veronica. wrote:im not okay. i havent been for awhile. i cant talk about it so ill be really vague but i went through something very traumatic when i was younger and im only just now starting to deal with it, and just last year i told my parents what happened. its really stressful and a lot on my shoulders. my depression and paranoia has become increasingly worse because of it. im struggling to make up classes in school and i quit my job because i couldnt handle the emotional distress on top of it. its just a lot ya know? i have no idea how to deal with this. i dont know how to deal with amything. i have no friends to talk to. my parents wont put me in therapy. at this point i might end up in the hospital again lol ! funny funny
It may seem mean, so please don't think I'm being like that, but maybe it'll be better to be back in the hospital where they have to give you a Chaplin or therapist to speak with, and can prescribe stuff for your depression and anxiety.
I hope you get the best help possible so that you can become the best you possible, too!
I don't know what you are dealing with, but I hope that wherever you are, and whatever you decide for yourself, that you stay safe.
Please talk to someone, anyone, so you can get the help you need. You may be the person that someone else going through the same stuff is watching so that they know how to handle it. Or maybe you will be able to help someone later on who thinks no one understands though the same thing.
Talk to a teacher, principle, pastor, Chaplin, relative... Someone. please.
You are important. Never forget that.
loves1098 wrote:very menial and probably nothing important but I really wish people didn't always remind me to "smile" all the time or that I look "scary" or "upset". Apparently being myself means I'm doing something wrong, I guess.
There is nothing wrong with you, I promise.
I used to do that, go around all the time telling people to smile, whether I knew them or not. "Smile, sunshine!" was my anthem.
Know why?
I was trying to hide the hurt I felt inside. Tried to hide from it, too. Didn't do much good, but I made some other people feel good. And there were others that hated when I did it.
I stopped when someone told me (in a very rude and unforgiving way) that I made them "uncomfortable". They assumed I was coming on to them, even though I said it to everyone. So I rethought it, and stopped.
I'm not suggesting to be rude or unforgiving, but maybe telling people straight up that they are making you uncomfortable when they tell you to smile will help them rethink their approach to you.
When they say you look scary or upset, look directly at them and declare "Nailed it!" Leaves 'em guessing!!

brendon urie, wrote:if i was dead everything would be better and she'd be happy
But you are alive, and that is the best revenge of all.
Things don't get better just because you're dead. It don't work that way. Please believe that. There is always consequences.
You can move past this, grow past this, and forget her if she's like that. Be a success! Its great fun! And you'd be a natural!
Just don't give up and make her happy. She don't deserve it, and neither do you.
Planet Karma wrote:I have had the crappiest Christmas Eve.
I work in retail and people have been so awful to me today and crushed my hopes while I worked my butt off to help them.
I need to see some good in people soon. I know it's there somewhere.
Retail is gotta be one of the worst places to be this time of year. Really.
Its like people lose all sense of themselves and become greedy and self-centered in their attempt to be giving. They can be the nicest people any other time of the year. And then by Christmas Eve they turn into viscous madmen.
Turn on a sappy holiday flick (I like Seuss' Grinch - the old animated one) and warm your toes in fuzzy socks, sip something warm, and call someone you haven't talked to in too long. Doctors orders for restoring your holiday spirit!!
