TheComfortCorner | v.6

[.zombie]

sorry if i made any mistakes while typing. its hard to type through tears.

school is so stressful, i dont know how im going to survive high school. let alone survive life.
i have two D's and two C's, im trying to raise them up but theres literally no point. semester ends in two weeks.
gpa requirement is 3.7 for my dream college. i wont make it.
i just dont know what im doing wrong. i keep on telling myself ill try as hard as i can but i always fail on myself. i didnt prepare for tests. and when i did, when i studied for about four hours straight, i got a failing grade.
my anxiety doesnt let me confront my teachers.
im a disappointment. im going to die the daughter who wasnt good enough, the classmate that didnt make it. the lazy, fat, ugly excuse for a person. out of all the people i couldve been, im me. why couldnt i have been born smart? what did other people to deserve thier achievements? why did i have to be born this way? i guess "god" decided to make me this way, huh?
maybe ill just yolo my life from this point forwards. theres no point in trying anyway. ill never get into nyu. ill never move up to nyc with my cat. ill never get to experience the beautiful city. ill never live up to my standards. ill never make my mother proud. ill never become an actress, hell, i wont even be respected by anyone. all i wanted was to be cherished. loved. how can others love me when i dont even love myself?


i guess i could beg for money on the streets of new york. ive always loved the bright lights of the city.


i need help. im begging you please

[Pudd;]

school is so stressful, i dont know how im going to survive high school. let alone survive life.
i have two D's and two C's, im trying to raise them up but theres literally no point. semester ends in two weeks.
gpa requirement is 3.7 for my dream college. i wont make it.
i just dont know what im doing wrong. i keep on telling myself ill try as hard as i can but i always fail on myself. i didnt prepare for tests. and when i did, when i studied for about four hours straight, i got a failing grade.
my anxiety doesnt let me confront my teachers.
im a disappointment. im going to die the daughter who wasnt good enough, the classmate that didnt make it. the lazy, fat, ugly excuse for a person. out of all the people i couldve been, im me. why couldnt i have been born smart? what did other people to deserve thier achievements? why did i have to be born this way? i guess "god" decided to make me this way, huh?
maybe ill just yolo my life from this point forwards. theres no point in trying anyway. ill never get into nyu. ill never make my mother proud. ill never become an actress, hell, i wont even be respected by anyone. all i wanted was to be cherished. loved. how can others love me when i dont even love myself?


i guess i could beg for money on the streets of new york. ive always loved the bright lights of the city.


i need help. im begging you please

You are good enough. I know this sounds cheesy and cliche, but it's true. Have you heard the saying "You have to go through a storm to get a rainbow"? (I think that's how it's said anyways, lol). What I'm saying is, you must go through a lot of terrible things but it will be better. If you need help with school, try getting help from your teacher, peers or online. You need to break out of being afraid of asking for help. It may be scary to approach people, but the worst thing they can say is "No", and if they say an insult than you don't have to insult them back. Just walk away. You know why? Because they're making themselves looking immature and rude. Never lose faith.

If you believe in God,(sorry if you don't, you can skip this part) he hasn't forgotten you.
God will always look out for you, and there's a reason for struggling. We must learn from our mistakes, and we must accept that. There are MANY tests that we haven't studied for in life.

Nobody is ugly. Beauty is preference, and all because you do not fit someone's preference, doesn't make you ugly. I'm sure you're not any of those words you described yourself! I believe in you, and I'm rooting for you. I'm sure there are many others who do too. I see you a lot around, and I know for a fact you're a good, smart and sweet person. A lot of people only want to drag you down and make you feel bad, for some reason it makes them feel better because they think it makes them look cool. Where they really look dumb. Just don't feel bad. I know highschool is rough and the test are pretty hard, but I'm sure it will all work out!

People love you. People care about you. You never know who really care about you. Nobody is unloved, and you should never feel like you are.

Work hard to pull up your grades, too. Like I said before, ask a teacher, peer, friend or go online and get help. Heck, you could even PM me, lol.


Just remember everything will be okay and that you are a not disappointment.

You can always PM me .

[Planet Karma]

My ex boyfriend went to jail about a month ago. We had dated for 6 months. I'm missing him more than ever tonight.
We aren't allowed to be together again. The police said we can't stay in contact.
I just want to know how he's doing and I want him to know I forgive him and miss him.
This is crushing.

[>> Leafstorm515]

sorry if i made any mistakes while typing. its hard to type through tears.

school is so stressful, i dont know how im going to survive high school. let alone survive life.
i have two D's and two C's, im trying to raise them up but theres literally no point. semester ends in two weeks.
gpa requirement is 3.7 for my dream college. i wont make it.
i just dont know what im doing wrong. i keep on telling myself ill try as hard as i can but i always fail on myself. i didnt prepare for tests. and when i did, when i studied for about four hours straight, i got a failing grade.
my anxiety doesnt let me confront my teachers.
im a disappointment. im going to die the daughter who wasnt good enough, the classmate that didnt make it. the lazy, fat, ugly excuse for a person. out of all the people i couldve been, im me. why couldnt i have been born smart? what did other people to deserve thier achievements? why did i have to be born this way? i guess "god" decided to make me this way, huh?
maybe ill just yolo my life from this point forwards. theres no point in trying anyway. ill never get into nyu. ill never move up to nyc with my cat. ill never get to experience the beautiful city. ill never live up to my standards. ill never make my mother proud. ill never become an actress, hell, i wont even be respected by anyone. all i wanted was to be cherished. loved. how can others love me when i dont even love myself?


i guess i could beg for money on the streets of new york. ive always loved the bright lights of the city.


i need help. im begging you please

I'm going to give you some tough honest love here for a moment.

First I want to start with what you said about your anxiety. I have a major anxiety disorder as well, so I can completely understand the feeling that rises up when you even think about confronting a teacher. But your anxiety "doesnt the you" confront your teachers is all wrong! The biggest thing about anxiety is thay people forget the only way to adress it and move on is acknowledge it but still do the the hard thing. It gets easier over time, there will always be tough days but if you keep pushing you can do anything. My senior year in highschool I missed over 3 months of school for a serious illness. I came back with barely 1 month left and all F's.
All f's the week before exams.
I know how it feels to be standing at the foot a terrible mountain and feel like you've lost before you have even started climbing. But if you look at the mountain and say "well ill never climb it anyway why try" or even if you try a few times and fall back down, you will never achieve your goals. If you want to go to NYC and follow your dreams, learn to be a fighter. An advocate for yourself and your future. I battled teachers and hard work and ended up not only getting into the college I wanted, but getting an academic award, graduating highschool with more than 15 college credits. But it wasn't because I deserved it, or because it just happened to fall into my lap. I worked so hard for that.
And what I want to tell you is that you need to rise above. You are beautiful, everyone is in their own way, but you are uniquely beautiful. There is no one else like you in the world. If you degrade yourself to things like ugly and fat (which I doubt you are) then what hope are you leaving yourself to have? Your body and mind are a temple, treat them like one. If you don't like your weight, try to change it. (Ignore this if your weight is from medicine or health issues-I understand those completely).
You've got to remember that all the stuff your battling isn't forever. Your in a hard place now because you've let yourself slide, but that doesn't mean there's no return. But I can tell you right now, that return is hard and will take all your courage and strength to achieve. Out of all the people in the world, you are you . And I cannot think of anything more beautiful. I encourage you to have hope about your future and act on the thoughts you've expressed. Talk to your teachers, your guidance counselors, they are more than willing to help. But they can't help if you don't reach out to them. And there may be some who won't help, I get it. I had some like that. And then you just have to learn and teach yourself. That's the truth of it.

You were made perfect, just the way you were intended to be. Everything happens for a reason my dear, perhaps this is just the rough start to the beautiful ending. Don't feel paralyzed by anxiety of any kind, learn to be in control of it and accept it. Learn to teach yourself and advocate for your future. If you need any help, my pm box is always open. I have creative anxiety management techniques from talking to teachers/oral presentations and stuff. Likely I've been through something similar and I'm here to help. Just know that I love you, I value you, and that you are every bit as incredible as you dream of being. <3

(Sorry for any errors, on mobile)

[tenor]

continuation of my recent posts..
ive become scared to fall asleep..
the threat of nightmares is killing me..
im afraid of any darkness..
i know it makes me feel like a limp,
sound like a kid, but..
i dont know how to deal with this anymore..

[snubbulls]

Today was terrible.
I had to wear dress clothes for a meeting with the mayor of my town and they show every curve of my body.
I'm too feminine and I hate hate hate it.
My waist curves like a woman's and my thighs are incredibly large for a guy's.
I feel like the guys who flirt with me only do it because I look feminine.
It's so annoying and I hate my body.
I'm an okay weight for my height according to my doctor, but I always feel so fat.
I hate it.
I just want to have a normal body without my stupid thoughts and curves and everything.
I'm sick of being mistaken for a girl at school.

[megapolis]

okay okay. very stupid rant up ahead. i don't need
a reply but if you do that's chill. jdiajs. ;v;
i can't help but feel very self-conscious when i talk
to people. i mean, mostly it's just classmates and
peers i know IRL.

i've been on winter break so i guess this isn't a
problem? i'm okay with friends, yeah. but with
people whom i'm just acquaintances with or
whatever.
someone can say something as a joke, but i'll
take it personally. and change my actions.

or noticing a slight change in someone's messages
which probably means nothing, but taking
it personally and being scared of talking to them.
and when i do, i feel like i'm bothering them.
maybe i am. so i think of why their messages
have changed.

maybe i'm clingy. maybe they've had a rough
week. maybe they never enjoyed talking to
me. bad timing? maybe their thoughts towards
me have changed.
i tell myself it's nothing.
this hasn't happened before to me. this year i've
been feeling very self-conscious? and nervous over
things i wasn't before.

like presentations. yeah, i normally get nervous
before them. but i'm not necessarily bad at them.
once i get rolling, i'm good.
now i find it hard to stare up from my paper, or
the slide without panicking. or feeling self-
conscious about the work i've done. it's so hard.
last year i had no problems like this.
i don't know why. if anyone knows, please tell me?

maybe it's just accumulated stress? my grades
are dropping. it scares me so much. a C-. a
C-. two. of. them. in science. i've never
had a grade that low before. one was for a concept
map. the other was for a culminating task. for
the unit test i got a B. i'm no expert in grades, but
that's gotta look pretty bad on my report card.

i'm not a bad student. generally average, with B
ranged grades. occasional Cs [ not too low ] and
As. i'm not stereo-typically smart. last year, i
had a really tough teacher. and i loved her to be
honest. i felt like i learned a lot. i got good
grades, and that was an accomplishment in her
class. i felt like i was ready for 2017. for a new
grade. but no. i'm doing worse. way worse.
it's not like i don't get the material, it's just that
i have trouble concentrating in class. this has
never happened before. i have hard times finishing
things, and i procrastinate too much. i'm forgetting
things a lot too.

procrastination and forgetfulness aren't too bad for me.
they happen a lot. so, not much to worry about there.
but concentrating in class? i'm not too sure. hhh.
i'm doing bad in school.
what will my parents say?
i normally have troubles in the beginning of the year.
but it's now 2017. this shouldn't be happening.

i feel alone.
there's been some family issues, but they've
been quelled. but things are not back to
normal.

i don't know why this is all happening.
someone please help.

that was my all over the place rant. :')
i'm sorry this post is so long. aa.

[0000007]

not that im expecting replies but if you do please dont quote this

i just kind if want to make more friends but its extremely difficult and I dont want to bother anyone so its like
lol okay
its not even a big deal but it also is
this sinking feeling in my chest won't go away and I just have a strong urge to scream at the top of my lungs. probably because everything seems so wrong lately

[atychiphobia]

yay my friends are falling apart! i try so hard to keep the peace between everyone but why try? i mean it gonna happen anyway. alone forever hehehe

[.zombie]

sorry if i made any mistakes while typing. its hard to type through tears.

school is so stressful, i dont know how im going to survive high school. let alone survive life.
i have two D's and two C's, im trying to raise them up but theres literally no point. semester ends in two weeks.
gpa requirement is 3.7 for my dream college. i wont make it.
i just dont know what im doing wrong. i keep on telling myself ill try as hard as i can but i always fail on myself. i didnt prepare for tests. and when i did, when i studied for about four hours straight, i got a failing grade.
my anxiety doesnt let me confront my teachers.
im a disappointment. im going to die the daughter who wasnt good enough, the classmate that didnt make it. the lazy, fat, ugly excuse for a person. out of all the people i couldve been, im me. why couldnt i have been born smart? what did other people to deserve thier achievements? why did i have to be born this way? i guess "god" decided to make me this way, huh?
maybe ill just yolo my life from this point forwards. theres no point in trying anyway. ill never get into nyu. ill never move up to nyc with my cat. ill never get to experience the beautiful city. ill never live up to my standards. ill never make my mother proud. ill never become an actress, hell, i wont even be respected by anyone. all i wanted was to be cherished. loved. how can others love me when i dont even love myself?


i guess i could beg for money on the streets of new york. ive always loved the bright lights of the city.


i need help. im begging you please