TheComfortCorner | v.6

[Lazy9248]

Disclaimer: This may not exactly fit into the subject of this thread, but this is where I felt it fit best. I apologize if this doesn't belong in this thread. c:

Let me start off by saying this is a huge step for me. I'm proud of myself for making the decisions that I'm making. I'm just terrified that they are the wrong ones and I'll regret them later. YOLO I guess. xd

I have taken the past few days to just think. Think about what I want for myself, my goals for the year, my goals for myself in general and how to achieve all of them from the point that I'm at in my life currently. I thought about the situation that I'm in with my ex. He isn't sure of anything. He wants to be friends with me, but I'm not sure that's the best for me currently. Allow me to explain... I'm positive that he is what I want in my life. I love him as a human being and he may be difficult at times, but I just have these feelings about him that would make me sound crazy if I were to try to explain them. I made a decision that was one of the most difficult decisions I've ever made, but I also believe that it's the best for me and my happiness currently. I decided to stop talking to him since he doesn't seem to be interested in me currently which is stressing me out.

Allow me to elaborate a little more. My ex has been talking to me recently and it makes me happy that he's slowly drifting towards being friends because that's what I'd like. However, I kind of have a lot going on in my life right now (e.g. I'm trying to get a full-time job, take 13 college credit hours, get my Associate's Degree by the end of the semester, move out of my house and into a house with two other roommates, buy a new mattress, etc.) and it makes it stressful for me to talk to him currently. He's also drifting in and out of my life which stresses me out even more because he unsure of what he wants and how he feels (I've discussed this with him a few times). I have feelings for him (I've come to terms with the fact that the feelings may fade somewhat but they'll never go away completely) which puts emotional stress on me and it isn't fair. I don't know how to describe how I feel towards him, but I'm just going to say I'm hopelessly in love with him and he doesn't recognize it at the moment. I acknowledge that I most definitely deserve better and I have moved on and accepted that he can and will date other people. I've tried to go out with other people and I just feel like I'm better off single for a while. I don't take a liking to hardly anyone, so me falling for him so hard was really different for me. As long as he's happy, I'll be happy for him. I just hope deep in my heart that he slowly drifts back towards me some day.

I have a belief that all things in life happen for a reason and if two people are meant to be together that it will happen eventually. I just have a very hard time accepting that. I have a hard time being patient and giving people space and time they need. I know that I'm pushing him away by talking to him so frequently again and that's the last thing I want. I decided it'd be better for me if I stopped talking to him for a while and figured myself out. As mentioned earlier, I have quite a lot of tasks to accomplish currently and I want them to be as stress free and painless as possible. Maybe giving the both of us time to think will be good. I want the absolute best for him and he's told me the same. I hope one day we can be friends and if fate brings us back together, I guess it'll happen eventually. I'm just a bit impatient!

I decided to refrain from using my phone or any social media in general unless it's necessary. I'm also refraining from posting on social media because I want to take the time that I typically spend on my phone to meet new friends and accomplish other things in my life.

I also need to learn to love myself more because to be quite frank, I don't. I need to learn that ultimately my happiness is most important in my life. I just find comfort in taking care of other people and I put their need above my own more often than not. I'm very hard on myself. Growing up, I had a father who was emotionally, mentally, and - on rare occasions - physically abusive towards only me for over 10 years of my life. He just moved out of the house in December 2015 after divorcing my mother and I have never feel so free. He was a controlling narcissistic man that I'm sad to call my father. I hardly ever talk to him and I do my best only to see him when I go to see my siblings because he's a toxic person. He always put me down and told me I'd never amount to anything.

I realize now that none of that is true, but my brain doesn't always believe it. I try so hard to prove to myself that he was wrong. I am an adult now and I work so hard on college and other aspects of my life. I constantly tell myself that I can be better. I think that this break from social media and from this boy will give me time to learn how to love myself finally. It'll give me the freedom to move out and feel like I've accomplished something on my own with no help from anyone else. I feel like I need to prove to myself that I'm not useless and I can, in fact, be self-sufficient without depending on anyone else. I feel like I personally need to prove him wrong even though he probably doesn't care.

I know this was a mess and kind of all over the place, but it felt so good to type it and finally put my feelings into words.

I just realized that this is long-winded. I overthink everything and I wanted to write this out as a post to help me feel more secure about the decisions I'm making. I just feel like every time I make a serious decision that it's a wrong one and I'll seriously regret making it, but I won't be able to change it.

[katarinabluu]

I know its not true but I feel like I need to lose weight. For the past 5 months my weight has been fluctuating from 100-125. The thing is I'm super tall, like 5'9 so I'm naturally skinny. The problem is I HATE working out so my stomach, thighs, arms etc aren't very toned. Its not a matter of me not loving my body it's that I feel really unhealthy...

you don't need to work out to feel good about your body. it's the matter of being healthy to feel good. like eating good protein and making sure your diet is not too constricting, but not too loose. i'm 6"0 and weight 121 pounds along with being naturally skinny. so i get what your going through! i eat very healthy and that's what makes me feel good about my body! so maybe try that. ((and if you really want to lose weight: though i wouldn't suggest it at your weight, try diets that are specifically aiming towards losing weight))


aside from that, can someone please pm me so i can rant and try to get some feedback?

[Selena Vampira]

my anxiety is making me forget things I need help fast

[Thalassic]

haha I'm fat and gross

[MoonStone00]

I'm really worried about myself, I blacked out in the shower earlier and passed out. I don't want to worry anyone. And I don't have access to any doctors at the moment.

I'm just gonna contribute it to me being in the tail end of my period; although it's really light right now.

[.zombie]

im such a bad student. im so stupid. i dont understand anything on the biology midterm review. why did i even sign up for honors bio. i need other students my age to explain thing to me. they make me feel terribly dumb. im going to fail. im going to fail. im going to fail. i hate myself so much.

[equin0x]

I know its not true but I feel like I need to lose weight. For the past 5 months my weight has been fluctuating from 100-125. The thing is I'm super tall, like 5'9 so I'm naturally skinny. The problem is I HATE working out so my stomach, thighs, arms etc aren't very toned. Its not a matter of me not loving my body it's that I feel really unhealthy...

hello! i understand personally what you are going through. i am not a doctor, but i know from experience with a psychiatrist that these symptoms could lead to the beginning of an eating disorder. i am the same height as you, but my weight hovers around 130 pounds. this is considered the lower end of healthy for my height and age. i have a thin build and work out and play competitive tennis regularly, which increases muscle mass. muscle mass weighs more than fat!! i would try to focus on physical fitness vs. being skinny. you might see your weight increase (due to muscle) from exercising more, but that's a good thing!

make sure you drink //lots// of water, because it helps curb cravings and prevents unhealthy weight gain, if you are worried about that. eat your fruits and veggies, and stay away from sugars. i know you said you don't like to work out, but it can really make a difference. find something you enjoy. it can be as simple as walking the dog, sledding, biking with friends, etc. i've found that focusing on fitness/muscle strength helps with feelings of being "too fat." trust me, your body is perfect.

if you want to talk, please shoot me a pm!!

[equin0x]

I'm really worried about myself, I blacked out in the shower earlier and passed out. I don't want to worry anyone. And I don't have access to any doctors at the moment.

I'm just gonna contribute it to me being in the tail end of my period; although it's really light right now.

that must've been pretty scary!! i've nearly passed out before, and it's usually bc of heat (like a hot shower), low blood sugar, or being really sick. i was tested for anemia after passing out in the shower, but the test was negative so idk *shrugs*

did you eat before your shower? was the water really hot or could you have the flu? //that// time of the month could probably have an effect, too. i know you're scared, but i think you should tell someone in case something like this happens again.

pms always open! <3

[lucas.]

i'm so sick and tired of my uncle treating me like absolute garbage. just because you're the boss of me, it doesn't give you a right to treat me like pure rubbish. sorry, but i'm a human being too - if you haven't noticed. it's gotten to the point where i don't even cry anymore because i'm so damn used to it. my aunt does nothing either & don't even ask about my parents. and all my friends apparently just love to leave me on read and not respond to anything i say, right? :') thanks friends, you know i don't even expect less at this point. then there's you all calling me mean and stuff.. 'nd even if i laugh, it really hurts? like i'm already depressed enough, adding onto it with this stuff doesn't help one bit.

i wish i could just move far away from where i currently live. but i'm in college here and i have no job, so i'd be homeless, out on the streets in no college. nowhere. and it's my fault 100% that i don't even have a job, but there isn't really anything i'm good at to help me with the money.

[chaney]

my weight is scaring me

i'm 5'5 and a few weeks ago, i weighed 122 pounds. i wasn't happy at that weight, but i wasn't alarmed. now i weigh 131 pounds. i look heavier and feel terrible. i've been stress eating lately and i don't know how to stop. i mindlessly eat and eat for hours, not realizing the consequences. i want to actually lose weight for once and succeed. i want to set an attainable goal but i have no idea how to accomplish losing weight.