Nobody bothered me, not that I knew of, at least. And I was okay with that. Somehow, through my unrest, I knew night had fallen, and I took this opportunity to relieve myself in the cave that the griffins had designated for such a thing, to keep the rest of the area clean. It was at a mountain peak, so that nobody would be disturbed by the smell.
After doing my business, I took a moment to look at the brilliant night sky. The moon still looked full as it hung low in the sky. I felt a slight pain in my heart as I thought of Solstice. Oh, how I wanted to talk to her. She’d make everything better. She reminded me a lot of Lofty, with that tender motherly personality. I started to cry again and flew back into my lonely cave, crawling back under the nest.
I sighed when I heard the gong chime. Another day was upon us. I wondered if anybody would hassle me about not going hunting, but to my surprise, nobody did. While it did feel nice at first, my thoughts began to linger, and I grew scared of being kicked out again. Nobody would be there to stop Blackbird from doing so. I was easy prey.
Just as I was about to cry, I heard the soft footsteps of someone slowly approach my nest. With my ear so close to the ground, I was able to focus on the vibrations, and knew it must’ve been Trinity. She always had a gentle and shy gait that was easily recognizable.
“Kage told me about what happened.” she said as I felt her press against the nest I was under. “I’m so sorry, Dante, I cannot even begin to know what you’re feeling.”
I sighed, rolling my eyes. Here comes the sympathy.
She let out with a gentle sigh herself, and pressed even harder against the nest. “I miss you,” she murmured. “It’s lonely out there in the play area without you. Erion is worried too, but he feels there is little he can do. My mother says that it’s best to leave the grieving alone, but I can’t do that, not anymore. I love you and care about you.” she said.
Tears welled up in my eyes as she spoke. In my grief, I forgot just how much I loved Trinity. I still didn’t feel like replying, afraid my voice would just be the same haunting cries.
She didn’t speak anymore, instead, she began to hum a gentle tune. It was a lullaby that Lofty used to sing to me, just then it occurred to me that Lofty didn’t think it up herself. As Trinity hummed, the words began to form in my mind. As they did, Lofty’s gentle face appeared as well, staring down at me as she sang.
Dawn is come, the sun is gone
As the world falls into silence.
The time for sleep, the time for rest
As you lay inside my nest.
Tomorrow will come, the sun will shine
Oh little griffling of mine.
Hush my child, sleep my baby
The sun will be there when you wake.
Dawn is come, the sun is gone
The world has fallen to silence.
As the world falls into silence.
The time for sleep, the time for rest
As you lay inside my nest.
Tomorrow will come, the sun will shine
Oh little griffling of mine.
Hush my child, sleep my baby
The sun will be there when you wake.
Dawn is come, the sun is gone
The world has fallen to silence.
I was a sobbing mess when the song ended. Not only did it make me miss Lofty even more, it made me feel more love towards Trinity. More than I knew was possible.
The weight was lifted off my nest, and I realized then that she must’ve been laying on it. “I have to go now,” she told me as I heard her footsteps grow farther. “I hope to see you tomorrow.”
I hope so too. I thought in reply.
The hunting party must’ve returned, because it wasn’t too long after Trinity left that Kage entered. I knew so by his heavier and bolder footsteps. “Hey, I thought you’d be hungry so I brought you something to eat.” he said carefully. There was a few minutes that passed before he spoke up again, he must’ve been waiting for a reply.
“I’m sorry about what happened to Lofty, I truly am,” he said, ending on a pause. He walked closer to the nest and I felt his head press up close to it. “But you cannot keep this up much longer. I know you need to mourn, and I’ll let you, but Blackbird won’t. He’s already delivered a threat that if you don’t start to hunt again, he’ll banish you. According to him, if a griffin doesn’t become a part of the flock, then there’s no need to keep them around. He says that rule has been around for decades, but I don’t believe him.” he explained to me in a hushed tone.
His words stunned me, but it just made my pain of Lofty’s death worse. After more waiting to see if I’d reply, Kage sighed and pulled away.
“I don’t want to lose you,” he said as he walked off.
I was left alone for the rest of the day. I was thankful, because I had a lot to think about. It was obvious there were others who still cared for me, but there was still a plot to banish me beneath it all. I didn’t know how to feel. I wondered for awhile if I should leave on my own, save Blackbird some precious breath. But then I’d betray Trinity, Erion and Kage. I couldn’t leave my friends behind like that.
I tried to encourage myself to step out of the nest, eat whatever Kage left me to regain energy and get back to life as usual, but I couldn’t do it. But my sadness paralyzed me. And would it be life as usual? Lofty was gone, I’d be all alone. Blackbird would still be scheming, thinking up ways to banish me and not look like the bad guy.
Life would be even harder than it was when Lofty was alive. I’d have less support now, less griffins on my side whenever Blackbird decided to banish me. I was stuck at a crossroads. Two choices, both of which seemed equally as bad. But, eventually, and with a heavy heart, I made a decision.
When I assumed night fell, I mentally prepared myself to step out, spread my wings and leave. If I did, I wouldn’t be welcomed back, and I’d be abandoning some dear friends, but it seemed like the best decision, though it had me on the verge of tears. I crawled out from under the nest, but stopped when I saw something laying in front of me.
It wasn’t the food Kage left, that was a couple feet away. No, this was a griffin, but not just any griffin, Erion. He was so close to the nest, I was worried I woke him, but he stayed still. I slowly and ever so gingerly stepped over the sleeping griffin. I didn’t want to wake him. I just wanted to slip out and leave.
But for a moment, I paused and stared back at him. When did he come by? Did I happen to take a quick nap while I waited for night to fall? Do his parents know he’s here? I decided to answer those questions later and instead continued on my plan.
“Dante?” a sleepy voice spoke up.
I froze. Erion had awoken. I turned to see the griffin standing up, peering at me with wide eyes. I forgot that griffins had a
problem seeing at night. It came so easy to me. He stumbled towards me, his depth perception obviously compromised by the dim lighting.
“What are you doing?” he asked.
“Eating the food Kage left for me.” I replied. I wasn’t lying, that was exactly what I intended to do.
He kept walking until he bumped into me. He paused before crawling up on my back. I felt as his claws connected as they wrapped around my chest. He laid his head down against mine. “I missed you.” he mumbled, obviously starting to fall back asleep.
I sighed, turning my head to nuzzle him. “Do your parents know you’re here?” I asked him.
He nodded.
I was surprised. They willingly let him stay with me? Maybe I wasn’t as hated as Blackbird made me out to be.
“Mother said if it made you feel better, I could stay with you.”
Tears welled up in my eyes again. I was a mess. “Thank you, it does. But I need to eat, maybe you could get off me, please?”
“You can eat with me on you. I’m tiny, you’re big.”
I sighed. So much for my great escape. Waiting for him to fall asleep wouldn’t make it any better, either, griffins have the ability to lock their talons together and keep them locked, even in sleep. Lofty told me it was because we used to sleep in trees.
I looked at the piece of meat, which didn’t look appetizing at all. The blood reminded me of Lofty’s blood spilling into The Cove. That was enough to turn me away, despite being terribly hungry from not eating for two days.
Erion had already fallen asleep, and since he was locked to my back, I didn’t think it appropriate to sleep inside the nest. So I turned around and laid on top of it. It was nothing but a mess of sticks and fluff now, but it was still a nest to me. I actually found it comforting to have Erion’s heavy body on top of mine, and it helped me fall asleep faster. Though I still had those troubled dreams.
I was awoken early by Erion as he crawled off my back, and then dragging me off the nest.
“Thanks for letting me sleep with you,” Erion said as he waited at the mouth of the cave for his mother to awake and get him.
I slowly stood, my night wasn’t peaceful, and I was awake for the most of it. So, naturally, I was tired. Sleep didn’t come easy because Lofty’s death was waiting for me when I closed my eyes. “Don’t thank me, thank your mother.” I replied, shaking my head as I saw him standing there. The gong hadn’t even chimed.
He said nothing in reply and I took place beside him. The sun was just starting to rise, the gong wouldn’t be chimed for a few more minutes. I looked over at Erion. “Do you like watching the sunrise?” I asked him.
He nodded. “I always get up before Mother to watch it rise.”
I smiled, a thought coming to my mind. The smile felt odd, I hadn’t smiled for two days. “Do you want to get a better view of it?” I offered and stood, turning my back to him and getting into the perfect position for him to climb on.
He looked excited, but hesitated. “Is it safe?”
I nodded. “Nothing will happen to you.”
He trusted my words and hopped on. Once I was sure he was secure, I spread my wings and took off towards the pillar.
I gently landed and turned to the sun. It was rising over the trees, so it wasn’t too easy to see, but from the height of the pillar, it was still a much better view. I looked over at Erion to see his jaw drop.
“Beautiful, isn’t it?” I asked him.
He was speechless and simply nodded.
It was beautiful, there was no doubt to that. The beams of yellow stretching across the dark blue sky, slowly turning it to the light blue of the day. The glow it gave off illuminated the entire landscape, causing the whole world to glow. It still didn’t compare to the sunset, though.
Suddenly, the gong chimed, making us both jump, startled out of our daze. I looked down to see all the griffins stir and quickly flew back down into my cave before anybody noticed. To my surprise, the sunrise made me momentarily forget about Lofty’s death, and it only came back the moment I landed and noticed the cave to be empty.
Erion leapt off of me, a wide grin spread across his face. “Thank you so much for showing me the sunrise!” he exclaimed.
I smiled softly at him, but this smile felt forced as depressing thoughts flooded back into my head. Oh, to be innocent again. The moment Lofty died, my innocence left with her. I knew of death, I grew up knowing Lofty was my adoptive mother, but after witnessing it, I broke.
"You're welcome," I replied.
His mother approached and smiled at me. Erion chirped and nuzzled with force, almost knocking her back. "Did you enjoy your night with Dante?" she asked him.
"Yes!" he exclaimed and opened his beak to tell her, but he hushed him.
"You can tell me when we get back to the cave." she told him and looked at me. "Are you doing better?" she asked me with obvious concern.
I wanted to nod, but instead shook my head with a sigh. "Erion cheered me up for awhile, I won't deny that. But still, Lofty's death is continuing to haunt me." I replied.
"It will. Deaths tend to do that." she said. "Don't let it torment you, though. You need to eat, and you need to get back to living."
"What do I have to live for?" I asked her sincerely.
She looked at Erion, who had wandered over to the nest to play with it. Despite having quills, he still acted like a griffling. She then looked me in the eyes. "You tell me." she replied.
I knew exactly what her answer was eluding to. My friends popped into my mind as I chewed on her words.
"Blackbird is trying to make everyone hate you, but there are still those who are willing to trust you." she said.
I shook my head and turned away, tears were starting to form again. Trinity came and sang to me, Kage brought food, and Erion spent the night with me. But not only that, Erion's mother allowed him to do it. More than just my friends cared for me.
"Thank you," I whispered. "I'll try."
She approached and gently nuzzled me, purring softly. "Take your time, nobody is rushing you."
I looked up at her and nodded with a smile.
She smiled back at me, turning back to the exit of the cave. "Come on, Erion, it's time to eat!" she called to him and he bounded after her with a chirp, the sticks from the nest falling off him as he ran.
I laid down once they were both out of sight and watched the griffins all return to their caves to eat. My eyes eventually drifted up to the sky as I continued to think. What she said was great, but it felt like my heart belonged elsewhere. Solstice was out there, and I wanted to see if more dragons knew of my parents. But then again, I had plenty of friends and griffins who cared about me here.
I was torn between two worlds. One was all too familiar, and the other strange and new. I wanted to live in both, but I knew Blackbird would never allow it. I dug my claws into the ground. Blackbird, that monster. The moment I thought about him, a familiar figure approached. For a moment, I confused with with his brother and got a little excited, but when I saw that cold stare, I knew this wasn't Kage.
"So, you're up," he said as he stood at the entrance of the cave. "Does this mean that you'll start hunting tomorrow?"
His voice had a tone that I couldn't put a name to, but it gave me chills. "What does it matter to you?" I asked back.
He grinned wickedly. "It matters a lot, actually. Not to me, but to the entire flock. See, Blackbird doesn't like a waste of space, and that is you at the moment. There are plenty soon to be griffin families who could take that cave, and yet, there is a depressed griffin inside it, not even using the space."
His words hurt, but I tried not to show it. I was a waste of space? "Why doesn't Blackbird come here and tell me this? Have you become his voice?" I decided to retort.
He let out with a low snarl. "Our leader is busy with other matters, besides, he says that if you are going to go back to hunting, then you can stay." he told me and took a step closer. "The thing is, though, I don't want that. I don't trust you. The only reason Blackbird said that is because he doesn't want to lose more griffins."
"You used to trust me. You played with me all the time."
"I was younger then. Foolish and naive. When Blackbird began to grow suspicious of you, I listened in to the conversations he had with the older griffins, and they all made sense. You are a danger, Dante. Rebellious, strong, huge and possibly a dragon yourself. I wouldn't be surprised if a dragon swapped eggs after killing your parents."
He was speaking nonsense. "You have no proof! Besides, look at me, I'm all griffin. How could I be a dragon?"
"No proof? You've got to be kidding me. Green eyes, large size, unbelievable strength. Maybe you have scales under those feathers, too. Dragons come in all shapes and sizes, you could easily be one in disguise."
His words hurt, but they also made me pause. I looked at my wings and preened the feathers. Dragons didn't have feathers, they had a strange skin on their wings. I had feathers on my wings. Right? As I slowly preened through, I noticed something jarring. A golden skin was hidden underneath my wing feathers. Since when did that grow in? I preen myself everyday, I would've noticed something. Unless it grew in while I was mourning.
I looked up from my wings to see Dimidas standing over me, his grin spread wider. I yelped and jumped away, surprised that he moved that quietly.
"See? Proof." he said, walking past me and out of the cave. "Just wait until Blackbird hears about this." he chuckled to himself quietly.
I wanted to beg for him not to do it, but I stopped right at the last moment. That would give him too much pleasure. I sprinted out of the cave to where I expected Kage to be, playing with all the others.
He smiled when he first saw me run toward him, but it quickly faded when he saw my panic. "What's wrong?"
I showed him my wings by pulling out a clump of feathers, showing off the skin. "Dimidas noticed this the moment I did. He's going to tell Blackbird about me, I'm going to be banished!" I sputtered out as quickly as I could.
He was shocked when he saw my dragon-like skin, and even more surprised with the news. But he wasn't the only one who heard and noticed, I caught the eyes of a few others, who were simply surprised by my words.
"He can't do that, though," Kage said. "You're not a threat. There's no proof."
"Oh, there's plenty of proof, and he's plenty enough of a threat." Blackbird's voice bellowed. Dimidas was quick. The black griffin slowly approached me as all eyes turned to him. On his right side was Dimidas, glaring at me with fierce eyes.
Before I knew it, a crowd had gathered around us. Frightened and confused eyes surrounded me.
"In case most of you are unaware, just a moment ago, Dimidas told me that this griffin that we've all trusted, is actually a dragon." Blackbird announced to the crowd.
Gasps filled the air, making me cringe.
"Behold, the golden scales this beast hides under his disguise!" he exclaimed and raised up my wing, showing off the feathers. I didn't fight him. How could I?
More gasps, I pulled in my wings and looked at the ground.
"Now, just like his parents, I shall send him to where he belongs."
That was what broke me. All of my pent up anger towards him, all that I'd been building since hatching, spilled out. I was his size, and I was simply submitting and letting this one eyed bully banish me? No, not today. Not after the promising words spoken by my friends, not after Lofty's death.
I sprang at him with a fury I didn't know I had. I slammed him to the ground and dug my claws into his chest. "If you want to send me to my grave, then do it here, right now! Don't let some slimy dragon do it. You've always hated me, so why not kill me here? Maybe it'll satisfy you enough to leave everyone else alone." I yelled at him.
He struggled to get me off him, but eventually met my gaze. "Then get off me and we shall fight properly. I would love to kill you."
"That's what I thought." I said, jumping off him. I looked down at my talons and smiled to see blood on them.
"So, Dante, you want a fight to the death?" he bellowed.
He wanted this to be a show, didn't he? Then I'd give him one. "Yes," I hissed, turning to face him. I didn't even wait for more words to be spoken and lunged at him again. But this time, he expected it, and jumped away, quickly jumping for me.
It was obvious he was a skilled fighter. His ability to dodge showed that all too well. But he was old and out of practice. I didn't have the fighting experience, but I had the youth. Because of this, my attacks with swifter, and I was finally able to claw his face. I missed his good eye, but it hurt him enough to make him pause.
That pause gave me just enough time to build a charge, and I ran at him, digging into his neck with my beak when I made contact. The taste of his blood furthered my fury. It was a mistake to go without eating for so long. He shook me off him and I was left with bloody feathers.
I could see, for a split second, terror in his yellow eye. I smiled. "Scared?" I roared, and he actually flinched. "Good, because you now get to see the creature you've feared! The creature you fed. You are not a good leader, but a vicious tyrant. You use and abuse us like we're mere fodder! Not actual living creatures!" I ran at him, and he dodged, just as I expected. I quickly whipped around and grabbed his tail in my beak, biting down hard.
He yowled and flipped around, trying to make me let go. I did once a claw got too close to my eyes. He charged after me, screaming. I leapt out of the way and flapped my wings to get myself a little airborn. Then I flew at him with my head down and headbutted him with such force he slammed into the pillar with a loud crack.
I smiled, thinking that I had broken a wing, and landed, folding in my wings. I strutted towards him. "Do you give up?" I asked him, expecting him to look at me. But instead, his body was still. My smile, pride and anger all vanished when I saw the blood come from his head. My stomach sank. That crack wasn't a wing. I killed him.
"He killed him!" a griffin echoed my defeated thought.
"He killed Blackbird!" another cried.
Everybody was filled with panic as I just stood there, the battle flashing before my eyes. I looked down at my blood soaked talons, my feathers spattered with the stuff. His blood now tasted bitter as my stomach churned.
"Silence!" Dimidas bellowed. The crowd quickly hushed, and I slowly looked up to see my old friend approach me. "Blackbird already wanted to banish you, and had many reasons too. But this, this is an offense that nobody can forgive. Dante, you are hereby banished from The Circle of Mountains. If you show your face here again, we will not hesitate to kill you."
My eyes were still wide, and his words fell on dead ears. I didn't care anymore. I felt terrible, I felt like I deserved my banishment.
"Well? Are you going to say something or are you going to fly away and join your own kind?"
I looked at the sky, nodded and spread my wings. I was just about to fly away when a voice spoke up.
"Wait a moment! I have something to say." it was Kage, and I turned to see him walk towards us.
"Kage, stay out of this, it doesn't pertain to you."
"Lies, Dimidas! It does to pertain to me. Dante was like a younger brother to me, I cannot let you banish him like this."
"Look at Blackbird! What Dante did is unforgiveable and is punishable by death, I'm doing a favor just banishing him."
"Blackbird got what was coming to him! Dante's right, he's a bully! And I cannot believe you are following after him. You used to hate him as much as I did, what changed?"
"His words began to make sense to me. He was right about dragons, just as he's right about Dante."
"You've never even seen dragons! Not enough to get an idea of what they're like!" Kage turned to the crowd. "You should be praising Dante! What he did was heroic!"
The other griffins looked away. I couldn't read them to see what they really felt, they looked away too quickly. Even Trinity had turned away. My numbness began to wear away and tears flooded down my blood covered cheeks.
"They seem to agree with me, brother, now let Dante leave peaceably, we don't want another fight." Dimidas said to Kage.
Kage flinched when Dimidas addressed him as a brother. "Don't you dare call me brother. If you want to banish Dante, then you're going to have to banish me too."
My eyes widened when he said that. I wanted to disagree, but I was speechless, the sound of Blackbird hitting the pillar repeated constantly in my confused head.
"Fine then," Dimidas said without a second thought. "If that is what you wish. At least he won't die alone."
Kage looked almost as defeated as me. For the first time I saw tears hiding in his eyes. I'd never seen him cry before. He opened his beak to retort, but quickly closed it after the bitter stare from his brother. He looked at me. "Come on, Dante. They clearly don't need us." he told me and spread his wings.
My wings slowly stretched back out and we both took to the sky. Too much had happened in such a short span of time. I had now witnessed two deaths, one by my own claws. Kage was disowned and banished by his own brother. We were both broken and lost. We stopped flying once we reached The Forest, assuming this would be the safest place to hide.
We each chose our own branch to rest on. Kage let the tears loose, and I couldn't help but cry with him. "I'm sorry," I whispered.
"Don't be, Dante. You did nothing wrong."
"I killed Blackbird. I did a very bad wrong."
He sighed and shook his head, resting it on the branch.
We both lay in silence for a long time, watching life continue as it always does around us. After all, it was still day, and the forest was bustling with life. We were also left alone, which didn't help my dead feeling. Something died when I killed Blackbird, but what was worse, was that something awoke in the fight. I didn't want to see that part of myself ever again.
Maybe I was a danger, maybe I was a dragon in disguise. Maybe I was the vicious monster everyone believed me to be. Because of me, Blackbird is dead, and Kage is banished. I looked at him as he silently cried on his branch. I wanted to help him, but I was just as broken. "I'm sorry," I whispered so quietly, even I barely heard.
Author's Note wrote:If you're wondering why the ending of chapter nine seems so abrupt, it's because nine and ten were originally the same chapter, but when I realized how long it was, I cut it, and didn't know how to make it better.