╔═════════╗║
║
║
║
║
FILE ACCESS [GRANTED]XXXXX
Username: River Song
Cat Name: Emrys
Gender: Male
Rank: Citizen
Clan: Neo Haleth
Age: 48
Trying out for: #900c ║
║
║
║
║╚═════════╝ Go downtown, for just a moment. Stand in the road. Stare up at the city – the lights all around you, the buzz of bodies moving, the scream of the traffic pushing against the seams of streets.
Hush.
Listen.
Watch the advertisements flicker past in magenta and teal. Watch the man on the corner, the one in the suit – watch him swallow hard. He’s trying not to cry. Watch him turn away from the raging of the street.
Close your eyes.
Hush.
Listen.
The city will tell you what it knows.
The city will tell you about the man who courted death.
----
Emrys North is still a kitten when he hears about it. He’s bright eyed – gets good grades in a not so good school, and looks to the future with nothing but optimism.
It’s a classroom presentation that gets him – lit up grey-blue on a smartboard, talking about the infinite possibilities, the innovations of technology that spill from minds just like his. About the projects and the funding - the bounty of opportunity in the search for immortality. The promise that someone, anyone, could crack the code.
He talks to Mister Creek after class, and the teacher smiles. This gem of a student could be worth so much more, in the right hands. Mister Creek’s whiskers twitch.
He doesn’t get a chance to say goodbye – but that can hardly matter, not when the world he’s brought to, this new world around him, is so bright and clean.
The lead researcher has fur the colour of metal siding, and spectacles that slip down the bridge of their nose. Still, they smile at the newcomer – promise him that this is his chance to do something worthwhile with his life. He promises himself that he will.
It takes ten years before Emrys makes any real progress, but on the night of his twenty first birthday he manages to isolate a signal. A small blip in the data, so insignificant that he’d overlooked it at first. He tweaks the numbers. Runs a simulation again. The result is staggering. Here, in the light of a monitor, Emrys swears he’s unlocked the secret of the universe.
This knowledge alone isn’t enough for him. He promises he’ll share it – he really plans to, but not yet. Not until he’s ready. He goes old school, transfers the file onto a hard drive – deletes it off the shared system. Holds the knowledge closer than he’s held anything before.
He refines his code outside of the research station. When he runs the simulation again, he expects an error message – or, more tentatively, success. What he doesn’t expect is a
cat.
She’s sitting on the edge of his desk, and he nearly jumps from his fur.
Her figure is hazy – like light through smoke, but her eyes are gentle, the corner of her mouth upturned.
“You’ve been spending an awful lot of time on this, haven’t you.” Her voice is like distant laughter. He pins his ears.
“Wh- Who are you?”
“
Your project. Your science – I’m the reason it can’t work,”
He reaches out a paw – and the molly jerks away. “
Don’t.”
He looks back to the screen – the spiral of numbers. When he looks to his desk again, the cat is gone.
In the coming weeks Emrys North finds her again – not predictably, not sensibly – but when the code runs, she appears, sometimes – and the pair talk, sometimes. She never gives a name, never tells him how or why she’s appearing. He enjoys the moments of connection.
He’s sipping his coffee, alone in his kitchen, when he finds himself missing her for the first time.
She visits more frequently.
He calls in sick to work.
Days pass – turn to weeks. Time bends at the side of his companion.
He drops the research project.
He lets the code run in the background – doesn’t dare to stop the process.
Two years later, they’re sitting on the couch in the evening, something senseless on TV. She’s watching him more than she’s watching the show, and laughs when he spills his popcorn across the cushions.
He swats at her gently with a paw, forgetting, for just a moment, the reality of the situation. She isn’t fast enough to dodge his teasing hand. Her laughter dies in her throat.
His paw brushes against her upper arm, the first time he’s touched her, and Emrys’ world explodes. He can feel the softness of her fur beneath his paw. The recycled air of the apartment. The couch beneath him.
But he can also feel so much more. Knowledge overwhelms him. There’s a cat next door, in apartment B27 - who will die to the hands of another. The family in B16 all catch the same illness, go down one by one. For the mother in B32, it’s a workplace accident. He can feel tears on his face – but doesn’t know when he started crying.
His spectral companion stares at him – apology written across her face and in her eyes. Emrys stares at his paw.
When he stands, he walks to the monitor. Looks at his code – the knowledge of the universe vivisected before him. The flicker of the screen makes him feel sick.
His companion looks to him, her form shifting and flickering in the synthetic light. Her apology is quiet as a sigh.
The room goes dark when he unplugs the computer.
His headache lasts for weeks. The knowledge never really fades - he sees it on the face of everyone he meets.
When he steps from his apartment, he hears the ghost of paws behind him, glances just over his shoulder. Nothing is there. Nothing is ever there.
----
Head downtown, for just a moment.
Watch the changing faces all around you, the buzz of people living, laughing, breathing in the city air.
See the man on the corner. He’s trying not to cry.
The city says to him,
Hush.
Listen.
He cannot turn away.