TheComfortCorner | v.6

[Shiny Sylveon]

Do I not deserve friends? Am I not good enough for friends, life? Is that what it is? EVERY SINGLE TIME I make a friend, you find a way to RIP them from me! This is the first time I've had a friendship that's lasted longer than a year, and you're going to break my trust and happiness again!? I've already been through middle school once, so why do I have to go through that loneliness phase again!? I can't handle this...I can't go back to sitting alone and crying throughout my entire lunchtime every day like I did several years ago. Why can't I just keep him? Why does life not want me to have friends? Is my step-dad right? Am I really just a waste of a life?


Now my mom's mad at me for not lying to my stepfather and stepsisters about my meals with mom...I can't do anything right...I really am just a worthless girl. I'm sorry...I promise I'll stop asking for things...please love me again.

[dovies]

My two parakeets and my cockatiel passed away today and I'm really suffering. It was so sudden and I can't figure out why... I can't stop crying

I'm sorry to hear that. My guinea pig passed away yesterday. They're all together now. If you need to talk, PM me. (:

[seventh scripture]

my brother abuses me
he says he wants me to die
he threatened to stab me
whenever my mom isn't home i'm in charge since i'm older and he always screams at me whenever i tell him to for example turn down the volume
i remember once he took out his plastic sword and whacked me on the back of my neck and i lost feel in my hand for over an hour (idk how ??)

i tell him that when he gets older and he hits a girl that it's illegal and he doesn't care
i just
it hurts
my mom says that i need to stop annoying him when i don't do anything
.

[Thalassic]

I feel miserable
I'm trying to catch up on commissions, but then my kitten get sick and I have to take him to the vet and care for him
And then I get sick and doing anything at all feels extremely difficult
And tomorrow I have to go to my school to judge some sort of a contest and I can't not go, because our "team" is ridiculously small as it is, and the judging is likely going to take a full. work. day.
Oh, and on top of all that, I just started my period. 3 days early. Just. Perfect timing.

[froid]

my brother abuses me
he says he wants me to die
he threatened to stab me
whenever my mom isn't home i'm in charge since i'm older and he always screams at me whenever i tell him to for example turn down the volume
i remember once he took out his plastic sword and whacked me on the back of my neck and i lost feel in my hand for over an hour (idk how ??)

i tell him that when he gets older and he hits a girl that it's illegal and he doesn't care
i just
it hurts
my mom says that i need to stop annoying him when i don't do anything
.

hey-that is not right! nobody should be treated like that, especially not by their own brother. how old is he?
usually that's how a child plays-have you sat down and told him how you feel about it? perhaps telling some
one about it? perhaps try and explain to your mom that he is treating you harshly, and telling you things like
that. she should listen to you-if not tell another trusted adult about this situation.

[dovies]

Now I'm worried about my other guinea pig. ): She's drinking water & eating her hay, but she isn't eating veggies or her other food. She's fine besides that though. I know if can be a side effect of losing a cagemate. But I'm still worried.

[bowiee]

please, i need a pm. or a hug. anything.

[alouetta]

my best friend of 17 years is gone
it didnt have to end that miserably
you couldve had the best last day
you couldve gone cuddled up and warm with a roof above your head
but you died so miserably
you died in the freezing rain on the side of the road
unharmed, but old
thats not how you should have gone
i miss you so much
you were all i had
and i just

[My Immortal]

My friend is going residential for eating disorder treatment. That hit me like a ton of bricks. For all the wrong reasons. I am so glad she's getting help. But it brings back up all my anorexic thoughts. I have been trying so hard to conquer this. And I think I have, and then... It's just realizing stupid things like I can't be anorexic because I am too fat. I can't get help because I am 'not bad enough'. I did it on my own. But I haven't done it yet. And I probably will never get the chance. Now I have to go pretend it's fine. Shovel food into my mouth, despite the physical and emotional pain it causes.

[critter]

I cant do this anymore. I have been hiding my pain and trying so hard not to show my depression and anxiety. Don't just think that my depression, or any kind of depression is just 'being sad', no, you cant eat, you cant sleep, you cant be social, you cant think the right thoughts, there is so much more I can list but I wont. For five years I have hid my pain with 'Its was fine' 'Yeah, it was OK'... I just want to scream that im not OK. My thoughts, its not a different voice, its your own voice doubting you. 'Im too fat', 'im too thin', 'im too stupid', 'I cant do this', 'no one loves me.' And soon... you begin to believe them, the slightest thing will push that thought into play, and it hurts so much, people, and my parents/aunts/uncle/cousins, say this 'Well, put on you brave/happy face for everyone else.', I have, I've used it so much there are cracks and chips in it. Im broken.
Sometimes, I feel no emotion, or too much. The emotions can be just one, or all that cloud my head time to time killing me. I have done somethings in the past that haunt me to this day. People say 'unless you've become suicidal, your not really depressed!'.
I dont show it, but its there, you think its better, its not, I have just gotten better at hiding it and you got better at pretending it doesn't exist.
I know my mom doesn't care, she points every flaw of mine out to my face, she insults me, and acts like my friend the next moment. Im afraid to tell them, Im afraid of help. My friends, back where I used to live, were so helpful, they stopped it for so long, now.... Im over five states away. I feel so alone and sad. Please, anyone, help me. PM me if you want to help or hear it all.
Thank you.