♥Crushes, Boyfriends, and Girlfriends | V5♥

[ehsmithy]

Being in love with my best friend can be a real disaster...he was having a bad day, and I just wanted to let him cry on my shoulder until he felt better. It hurts me to see him sad or mad as his best friend, but as a crush, it just breaks my heart. Then there's the fact that during some times, I get hopeful that he might like me back, but at other times, I feel that I'm not even deserving to be with him as a friend. He's sweet, dorky, and fun to be around, but I'm a total opposite.

Today was his birthday...he seemed so happy, so it really made my day. Too bad I didn't get to talk to him for long.

I so know where you are coming from, I guess you could say I fell in love with my best friend. Luckily none of my friends (and some of his) aren't idiots and they realized something:
I liked him and he liked me.
Sometimes, you have to wait to see the signs, sometimes, your friends will say "I caught him looking at you during .... today" and your heat will give a little leap.
Trust your instinct. The mind is better at reading people than you think. Watch his body language, how he speaks to people. It can hint a lot.

I'm sorry if this doesn't help, but it is what I did to get into a relationship with my best friend.

[.zombie]

im so lucky to have so many stupid friends that i secretly adore [as friends of course], but sometimes i want more. i try to be pretty. i stand at an awkward 5'1 and 130 pounds. im trying so so hard to shed it off but its so damnnn hard augggh.. i just want someone to like me back, for who i am.
my love interests are so so complicated. i swear to god if a cute guy with a nice personality starts a conversation with me i automatically think hes into me. i mean its happened so many times but i still cant stop myself. and i end up moving on when i know he doesnt want anything more than friends. why am i so stupid???

in conclusion, i wanna cuddle. bye

[pizilo]

Hello! My name is pizilo, and if you are kind enough to read this whole story, please help me. Thanks.

I wish I could make this short, but I cant.

It all started in 7th grade. First day of school, super excited to meet new people. I walked into my English class, and the people I was assigned to sit next to were pretty cool people- of course I didn't know that at the time since it was the first day. But right when I walked in, since I was a little late finding the classroom, everyone looked up at me. It was the typical awkward "I don't know you" look on everyone's faces. I sat down in my assigned table group, and across from me sat O. O had bright red hair, it was super cute along with his deep brown eyes and freckles. We kinda connected when we looked at each other. And as the year went on that class became like family to me including the chill teacher we had and everything was so memorable that we did that year. But O and I became friends, best friends, faster than you could imagine. We used our school email during class and would make little faces across the room like "bro check your email" and it would always be long conversations about random stuff. We talked about really personal stuff too, I trusted him with everything, and he trusted me with everything of his too. It wasn't the only class we had together, the other one was Art. In Art, there was a girl-now known as one of the hottest/most popular girls in school- and he liked her a lot. They started dating about 3 weeks into the year, and all he could talk about was her. I didn't know I liked him. I did, but I was oblivious. He started talking about having his first kiss with her, how he was planning it to happen at a pumpkin patch that everyone goes to. I was happy for him, for real. Later they broke up. I wasn't happy about it, since I was still confused about my feelings. But when we had "library days"-basically when your class goes to the library and you are expected to read til the end of the class period but everyone just messes around- me and O would sit on the couch in the back together. Taking pictures on our Snapchats and stuff... they were precious moments. After one of the library days, I got an email around midnight that said "hey i realized something today, i like you, here's my number - " and I didn't believe him at all. That's when I found out my real feelings. I knew I liked him a lot finally. It was the craziest feeling rushing through my body, he likes me back he likes me back, oh my gosh. I told him I liked him back too, but that we couldn't date, and he thought it was better that way. He came back the next day. Told me he was back together with her, the girl from Art class. I was crushed... the whole year was shook from then. Constant fighting and ignorance, awful ways of getting back at each other. I told him I loved him at the end of the year...he only laughed and teased me about it. The end of the year came and I longed to see him one last time before the summer, but with all the hussle and bussle of signing year books I never did.

8th grade year. I'm over O, this summer I had found out about a boy I'll call, K. I had a migraine problem in 7th grade, and couldn't get through PE classes so I would stay in the guidance office during 9th period. It was the time of year where you had to confirm your 8th grade electives with your counselor so you would get a pass to the office. I sat in the office, working on homework and this kid came in and looked like the most chipper person ever. Super goofy and cracked jokes and was just being adorable. I had NEVER seen him before at all, so I asked if he was in my grade to the person next to me-and she said yes. I didn't know his name till the yearbooks were out. Fast forwarding through pestering my friend to tell me about him to the start of 8th grade year, where he was in my homeroom. We listened to the same music, loved the same movies, made each other laugh so much...until his birthday party came along where he discussed with all of my closest friends that he knew I liked him...and everyone agreed. I was heart broken. He said that I "made him want to drink bleach". I didn't even know what I did to deserve that. Had feelings? Well, I can't help that.
I got over him eventually, even though I was head over heels and thought I never would.
It was weird. Idk if this is just me, but does anyone else feel empty when you have no one to crush on? Because I do. But then I met N (I know, another boy, right?) But this time we are just friends. I'm not telling anyone I'm crushing big time on him. I'm keeping my distance and resisting the urge to mess with him and flirt. I try to act as normal as I can. We get along well and he makes me laugh really hard all the time and he's super sweet. And then N2, another N, who's in my band class. He sits behind me and plays trombone. He always messes with me and definitely flirts a lot, I like him too.

But lately everything is drifting away. I feeling like now I'm over K, I felt like I had to get other guys-yes I should be independent but it's not that easy. But now I feel like im pushing myself...and I don't know if it's just by habit. But I still look for the red hair in the crowds, I still poke him in the hallways, I still long for a hug from him. I see him all the time... but it will never be the same. He's part of the popular crowd, and I'm not. But he refuses to stand up for me being his friend. He acts like I don't exist when they are around, and he knows it. He said he's sorry for acting that way but idek. I can't believe after so long, I still act the same. I never talk to him, but I want to. I feel like I need him.
It was always him.

Please help. Advice. Urgently.
Thanks so much,
pizilo

[Rising]

im so lucky to have so many stupid friends that i secretly adore [as friends of course], but sometimes i want more. i try to be pretty. i stand at an awkward 5'1 and 130 pounds. im trying so so hard to shed it off but its so damnnn hard augggh.. i just want someone to like me back, for who i am.
my love interests are so so complicated. i swear to god if a cute guy with a nice personality starts a conversation with me i automatically think hes into me. i mean its happened so many times but i still cant stop myself. and i end up moving on when i know he doesnt want anything more than friends. why am i so stupid???

in conclusion, i wanna cuddle. bye

Have a reassuring hug.
It doesn't matter what you look like because when you meet someone you're romantically compatible with, apperance will be one of the lowest priorities. Honestly, anyone looks beautiful when you're in love with them as a person, attributes irrespective. Are you trying to lose weight for yourself, or just to make yourself seem more attractive to others? Make sure you're actually doing it because it's what you want. I'm sure you are very pretty, awkward or not.
Maybe if you want to stop assuming everyone's into you, it might help you to make an effort to stay friends with some of these guys? Honestly, it's totally normal to want a relationship regardless of how many friends you already have, but if you find out a guy isn't into you but stay friends anyway, nobody loses anything. You can still search for love and you've gained a friend in the process. You might not have them on a romantic level - but surely it's better to be involved with them on a friendly level than not at all?
It sounds cliche but ultimately you never know where you're going to meet your boyfriend or how, it could be a total shock to you, out of nowhere and the last thing you ever expected or it could be someone you see every day. Just stay out in the world, stay open minded and one day it will happen.

[chaeminqq]

I wish I could make this short, but I cant.

It all started in 7th grade. First day of school, super excited to meet new people. I walked into my English class, and the people I was assigned to sit next to were pretty cool people- of course I didn't know that at the time since it was the first day. But right when I walked in, since I was a little late finding the classroom, everyone.. etc

I feel like with K if he's ignoring you with the populars he shouldn't be considered a friend. Drift yourself away from him, he's not worth it if he isn't trying to hang out with you. I feel like you shouldn't date anybody until you're in high school as it will start soon, as it's fun but you will always end up heartbroken. This is the time to kick back, do well in school, stay happy and like whoever you want.. just keep it lowkey. 👌 I'm not an adult or anything and seems like I'm in your grade but I hope I helped a bit. Let people make the effort to like you, and if you like someone don't make it obvious. If someone is really trying to go out with you and you want to too, go ahead. Just don't get too hung up on them or attached

[regular;]

i have a small dilemma.
so, in options i'm in musical theatre, and there's this one guy in a grade older than me that teases me and makes me laugh - you know, normal boyish friend things. well, today we had to set up for the musical and miss an entire day of school. him and i are both in props, meaning we basically had to work together. one of my friends, "k", told me something that got me really upset. yes, it was about another boy, but that's out of the picture since i'm telling everyone i'm over him. anyway, this guy - G - saw me upset and asked why. i said it was nothing, but he insisted he knew something was up even after i tried to laugh. he wouldn't stop until he got an answer, which to this very moment he still hasn't. he started threatening to hurt himself if i didn't tell, so at that point i was trying to snatch everything he was using. i thought it was just a joke. i was wrong. he used a boxcutter we were using and actually pushed it against his skin. i immediately tried to get it away from him. we "hate" each other, so at first i thought he wouldn't care. but he did. he kept saying it was stressing him out and at that point i was like "oh my god." my friends had always told me he liked me; i never believed them. but today, i saw something different in him. not the "makes jokes and laughs a lot" but the "i'm serious. i actually care". i mean, yes, he's attractive, nice, funny. and yes, i knew i kind of liked him. now it's on a whole other level. he cared so much. even his friends say he likes me. problem? i don't want to know if he likes me. i'm so self-concious and i think if i confessed my feelings people would laugh and tease me. he's a grade older after all. i'm so confused right now. i guess i'll update the situation tomorrow since we're doing the same thing.

[redhorizon]

How have I not seen this thread yet?

Well, I'm not going to go on a HUGE rant about my girlfriend yet, but I do want to just say that she is wonderful... Beautiful, strong, smart, she's everything I've ever wished to be. She can make me smile when nobody else can, she can light up my day... She's so perfect but she thinks so little of herself... I see the most amazing person to ever live when I see her, and she sees nothing... I just love her so much, I worry about her. The girl is just so wonderful <3

(P.S. Sorry, super off topic, am I the only one who uses they/them pronouns but NOBODY ever gets it right?)

[SilentMelody]

okayokay there's this girl I really like and she's gay too and I wanna tell her that I like her and sometimes she lowkey flirts with me so idk?? ahhhh

racing thoughts and ongoing sentences oops

[L.V.L]

What will you do now?
You told everyone he broke your heart and that you want everyone to fight him. You blamed him for your over thinking of the whole situation and now you've pushed him away. You thought he broke your heart but you're the one who broke his. Now you want to fix everything. You want to tell him that you still love him and you were the one over thinking the whole thing. You want to say that you're sorry and you want to go back to normal. You don't want to miss him anymore and you want that awkward hug again. You want those cute and also stupid smilies he used to give you. You want him back. But do you really?

Apparently I can't actually write what I feel;
but if I put it in a poem type thing, I can.
So just change the "you's" to "I", since its referring to myself.
I don't know what I've done. And I've cried everyday since Saturday,
and I see him everyday in math class.
I miss him so much - and all mine and his friends says he's sad all the time now - it's all my fault!

Dang it!
I started tearing up in class - which I never do in school. Like, I've literally never cried in school before.
And I just couldn't handle it. Seeing him sitting there with the most heartbroken look ever just killed me inside.
And I'm going to finally go up to him tomorrow, or hopefully Friday, because I can't stand to see him like this anymore.
I just need to tell him that it wasn't his fault, for anything.

Well... it didn't go so well.
I barely saw him today like I usually do - all I saw him was the beginning of math and then he left to go to another classroom.
I just don't know what I'm doing anymore.
Should I just try and move on? I don't think that could ever happen though, it's just something about him that makes me want to be there and makes my whole day better, even with all of this going on.
And the winter break coming up soon, that's not helping at all!
I have tomorrow and then all of next week to talk to him, to try and fix this.
Update:
I decided to message him over Facebook, this is what I said:
"Hey sweet.
I just want to let you know that I don't know what happened, but I still love you. I don't know if you're dealing with things right now and that's why you're being distance, but whatever it is I really do hope that you're okay. Seeing you everyday and that sorta sad look on your face just tears me apart and I don't know what to do about it.
I'm so sorry if I did something to cause this silence.
I love you *name*.
And I hope you're alright <3"
And now I'm super nervous for tomorrow and if he doesn't read it tonight then I won't be able to know if he's seen it until tomorrow after school … and … ugh! What have I done?!?

[redhorizon]

okayokay there's this girl I really like and she's gay too and I wanna tell her that I like her and sometimes she lowkey flirts with me so idk?? ahhhh

racing thoughts and ongoing sentences oops

I'd just go for it! That's what I did with my girlfriend and it turns out she'd liked me for 2 months and had been too scared to ask (Those two months of liking me can never beat my three years of liking her xD). I'd just go up to her and just ask her how she feels about it