TheComfortCorner | v.6

[autumnsoundtrack]

I have to be up in 5 hours to get ready to leave for the airport. Except I still have a lot to pack. And I have to find where my wallet went. And it doesn't help that I have a cold, which I took Theraflu for but it was the nighttime version which makes you drowsy. And all I want to do now is sit in my warm bed with my cat instead of getting up and packing.

I don't want to leave home just yet. I'll miss my friends, I'll miss my coworkers, I'll just miss too much. It was so easy saying goodbye the first time... the second time kinda stings a bit more.

Edit::

Ha ha the drowsy medicine kicked in so fast I didn't even get to pack anything. And it's 5:30. We leave in a half an hour. I feel like Anna from Anna and the French Kiss when she slept in and forgot to pack for her flight - except this isn't a book and I won't miraculously get ready in time. .-.

[Light Bringer]

I just finished a three hour argument with my parents about the fact that a black panther is just a black leopard/jaguar. I won the debate and then my dad turns around and says hes surprised no ones beaten me up yet. Wow. Then i go back in there and try to talk to him and he raises his voice and starts talking to my mum whenever i try to talk. He said i will never be right. He said hes always right even though i have 8 articles saying hes wrong. Im sorry people want to beat me up for being right. Oh wait im not sorry for stupid things like that.

Yesterday he said when he 'summons' me i need to be there. He said he can summon me whenever and where ever. He said the sooner i know and accept the fact that he can summon me the better my life will be. I hate when he says he can summon me, it makes me feel like an animal, it makes me feel like he thinks he owns me. And heres why...
"Summon.
To order someone to be present"
To order someone to be present. Order. No. I dont like it. You can ask me to come and ill be fine but do not order me to do anything.

Also sorry for the rant. You dont have to respond to this if you dont want to.

[n3rvous]

i live in australia.
not only is it so hot in dec/jan/feb, but i had to try and survive a plane trip that should've only been 1 hour and 30 minutes long.
but no. we got to the airport at 6:30 to drop my dog off at the toll thing (i dont know what its called but the thing where you drop your pets off so they can board the plane). so by the time we dropped him off, it was 7:30 and our flight left at 9:30. we still had 2 hours to eat and do stuff. so by the time we finished eating it was 8, so we started walking to our gate, which was gate 9.
we got there in 10-15 minutes. we got a seat and i went on my phone, waiting for the plane. at 9:30 we were ready to get on the plane. 5 minutes later it isnt ready. i text my friends saying i should be on soon, so i wait another 10 minutes, still nothing.
at 10:15, the plane finally arrives - 45 minutes late. so we eventually board, and we wait for the pilot to announce the instructions of safety and that stuff.
we wait 15 minutes and we havent moved. the pilot says that theyre still putting the luggage on the plain. i groan and wait 20 minutes. still havent moved. then eventually 5 minutes later we start moving. but guess what? only to find out, not 1, not 2, but 7 jets are in front of us. i wanted to scream. the flight couldnt get any worse, right?
wrong! we're halfway in the air, the flight attendants are giving out food. we hardly got any, only the free ones. then they get ready to take orders - AT THE FRONT. so then we see the flight attendants rushing past us with their drinks and food. my mum taps one of them on the shoulder and asks whats happening. she literally said that the pilot told them tessellation was about to happen and they needed to go to their spots. the stupid thing is - TESSELLATION DIDNT EVEN HAPPEN!!!
i was TIRED, HUNGRY AND MAD from that flight. i have to go back to the airport tomorrow to get back to melbourne from sydney. i dont want this experience again.

[cerulean blue]

ok this has been a real sensitive thing
i have been experiencing. i don't know how
to avoid or ignore it or get over it.
its one of my strongest weaknesses.
(sorry for ranting)
i put a lot of effort into things. for example,
school talent show, everyday choreographing
a routine, getting my MOTHER to look at it, trying
to make her help me which ended in some little fights.
borrowing/stealing my PROFESSIONAL concert costume from
my dance troupe to actually wear it and guess what? i
lost to a girl that had always entered the comp and won first
place everytime, i was devastated. i forbade myself to ever
listen to the song i danced to. Or when i wrote a long
as story about this adoptable thing, even asking
my MOTHER to proof read it and ended up loosing
to the other 1 entrant that handed in 2 pixel headshot.
i get that I'm being selfish or something, or over estimating
my self, but i don't like getting let down. sure its a
part of life, but i can't get over it, and now I'm scared
to put a lot of effort into something because i would
get let down :c
i just need some advice and support.

[Lee-Sins]

Parents. Just parents.
While I never had much of a problem from mine when I was back in highschool because my mother worked nightshifts so we never really saw each other. Which that was alright. I just had school during the day and at night cooked dinner and all the chores and I'd do petty things and go to bed by the time she'd get home.
Well only problem now is that my mother doesn't work anymore, so with her not working and sitting at home being bored she's decided to strike up some drama. Which it is a usual thing between her and my older sister anyway. I live 4k+ miles away from her and the rest of my family because lets face it I'm the black sheep. Though I've also got a family of my own to care for. I have never been one for the 'drama' phase. I would rather be left alone to do my petty things. With that being said from 4k something miles away now she's trying to rule me, order me. Even going to the extent to alienate me from the rest of the family by saying a bunch of not-true things.
Of course the rest of the family also thinks the world of her because she's always been 'upstanding'. So now my phone is blowing up by family, my mother, and now even some of my friends from back there. I answered one call from a good friend of mine who kind of filled me in with what has been going on there and I'm just rather mind blown.
Why do people do these things? Boredom? Depression? I mean I just don't understand it myself. So I'm not even really sure why I'm putting this here.. but here is my blurb of what I've been dealing with.

[redhorizon]

Okay im sorry if i am annoying but i kinda need to talk/rant

Okay so first of all.. Why does everyone in the school have to go and tell you what is wrong with your body/face? Like yes i know I do not have a big butt yes i know that i need to get my eyebrows done again and yes i know that personality isnt like all of yours. Sorry i just had to get that out :c

Don't be sorry :3

Here's my little shred of wisdom. People are going to say things. That's what people do. We can't change that, so we have to learn to ignore what they say. It sounds cliche and stupid, impossible to do, but it is amazing how much your attitude towards the situation can change the outcome.

I have people tell me I'm fat, that I'm ugly, heck, I just got through a breakup that tore me to shreds. Yesterday, the day after the breakup, I wore sweats and a pajama shirt to school, lacking motivation. SO many people came up and asked me what my problem was, why I was so mopey and depressed all the time. People are going to be jerks, we can't change that. We just have to try to change our view of the situation. Maybe instead of focusing on what they said to you, focus on why they said it. Maybe there's something going on that's causing them to feel insecure so they take it out on others. Focus on that, not what they said.

I hope that helped at all, this really helped me, so I'm passing it on.

[Unleashed Squiid]

I genuinely need help. This is scaring me so much and I need to know what is happening!

So I only just realized something. I tend to have very realistic, vivid dreams. I can feel everything that happens as if it were real.
Last night I had this scary dream where I was fighting these monsters and one of them attacked me and started biting me. Not a big deal, right? Just a dream? Well I woke up because in the dream I felt every single tooth sink into my skin and it hurt terribly-it was like the pain you'd feel in real life and when I woke up, the pain didn't stop. Then I realized while I was dreaming I was cutting into my body with my finger nail so hard it was leaving marks and pushing down on my stomach to simulate the feelings to make it more real in the dream without even knowing it. Is it possible that when you're asleep your mental filter to not hurt yourself is numbed? Could I accidentally kill myself?

A lot of times I will wake up with blood under my nails and wonder what happened and scratches that I have no clue where they came from.

Today my stomach hurt so much I'm genuinely scared I did something to it. Whenever I get hurt in my dream I know why it hurts now.

Another example:
Once a few years ago I was choking in my dream as well and almost died? I remember it in vivid detail as if it happened yesterday. I woke up completely out of breath shaking and with tears in my eyes. I thought it was such a realistic feeling that I thought it could have been real. Now I realize it actually could have been real...

[Thalassic]

I genuinely need help. This is scaring me so much and I need to know what is happening!

So I only just realized something. I tend to have very realistic, vivid dreams. I can feel everything that happens as if it were real.
Last night I had this scary dream where I was fighting these monsters and one of them attacked me and started biting me. Not a big deal, right? Just a dream? Well I woke up because in the dream I felt every single tooth sink into my skin and it hurt terribly-it was like the pain you'd feel in real life and when I woke up, the pain didn't stop. Then I realized while I was dreaming I was cutting into my body with my finger nail so hard it was leaving marks and pushing down on my stomach to simulate the feelings to make it more real in the dream without even knowing it. Is it possible that when you're asleep your mental filter to not hurt yourself is numbed? Could I accidentally kill myself?

A lot of times I will wake up with blood under my nails and wonder what happened and scratches that I have no clue where they came from.

Today my stomach hurt so much I'm genuinely scared I did something to it. Whenever I get hurt in my dream I know why it hurts now.

Another example:
Once a few years ago I was choking in my dream as well and almost died? I remember it in vivid detail as if it happened yesterday. I woke up completely out of breath shaking and with tears in my eyes. I thought it was such a realistic feeling that I thought it could have been real. Now I realize it actually could have been real...

It's actually pretty common for people to lack this filter in one way or another. I mean, sleepwalking is pretty common. People do all kinds of things in their sleep. You should see a doctor since you're actually harming yourself, though. The dream was actually your brains way of explaining the pain you were feeling, not the other way around, and it's definitely possible to do something dangerous in your sleep, so please talk to an adult about this.

[talkshow boy]

//just a vent, you don't have to reply if you don't want to

i just need get something off of my chest that's been bothering me...
i came out as bi to my mom a few months ago. she didn't yell at me or anything, i knew she wouldn't be upset, but
she said "oh, well.... maybe you'll be able choose when you get older." it really bothered me, because it's like she's saying that i can't like males and females. i feel like she just brushed it off as hormones, thinking that i'll either be lesbian or straight in a couple years. i don't want to confront her about it or anything, it's just been worrying me for a while.

[SilentMelody]

//just a vent, you don't have to reply if you don't want to

i just need get something off of my chest that's been bothering me...
i came out as bi to my mom a few months ago. she didn't yell at me or anything, i knew she wouldn't be upset, but
she said "oh, well.... maybe you'll be able choose when you get older." it really bothered me, because it's like she's saying that i can't like males and females. i feel like she just brushed it off as hormones, thinking that i'll either be lesbian or straight in a couple years. i don't want to confront her about it or anything, it's just been worrying me for a while.

well, that would bother me a lot as well. when I came out to my mom as lesbian, she didn't think much of it until I actually started dating a girl.

I think you should just stick to the way you feel <3 and sexuality can be really confusing at times, so maybe someday you will decide that you only like boys or you only like girls or something totally beyond that. it's up to you to decide who you are! don't let anyone, even a parent, change that at all.