number one!! i think laughter like that holds me together; when i laugh like
that i have to totally lose myself in the giddy absurdity of funny - it's a sweet
and simple shoulder-shaking cheek-flushing respite, and when i'm done crying
from laughter i get the same emptiness that follows a good cry, but it's more
of a hopeful new-slate emptiness. so yeah, laughing like that, especially in good
company, that's pretty beautiful.
1. slipping into a scalding hot bath and letting the prickly feeling of heat fade
into a warmth that slowly seeps its way into your bones, and letting the dirt
and grime soak away until you feel fresh, and new, and warm
2. early morning ocean swims in the autumn, when the water is so cold it takes
your breath away and the air isn't much warmer, and it's just you and the water
and the things that call the water home, and the sunlight dapples the water as
you slip in and out, back and forth between the underwater silence and the early
morning silence
3. waking up warm, toasty, and well rested in the early morning and lying in a
half-awake blanket-softened world, secure in the knowledge that nothing needs
to be done that day, and feeling excited by everything the day could become
4. feeling at home in your own skin, at ease with your thoughts and emotions
and in tune with your identity, and recognizing yourself when you look into the
mirror because the version of yourself you present to the world is the same
version of yourself that exists inside your head
5. driving home really late at night in the summer with the windows down
and the warm, dark, and heavy summer air twirling your hair while you listen to your
favorite song way louder than you should be, so loud you can feel the bass
rattle your bones and your heart flutter as if it's no longer sure what rhythm
to follow