TheComfortCorner | v.6

[miss kobayashi]

spending another new years eve alone.
no on even bothered to text or message me.
happy new years, huh?

[Mavi]

spending another new years eve alone.
no on even bothered to text or message me.
happy new years, huh?

I feel you I had plans but my best friend canceled at the last minute so I am just curled up on my couch sobbing why does my life have to be so pitiful and lonely... I am not good at dealing with people, but I absolutely hate being alone, the holidays are so hard on me since my family has abandoned me too... so I am a big ol ball of happy and joy aren't I hell...

[ever changing]

I'm just so...exhausted??? I got off work a little after midnight, I haven't
been able to sleep at all tonight because I am at my parent's house and
I have severe insomnia when I have to sleep somewhere other than my
own bad, and I have to be back in to work in two hours to basically work
another 15 hour shift.

[Ploegy]

I wish people would just be truthful with me instead of lying right to my face when I know it's not true. I guess everyone takes advantage of my kindness and uses that against me. How upsetting. All I wanted was for my friend to tell me the truth

[witchypuppy]

I wish I could've spent New Year's Eve with my best friend..

[Herlock Sholmes]

I'm just really bored. Like, I have important things that I should be doing, but I don't want to do them because I want to do something else, but I also don't have any motivation to do something else, so I'm just sitting. Being unproductive. But I'm still bored.

[Reiji]

I'm just… so scared and afraid. School is starting soon and I just remembered how much school makes me depressed, gives me a lot of stress, beat my dead self-esteem corpse and causes me anxiety. I don't have any friends, I'm a slow learner, I rarely talk and it hurts my throat, the teachers are the worse, the school counselor is harassing me, I'm really stupid just like everyone says and I just don't have the energy to go to school. My panic attacks are getting worse, my family doesn't care about me, I'm getting all depressed again, I can't sleep, I can't eat and I'm just so so so scared about the future. It's 4 in the morning and I just feel so sad. Yesterday my mom threatened to… I can't I'm just... I can't sleep mom I can't sleep stop telling me to pray I don't believe in god and if I told you that you'll literally kill me. Dad please just stop you know I'm stupid you already told me that I am so many times you already me that I'll have no future that I'm just going to rot please I already know that and you know that stop asking me things and thinking that I could answer it. Please just stop talking to me all the time if I ever say something you all would… You all never even listens to everything I gotta say just because I'm stupid, a nuisance, a trouble in the family just stop. The counselors told you to bring me to a doctor three times already but you never listen because you're too busy doing stuff on the internet or watching the television or going out doing some political stuff. Everything I say equals nothing in this household and everytime I stand up for myself I- Ii i i cant im just so scared i don't want school to happen cant i just just do nothing.?

I have two people in mind I could talk to but I really can't bring myself to, talk to them somehow? I trust them, they pop up in my had when I think of friends but I just feel like everyone is out to get me. Even if they aren't I'm just so paranoid and I can't stop thinking about these strange thoughts.

I've never felt safe or good under my own skin anymore
I couldn't remember if I ever did these past few years. When I could, I cry, because I hardly ever feel it anymore. It felt so weird because it's like, being someone else, someone completely different. I can fabricate feelings and pretend that everything is okay and sometimes I actually feel like it is but sometimes it just snaps me back into reality.

[redhorizon]

I'm just… so scared and afraid. School is starting soon and I just remembered how much school makes me depressed, gives me a lot of stress, beat my dead self-esteem corpse and causes me anxiety. I don't have any friends, I'm a slow learner, I rarely talk and it hurts my throat, the teachers are the worse, the school counselor is harassing me, I'm really stupid just like everyone says and I just don't have the energy to go to school. My panic attacks are getting worse, my family doesn't care about me, I'm getting all depressed again, I can't sleep, I can't eat and I'm just so so so scared about the future. It's 4 in the morning and I just feel so sad. Yesterday my mom threatened to… I can't I'm just... I can't sleep mom I can't sleep stop telling me to pray I don't believe in god and if I told you that you'll literally kill me. Dad please just stop you know I'm stupid you already told me that I am so many times you already me that I'll have no future that I'm just going to rot please I already know that and you know that stop asking me things and thinking that I could answer it. Please just stop talking to me all the time if I ever say something you all would… You all never even listens to everything I gotta say just because I'm stupid, a nuisance, a trouble in the family just stop. The counselors told you to bring me to a doctor three times already but you never listen because you're too busy doing stuff on the internet or watching the television or going out doing some political stuff. Everything I say equals nothing in this household and everytime I stand up for myself I- Ii i i cant im just so scared i don't want school to happen cant i just just do nothing.?

I have two people in mind I could talk to but I really can't bring myself to, talk to them somehow? I trust them, they pop up in my had when I think of friends but I just feel like everyone is out to get me. Even if they aren't I'm just so paranoid and I can't stop thinking about these strange thoughts.

I've never felt safe or good under my own skin anymore
I couldn't remember if I ever did these past few years. When I could, I cry, because I hardly ever feel it anymore. It felt so weird because it's like, being someone else, someone completely different. I can fabricate feelings and pretend that everything is okay and sometimes I actually feel like it is but sometimes it just snaps me back into reality.

I can really relate to you. Feel free to PM me, I have some nice advice for you if you want it.

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Happy new year you guys! I'm always here if ever you want to talk to someone.

[.zombie]

school is way to stressful I just can't.

some advice would be greatly appreciated.

i really want to get into a good college, and so far it isnt going well. I had all As and crap except one C last quarter, and im trying to get my grades up for this quarter as well. What freaks me out is that I have midterms. And I swear, I am going to fail the heck out of those tests.

Ever since about two years ago, when I was in middle school, my grades started plummeting. The problem? It was probably a mix of not knowing what was being taught and just going through puberty i guess.
I thought it was going to be a small phase, but it wasnt. And I hate myself for it. I was at the top of my class, now im somewhere in the middle of failing and getting a high grade. I just dont understand how other students are so smart. They juggle sports, school and social life in one sitting. I dont know what the heck is wrong with me. Yeah, I do admit to procrastinating, which is proabnbly why my grades started floppin around when they did, but my smarts,, are just gone??
to those who are at the top of their class- could you help a fellow classmate out? What is your secret?