insult to them when you say your alone! I just hope you'll realise that. I, for one, do not seek pity or attention. Yeah, okay, so I have little to no friends, but that's the truth, not some lie put in place to make me seem lonely and draw attention. I recoil from attention, clearly why I don't have friends. You, well you have such a great talent. Sure your not good at school, or good at video games, but I know for a fact that you will never be friendless because your ability to make friends in an instant is what I envy.
What I really wanted to say though, was not that. It's, 'if you don't want to hang out or spend time with me, then don't pity me or make me feel like a burden.' I thought now that school holidays had arrived this would be our chance to catch up on all the time we missed during school, especially our lack of sleepovers. So, I became persistent. I wasn't desperate, I was determined. I felt like I had let you down. You go on about not having friends, so I asked you to stay at mine. I knew all too well you had plenty of friends and now I think you'd rather spend time with them, because your answer was always the same, "Let me check if i'm working. I am." I accepted your answer. I accepted it for so long. Then he came, L. It's funny, because now that your dating him, you seem to have all the time for sleepovers in the world, constantly staying at his house. I'm not jealous. You ask me to cover for you, because that's what friends do. You don't want your mum to know, so I say yes. But how can I cover for you when you don't even tell me your going to his house. I'm not your pawn.
You forgot. I asked. I let you have your time with him. I was patient. "Let's go to the river on monday. We can canoe and go on the dunes." I said that day, you agreed and said you'd see me then. That was three days ago. I was excited, simply because you are the only person I have left and actually feel comfortable around to be myself. However, an hour ago you asked if I was busy on Monday. I remembered, but wanted to know if you had, so that is why I asked why. You asked if I wanted to watch movies with you. You forgot. I know what this is. You can't keep me if you don't want me. Don't make me your burden!

And p.s, you still haven't remembered. I think i'll just say i'm busy.

[chon]

dear k,
lol i like you a lot but i know you're surrounded by a lot of girls so .-.

dear n,
i also like you a lot but i found out that you might like someone so .-.

dear j,
lol i like you a lot as well but we don't have any classes together so .-.
also wanna drive me home on wednesday bc idk how to get home ahh

dear s,
im sorry, i know i'm a lot to handle and i know i scare you a lot but i p
romise i'm fine. also, i know that you know i don't have a cat ???

[Sleeping With Issues]

Dear J,


Please don't take this the wrong way. My emotions are weird right now you know that better then anyone. I guess a bit jealous not of you and J. Just how easily you're making progress with him. I know it's not easy for you to do it like it's not easy for me but the boy you're into doesn't hide what he feels like mine does. I guess I'm just jealous of how easily J tells you things. I can't get anything out of S if I try he won't even tell me his birthday. I know other small things that I guess are more important to his life than that and I understand why he wouldn't want to tell me with my friends being as pushy for us to be in a relationship as they are. I guess it now saddens me more then makes me jealous. I don't know right now but thanks for putting up with me.


Sincerely,
Your "wife"

[justlooking4awesome]

Dear me,

If I'm feeling emotions, why do they feel wrong?

If I'm feeling "attraction", why is so wrong and bad and so different from what I'm used to, from what I remember?

If this is "good," why does it h͡u͠҉r̀͠t̢҉ so much?

...I'm so tired. Why do I even try?

...for them. I try for them, for those who love me, even if I'm not even sure I am capable of "loving" them back. And... (dare I say it?) for Him, because I know He is there for me and loves me in a way no one else can or does.

I'll figure this out eventually. For now, I'll hold on and trust.

Hold on and trust.

~me.

P. S.: I'll be okay soon. I promise. I don't know when "soon" is--maybe weeks, maybe months, maybe years or decades or the rest of my life, but soon. Soon.