TheComfortCorner | v.6

[skypoppy]

I feel like my family doesn't know me. Pink??

[Eagle's Eye]

I just want to let this out
Today I went out with 8 of my friends and ate dinner together
6 of them were playing guessing the lyrics to English songs while two friends and the three of us couldn't join in because well, we don't really listen to English songs. (not trying to be offensive or anything)
So I was silently scrolling my phone and one of my friends who was playing the game was like "Why aren't you playing this game?" and I answered "I don't really listened to English songs" and then she just went back to playing. Like honestly, none of the six of you could notice that three people are awkwardly silent? There are so many games that you could play on a dinner table, why can't you choose something that everyone can join in???? thanks for leaving me out :)
And then I just asked someone how to read something on the menu and she was like "Omg you don't even know how to read this???"
Like omg are you expecting me to be perfect or anything? I hate the phrase "you don't even know _____?????" so much. I don't see you being perfect.

[hellebore]

My mom can't afford much. For Christmas, she sent my brother a lot of money in gift cards and it got stolen. For us, five dollars is a large amount and what mom sent was a luxury, and someone had the nerve to steal it.

[*Infinity*]

It's Christmas Eve and even though I'm surrounded by family... I still feel so alone.

I just. I give up. Depression wins.

Depression only wins if you let it.

I know how it feels to be surrounded by people and still feel like an outsider and completely alone. Its not fun, and its even less fun trying to fit in and belong.

But you shouldn't just give up. Give the holiday a chance, in your own way.

[Flannels]

im in tears rn and hysterical for no reason and i literally cannot breathe and im counting and shaking n trying to calm myself down but this happened out of nowhere things were going ok and i just want to die but i dont wanna die my brains like DIEDIEDUE but im like i WANNA LIVE and golly gosh my head is HURTING

[*Infinity*]

I have a headache and have to wrap a million gifts for tomorrow beacuse it's still Christmas eve where I live.

The wrapping is the least important part. Get some rest and find some old pillowcases. Crafty chic!!

[*Infinity*]

I hate you too mom

You can't pick your family, but you can pick your feelings. Make sure they're the ones that count.

[i<3 wolves678]

Christmas day is almost over. Don't get me wrong, I enjoyed it. It was a brief distraction from my problems. I feel bad for complaining seeing what others are going through. I have a loving family, a good amount of money, and good friends. But what I lack, is self confidence.

There's a reason my teacher says I'm going to fail that one course. Because it involves a section where you have to talk about yourself. I hate myself. I honestly despise myself. My friends and family tell me otherwise. But I can't see past the negative things. Everything just goes so fast. It's less than an year and a half until I go to college, so if I'm feeling this pressured now, I don't know how I'll cope. I'm scared, and I feel so alone.

People in real life hate me for my actions as a child. People on the internet hate me for my interests.

I want to be normal.

I want people to see me as a human.

But I'm not normal.
I never will be.

Sometimes I'd think it better if I just didn't exist.
I've been trying to distract myself from everything, but as the holidays come to an end, it just puts more and more pressure on me. Pressure to be perfect. Pressure to be what I'm not.

I feel so selfish for complaining
I have life so good

But it doesn't feel that way.

[*Infinity*]

I feel awful. I still miss him. I know you never get over a family friend or anyone you knew passing, but I just want to not feel like it was my fault. I haven't talked to that person for a couple years, but knowing that they went through so much to be happy, and so much to be clean, and then it gets taken away. I know they're in a better place now, and they're finally where they belong, and where they wanted to be. I just wish we were there for him. I wish we could of prevented it. I wish someone could have saved him. I know, though, he is in a better place. He is where he worked and wanted to be, and nobody could take that away from him.


Anyways, I hope everyone has a Merry Christmas and to cheer up . Try to stay positive, and remember that you are cared about and loved for by someone. You may not know it, but someone does truly love you and may not know how to say it. I wish you all peace and love all your days.

I hope that with time you learn that it was not your fault. Even with the utmost support, some people are unable to continue.

Its not your fault.

My Christmas Wish to you is that his sacrifices have a lasting meaning. Just because you were not able to help him, does not mean that you will not be able to help others in the same situation. Use what you know to reach out to others and make his memory a legacy.

[cambion]

I need to vent to someone, can I get a pm?