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To my 2nd Part
Playlist
In this playlist there are two parts: themes and playlist. The themes are the music that plays in the background of Poptart's story. Think of it as a OST. The Playlist are the songs to help enhance the form. It would be awesome if you listened to the music, but it's fine if you don't. Not everyone has the same music taste.
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Yes, this is all use! c: Hello, my username is Ittam and I'm trying out for Kennel #8, also known as Poptart. Okay, let me just say this now. As soon as I saw Poptart I knew I would try my hardest for her. For a while, I have been looking for a certain type of character. What kind of character was that? A seemingly canine hybrid with long ears and a brown base with unnatural colors. Why? Because those types of characters are what I really like. I really like natural characters, but I don't want them to be too boring so I what I usually do is have a bit of unnatural coloring to have them stand out. I love long floppy ear type, hence why I love hound dogs so much. I like brown colors because they are easy on the eyes in my opinion. So, the point of this paragraph: To show that Poptart is the perfect character for me.
Right away when Poptart was donated I knew what I was going to do with her, her life story and what she means to me. The things I will do with Poptart is let her become my fursona, get/buy art of her, use her in a story when she is a radio show host, make her the official Ittam/SilverIttam mascot, use her in Roleplaying, and quite possibly make podcast for her radio show to become real.
First off, Poptart will be my fursona. I'm not taking this lightly either. I usually do not take fursonas because I do not like having one character that's higher then the rest. My first fursona, Overture, is currently retired but I still make art and care for her. How long have I had Overture? I had her for three years before I decided it was time for her to rest. At the least, I will be actively using Poptart for three years. Three years may not seem like a lot, but for a lot of people on the Internet, who can change their fursona like they change their clothes, this is an extremely long time. Of course I will keep her as my sona longer, but the smallest amount of time I could have her (and that would mean that I'm sick of her; that's highly unlikely) would be three years. I'm excited to have her as a fursona because I feel she represents me well. Sure, my favorite color isn't pink (it's purple but it's still pretty close) but it's actually a color that most of my clothes are, so we have that similar aspect. Poptart has a cute and silly name, which so do I in real life such as Purple, Sunshine, Key Lime Pie and the like. I identify with her on that. There are a lot more things that we both have in common, but I really don't want you to be reading this all day. The point is that she has so much in common with me it will be a joy to use her and to have one character who's a bit higher then the rest.
Second off, what I will do with Poptart is allow her to get tons of art. Recently, I have sold and given away most of the characters that I have no attachment to. That now means I have lots of room for new characters. However, I will not be going that route. At the moment I have 30 characters. I don't think that's too many compared to the 50 I had last time so this is a really small number. With less characters, I can now focus on the ones I have. With Poptart, the same will be applied. I have a small amount of fodder but it still should be enough to have Poptart get at least one piece of art every two weeks. I also frequently art trade with others so she can also get art from that. Currently, the character I have with the most amount of art is Kin with 97 pieces of art. Someday, I hope that Poptart will be like Kin and get loads of art as well.
Third reason, is that I will be using her in a personal story. To be honest, every character has their own personal story or storyline that they themselves must go on. That, of course, is life! However, that's not what I mean when I saw Poptart will have a story. What I mean is she will have a full fledge story where she is the main character that will be written and has multiple chapters. I love to read and write, so I can help myself if I have seven full stories to add. I can make more though!
For Poptart's story, I hope for it to have a decent amount of purple prose to practice writing more fluent and interesting writing. In the story is where the fun begins.
Poptart will be a school teacher who teaches pre-school and is a DJ for Eventide Radio. When she firsts starts off she's a little bored with her pre-school job and she's not making the amount of money she needs. She has do many goals (like moving from said apartment and not disappointing her boss) that she can barely try to make them work. She's only 20, who is rather young but the right age in energy for a teacher, and really has no idea what she wants to become. She always dreamed of being a teacher, but not shes pondering if that was the right decision. It hurts her because she failed the SATs twice and to find out she went in the wrong profession will probably ruin her and her self image. A college student, Poptart is actually well balanced, if not a little chubby. She is able to get her work done on time and still be able to be a prudent teacher. Still, this life is melancholy at best and Poptart has a hard time dealing with the thought of it. Poptart eventually will need money to start her next course, and then she realized that her current job does NOT pay her enough to be able go afford the next course. So, now Poptart is stuck between Scylla and Charybdis; two huge monsters of a problem that whatever route she chooses will end in her losing something she cannot afford to lose. Crying and falling into despair for a while, Poptart begins to mop around, snap at her students, which almost got her fired, and overall fail her studies. While walking around the student union, Poptart saw an ad for a nighttime job at Eventide Radio. Like she's selling her last cow, Poptart decides to take the remaining money to get a ride down to the studios. When she got their she filled out the application and waited. Sure enough, Poptart is accepted. Actually, Poptart became the host of one of the shows! More then happy with her second job, Poptart starts to slowly lose her iron mask and starts to not only show her feelings more.
What I will also add to her story is her with new friends and take some characters from others to add to the existing show. I'll have forms for people to fill out and they can then guest star or ask questions with Poptart!
The idea for a radio star host actually was something I've been thinking about for a while. I really love watching/listening to shows with charismatic characters as they give their opinions on things. As a very opinionated person, I really do enjoy them. Over the years I have read many stories and fanfiction a where the characters star in a Late Night/Early Morning and Radio show, and those stories are hilarious! I already have a Late Night Host character (his name is William Spotlight) and if I get Poptart she'll nicely fit this spot for Radio Hostess. These ideas are my main ones, but who's the stop me from making anymore stories to use Poptart in?
My fourth reason is rather simple: I'll make her my mascot! She'll probably have her own website, her own page on my character site and my dA will be decorated with art of her! I will make sure on the CAAA to let everyone know that Poptart is a symbol and maybe even be known for owning her. I will make sure that Poptart is well known all throughout CS and dA. Maybe even FurryPaws and Wajas if I'm lucky.
My fifth reason is to roleplay nonstop with her. Poptart gives me so much muse that I bet I can really get into Roleplaying with her. She has pretty colors, interesting anatomy and can really blend into any roleplay (as long as it's not Warrior Cats or wolf pack, but I'll think of something). I plan on making her different references where she's other animals just for the sole purpose of Roleplaying. She'll have a human form, no doubt about that, and maybe an anthro form. I think it would be interesting to roleplay with her because of her ear's unique ability to move and grasp things. In her human form I already planned that Poptart's ears will actually be a part of a jacket that she wears. The markings on her front legs will be long sleeves. I still have more to plan out, but can you really plan out everything in roleplays?
The sixth and final reason why I want Poptart is so I can actually make her radio show a reality! I'm not completely sure about it, but I would love to actually get a couple of voice actors and do the roles, maybe even turn the entire story in script format. I think it'll be a fun thing to do and post on Youtube or some other website.
All in all, I got the ideas flowing for Poptart and she'll never leave my sight. I can promise you she truly will be loved.
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Her name is Poptart. Many may find the name silly, but it's not. It will all be explained in a few short paragraphs. There are many different types of pastries in the world, but one of them is the tart. The tart is:
A tart is a baked dish consisting of a filling over a pastry base with an open top not covered with pastry. The pastry is usually shortcrust pastry; the filling may be sweet or savoury, though modern tarts are usually fruit-based, sometimes with custard. Tartlet refers to a miniature tart; an example would be egg tarts. Examples of tarts include jam tarts, which may be different colours depending on the flavour of the jam used to fill them, and the Bakewell tart.
The categories of 'tart', 'flan', and 'pie' overlap, with no sharp distinctions, though 'pie' is the more common term in the United States. The French word tarte can be translated to mean either pie or tart, as both are mainly the same with the exception of a pie usually covering the filling in pastry, while flans and tarts leave it open.[1] The Italian crostata, dating to at least the mid-1400s, has been described as a "rustic free-form version of an open fruit tart".[2]
--excerpt from
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tart
With this in mind I find this the perfect name for Poptart. She's a person that seems to be rather open and really sweet. However, I'm taking this part in her name and switching it up a bit. For starters, Poptart will actually close herself off to others. She'll be friendly and nice but she does not like and will not get close to anyone. She will have an iron mask; a hard expression that is difficult to read and to see what emotions the person is having on their face. To bring the point home, she'll be wearing an emotionless mask, except the mask has a smile plastered on to it.
Poptart will be an ironic example of her own name, but I'm not stopping there. For example, there is still the -pop part of her name. The pop will stand for how she tries to stand out from the crowd. Poptart's biggest fear is being forgotten, so she tries her best to try to make herself different.
Poptart is actually rather fond of her name regardless of it's kiddish appeal. As a child, she loved her nickname and so did others as they found it adorable and endearing. In highschool this exact name that gave her the attention she always dreamed of became a name of ambush and torment. Poptart, as most bunny based creatures do, try to run away from her name and not give it to anyone. Of course this never worked and actually got her more teasing. Later in life, Poptart doesn't mind it as much anymore but she does feel a bit annoyed when people have to ask for her name again. Either way, Poptart has mostly stood on good terms with her own name.
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As a child, Poptart had no idea that the idea of gender could be questioned. As far as she knew, there were only two genders: male and female. As Poptart grew up she learned more and more that there are many different types of genders. Still, Poptart decided that she felt like a girl and therefore remained cisgendered.
The reason why Poptart never gave it too much thought is simply because her parents did not believe in the idea of more then one gender. Forcing this mentality onto Poptart, even if she did feel like something else she could never identify as it in fear of her parents. However, it has occasionally poped in Poptart's mind that she might be androgynous. This thought is frequently pushed away and it doesn't bother her much. After all, she is happy to identify as a female.
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Grufschnoper is the breed that Poptart is. Not a lot is known about the species since the creator isn't that active with them, but i decided to add a bit of my own lore to the species. I hope that is okay and is interesting to read.
Taken by Candiis directly:
Candiis Tue Feb 22, 2011 10:26 pm wrote:Cocoa Bean, my Grufschnoper. Grufschnopers have love ears with four paw like toes at the end, and on their tails, they can grab things with them :3
Grufschnoper (pronounced "gruff sh n opper") is a species created and designed by Candiis on CS. The species has long rabbit like ears, cat-like back legs, a long tail similar to their ears, short muzzle, thick whiskers and tuffs of fluff on top of their heads. There are not to many grufschnopers in the world, and the few that exist are:
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Cocoa Bean Owned by Candiis



Unowned by Candiis

Unowned #2 by Candiis

Poptart formally owned by Foreign Potato

Unnamed Owned by Rushwater

Osca by Candiss

Keylla owned by MonsterWolf74

For Poptart at least, she is smaller then most dog size creatures and larger then most small ones. As a Gruffie, Poptart's ears are also incredibly long, strong and useful.
Out of these exisiting Grufschnopers, only Poptart is the most actively used one. However, soon the species will become more active as people try to get one of their own. Poptart is the only kind of her species currently; she believes she was adopted, but her parents won't say. Her father is a sea rabbit and her mother is just a rabbit. They both do not have the same kind of tail as Poptart.
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There were Grufschnopers all over the place
With different colors and markings on face
From the seas to the cities
With no government or committees
They used their ears to swing from tree to tree
They probably lived in bands from one to 33
Not much is known because they disappeared
Many scoffed and many had leered
They were brave, they were bold
Most of them never did what they were told
They went by in many hues
They weren't very popular according to the news
Though most of them are named after baked goods
Most of them are accused of lies and falsehoods
Though their ears look like new fancy moppers
They are not cleaning supplies; they are Grufschnoppers
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Her Highlighted Traits
Over imaginative
You can't depend on your eyes when your imagination is out of focus. - Mark Twain
Slow
Wisely, and slow. They stumble that run fast. -William Shakespeare
Cowardly
You cannot be a hero without being a coward. -George Bernard Shaw
Graceful
Everyone is like a butterfly, they start out ugly and awkward and then morph into beautiful graceful butterflies that everyone loves. -Drew Barrymore
Predictable
If life were predictable it would cease to be life, and be without flavor. -Eleanor Roosevelt
Teacher-Like
Most of us end up with no more than five or six people who remember us. Teachers have thousands of people who remember them for the rest of their lives. -Andy Rooney
Organized
How do I cope with stress? I clean and organize. -Sandra Lee
Generous
A hero is somebody who is selfless, who is generous in spirit, who just tries to give back as much as possible and help people. A hero to me is someone who saves people and who really deeply cares. -Debbie Mazar
Control Freak
I'm a control freak. If you're going to slap my name on something, I would like to control it. -Anthony Bourdain
Wears an Iron Mask
Humor has been the balm of my life, but it's been reserved for those close to me, not part of the public. -Lana Turner

In her personality, some of these characteristics might pop up for Poptart. Scaling them on a scale from 1-10, Poptart is. . .:
Amiable ∙ 7
Honest ∙ 6
Kind ∙ 10
Flirty ∙ 1
Bitter ∙ 2
Resentful ∙ 7
Stubborn ∙ 4
Demoralized ∙ 1
Social ∙ 5
Pessimistic ∙ 5
Optimistic ∙ 5
Virtuous ∙ 7
Comprehension ∙ 6
Emotional ∙ 9
Confident ∙ 5
Colorful ∙ 10
Vindictive ∙ 5
Secretive ∙ 9
Perverse ∙ 2
Opinionated ∙ 9
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Poptart has a rather interesting occupation, mostly because she has two. The most important one is that she is a school house teacher. She teaches morning preschool at Dayspring Elementary School. The second occupation is a bit more interesting and is how Poptart spends her nightlife. She spends time on Eventide Radio, and is actually a radio talk show host!
D a y s p r i n g Elementary School
Poptart spent a lot of time and money getting into teaching and to get her bachelors degree. All her life, Poptart wanted to teach kids. It was always in the back of her head in school; she loves all her teachers dearly and loved to learn. Though she didn't speak much in class and wasn't the brightest, she genuinely loved school. Poptart also loves kids. She always tries to help the poorer ones on the street or to play ball with some of the teens. She finds them precious and loves the idea of "the future" of civilization. Here, these kids would carry the heavy burden of progress with pride. She thought it was a good occupation for her since both things are near and dear to her. It took a couple of years, but the answers on test came easy to her and she studied hard as well. When Poptart passed she was proud, but then realized that her potential as fallen short. She's only a part time pre-school teacher; she knew she was going to do other things, but since she spent all this time on teaching she forgot what else she wanted to do. She is now filled with worry, because preschool emptied all of her savings, constantly busy with teaching the little ones, the job doesn't make her much and she doesn't have much time because life goes on. She tries spending the rest of the day finding another job, but can't due to most jobs nowadays needing a degree and most of them don't want part-timers. As the saying goes, she truly is stuck between a rock and a hard place.
E v e n t i d e Radio Broadcasting Station
Poptart snagging this job has certainly been her saving grace. Not only does Poptart perfectly fit the slot, but for once she's actually excited about her job. Sure, she enjoys teaching at Dayspring, but she feeling she gets by giving her opinion on air cheers herself up each and everyday.
At Eventide, the staff, she feels, are a bunch or weirdos, but they are a fun bunch and do what they do well. Poptart's favorite thing about her show is that she gets to bring on guest. She loves talking to and about different people on the phone and in person. However, she really loves bring Carmen the hamster on since Carmen's interest attract more of the younger folks. The reason why people love Poptart so much isn't just because of her honest, but her interesting personality; she is not the kind, snarky host that people usually see. Poptart is respectful and only says things sarcastically when it is needed. The amusement comes from her actual jokes and just saying overall silly things. People also enjoy seeing Poptart doing the occassional "try hard" mentality of doing things over the top. That's usually when the guest says, and they always do, "Knock it off." This makes Poptart flustered, and she rants comically at them. Viewers have voted, and in a poll of "What makes you watch the show" there were all the joke option Carmen made: Poptart's Rants. Of course, this resulted in Poptart taking a 30 minute lecture to tell the people listening in that the poll was meant to be serious. When they had the same poll again 83% of them were write-ins of "Poptart's Rants".
Overall, many things have happened at Eventide and Poptart looks forward to them all.
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This is a backstory that goes way back
Through a kids life who was constantly attacked
Through all the cheer and all the rain
All the despair and all the strain
So at the end will you have seen
How life is grand and what it truly means
Intro this story we get Poptart
A girl who continues to hide her heart
Behind her chirpy emotion mask she stays
Is how she plays to spend the rest of her days
Soon, she'll learn how not to hide
For in everyone happiness resides
A young gruffsnooper patrolled the area known as the backyard. It buzzes with activity from all the small exoskeleton creatures. She gazed up at the large tree longingly. The barely bare branches seemed to invite her up, yet scold her as well.
This is Poptart, age 7. Child in a big world of curiosity and amazement. Poptart was currently looking at a tree. From what she's heard, Grufscnopers hang in trees by their ears and tails. On this day, Poptart decided that she wanted to prove to herself that she was a Grufscnoper. She believes that by doing a set of challenges, created by her of course, she would be able to prove herself to...well...herself! Poptart, at this small stage in her life, has not a single clue about what she wants, who she is and what she wants to become; then again, that is expected since she is a child. For better or for worse, Poptart knows she's not like the other kids. Those same exact kids who pull at her ears, her whiskers and her tails. Those that make and poke fun of her funny pink eyes. The same exact kids Poptart hates. She would prove them wrong. She would gain their respect. Most importantly, she will be loved.
Monday, August 1
Poptart's First Day of School
A bouncing child...was certainly not in this house! As the morning crept onto the house built with brown wood a certain Grufschnoper awoke from her muggy slumber. This was her first day of school ever and she already hated it. She had to wake up at 7:45 am, and that was way to early for her. Funny enough, Poptart considered herself nocturnal, even though both of her parents are more awake in the day and she falls asleep easily.
She stretched out her left ear over her mouth as she stifled a yawn. Literally falling out of bed, Poptart used her ears to drag herself to the bathroom. Several gurgles and splashes came from the room, and eventually a clean and much more awake Poptart emerged. She still hasn't grown into her ears so half of the length of her ears are on the floor dragging like Linus's blanket from Peanuts comics. As she came out her parents weren't there. As she was used to it, she hummed.
In this society,feral parents gather and hunt for their offspring until they can do it themselves. Domesticated parents usually go to the store or market but they still uphold that same tradition. Poptart's father was a domesticated animal, but her mother was a feral one. Poptart was then considered a lucky one. On the food aspect, it means she gets to choose what kind of food she gets to eat in the morning and this also gives her a diverse diet. Most offspring only have feral food or domesticated food, and each type of source can be limited depending on your social status. Also, having two different kind of parents is unique. Most ferals only marry other ferals and most domesticated animals marry other domesticated animals.
Think of both types of animals as political parties. You usually stick around with people who have the same view or mindset as you, so each type matching itself with each other isn't a surprise. If a feral and a domesticated do end up together society has no penalty or ill-will towards it as a whole, but there are the very few who are against it.
A few pawsteps approach the door and Poptart ran towards them, her tail wagging and her ears swinging side to side.
"Mommy, Daddy! Did you get me something really nice to eat? Maybe some sweet fruit or even some marshmallows?" Her call was unanswered. She cocked her head to the side, and then gasped; it wasn't her parents so she should get away from the door. However, those thoughts were too late, for a bright floral feral broke down the door, Poptart's only protection from the proactive and pessimistic world. This day would be marked in Poptart's history; the first day her life will forever have it's high ups and it's all time downs.
The red thing was a wolf; of course, since this world's dominant popular was the colorful creatures of cruelty and claws. Canines, felines, bears and other claws animals were dominant due to their fierce and carnivorous nature. Not all are fierce and actually most are usually nice, sweet, kind, funny and sarcastic. It was quite rare to see one with any real negative traits or evil intentions.
The "red devil" charged at Poptart, snarling with long strands of silver saliva seeping from it's mouth. Poptart was slow; slow in personality and slow in physical fitness. Like a leaf in the wind Poptart was pressed between the floor boards and bad breath. When her brain finally caught up with the events Poptart began to squeak and squirm. Poptart, from her own observation, could not make many feral sounds like her mother could. She could only squeak like a mouse, which is unusual for a creature her size and age. She should have been able to at least bark or yelp.
Poptart frantically clawed at the feral wolf but it did nothing against it's shag carpet fur. Clawing through it felt as if she was clawing through tree sap; it got between her claws and slowly gnaws at her pebble black pawpads.
At this moment the wolf takes a bite into her left ear, chewing and trying to tear at it rapidly. Poptart's pain left her speechless and unable to squeak any more due to how tired she was. The wolf was heavy and he was hurting her in horrible ways. Pink blood seeped from her ear that the wolf was trying to tear off. Poptart slowly became weaker as the wolf continued to wolf down her ear. Her vision faded in a blur of barking, snarling and her own blood.
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BARK!
Poptart woke up with a start! Clichely enough, it was a dream!
She was mad and angry and she thought it was real and she was crying and today just wasn't a good day for her. Her parents rushed into the room looking at her and comforting her as much as possible. This wasn't Poptart's worse dream, but it completely ruined her mood about today and her attitude for school as well.
Poptart did not want to go to school at all, and she didn't go for a week. Once she heard that there were wolves in this class she squeaked and cried at the thought of it. During the course of this week out of her fear did Poptart learn how to bark.
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1. Why not me?
Why not me indeed. I think others should have a chance too, but I really would love a chance to shine as well.
As for nice, I'm probably a bit nice. Though I really shouldn't debate on it much. I will not change myself to be too much of a single trait. According to my students I am rather a nice balance of kindness and sweetness, but they are just the most adorable dolls ever. As for my work, they on a daily basis they call me nice. To myself. . .I really don't think so.
3. Am I doing what I really want to do?
To be honest, probably not. Sure, I always wanted to be a teacher, but a part-time preschool teacher? Probably not. As a radio show host, it's the type of attention I've always dreamed of! So really, I am enjoying my job and though it wasn't my first plan, it's what I want to do.
4. What am I grateful for?
Grateful? Well to be there are a lot of things. You can be thankful for being alive, or for food or for having sweet people in your life. Mhm? That answer is really generic? Why, aren't you condescending?
5. What’s missing in my life?
Money. For certain, money. Maybe. . .contentment. I'm not really content with myself, no matter what I say in front of others. I mean, who wants to be a part time preschooler teacher? As much as I love my job, I really want to get a better job. I guess what is also missing from my life is an active touch from my parents. As my mother is sick most of the time and my father is out in the field I don't really have much support. I'm also missing a bit of social interaction if you get what I mean. I don't have many friends you know; it's really hard to trust people now a days.
Ah, I can say kinda. As much as lying is. . .certainly not preferred if I have to lie to get out of a situation I will. Ugh, to be honest I really hate it when others lie, but the fact that I'm on the fence about it sickens myself.
7. Do I listen to others?
Yes, of course! Listening to others is very important! It not only shows you respect them but also understand how important directions are. To be honest. . .I'd prefer not to listen to peers unless they are experienced. Trust and all that jazz, you know?
Well at least I try too. I will admit there has been a time or two where I've been an fan of procrastination, but with juggling of two different types of jobs both dealing with entertaining two different types of people is does get a little hard to continue the exact same level of work ethic. I guess working hard really is in the eye of the beholder. I'm not the type of person to spend hours on end in my office or classroom planning out new things but maybe I'll take a couple minutes a day to do so. All in all, I guess it can be believed that I could work hard, but I never put 110% effort unless it's an emergency.
All the time! Or at least I try to. Sometimes it's difficult for me. If it's standing up for someone I can say and preach and shout all I want in front of others, but when it comes to reality I can't actually do it. I'm so sorry I'm such a flash in the pan, ha ha. I'm not that good with comforting because I usually make the comforting more about myself then the person I'm suppose to comfort.
10. What do I need to change about myself?
For starters I need to be more honest with myself. I can't really tell you the details simply because the details are sketchy to me! I guess it's because others tell me how lovely I am but I just can't see it. I don't have self-loathing or self-doubting problems, so don't label me as such. I just don't really believe I'm "lovely" if you catch my drift. Am I a good person? Now that I can arrogantly agree with. As for other changes, maybe be less cowardly. Oh, that is actually a good one. I really want to be brave! It seems everyday I get new fears and concerns and it's starting to make a toxic environment caused by myself! I feel nauseous when I see shows like 'Fear Factor' or anything else that has others conquer their fears. I almost resent them, but I know I can't because they are people like me doing things I can't seem to do. I bet if I tried really hard I could conquer it but. . .
Yes, most certainly. It's mostly people who are either too fragile or shy ones who I was. . .unaware of their emotional status. On the other hand, I really just bruise the egos of some of my students. Other then that I really haven't hurt anyone and I most certainly have not done it physically. . .except for that one time. It was in school and I was getting use to my mask when suddenly someone called me an emotionless board. I slapped them with both ears. Possibly a bit too hard. Ha ha, detention was imminent right away of course. No surprise there.
Only when I'm alone or with Carmen. I trust her with my life you know. I don't like the idea of complaining much but sometimes, what can you do? Sometimes you get filled with emotion and you just gotta let it out. After all, studies say it isn't healthy to. . .hold it in.
What's next for me? Wow, these are some really hard hitting questions. Let's see. . .to be honest, I don't know. I always wanted to be famous, and now that I am famous it's sorta hard to. . .think like that. I technically am already at the last stage of my achievements, so I might just try to be stable in my condition. Maybe actually get out of my apartment now since I have more then enough money, but I'm kinda getting used to it now. Sure, I still hate how it's figuratively, and quite possibly literally, cramping my style; I am unable to think the way I do and it hurts like craps when I do. I guess I can go back to college, but what would I learn? Do I have an interest in anything else then giving my opinion? I'm already teaching, so I really don't know. To sum up my answer, nothing because I already reached the top.
Such a mean spirited question! Of course I have fun! All because I'm a teacher it doesn't mean I'm straitlaced. I go out with my friends for clean fun, mind you. That means I do play video games, watch movies, go roller skating and the like.
15. Have I seized opportunities?
Most of the time, no. I usually miss them and you know how opportunity never knocks twice. I have managed to snag the opportunity to be here, so I guess I'm happy about that.
16. Do I care about others?
Of course! Who doesn't?! I feel this question is hinting about something.
. . .
Okay, so even I am well aware that I'm not the bravest person, and that may get in the way of "who I put first", but I still care about others! Don't put me in the limelight just to uncover some unsettling motive.
17. Do I spend enough time with my family?
The answer to that is no. Do I want to spend more time with them? Absolutely!
Yes, I am rather open-minded, or at least I think so. I don't think anyone else told me that I wasn't. I know that I at least try to be; closing off one's mind doesn't help, but hurt. Ha ha, if you want to quote me that's-- fine, I'll keep quiet.
19. Have I seen enough of the world?
Nooo, not even close! I really want to travel a bit and see the world! Hopefully one of my jobs takes me! If I had to go somewhere. . .maybe Italy or France. Somewhere European, that's for sure! Ooh, maybe even Germany or Sweden?
Judge? Hm. . .to be honest it depends on what they are doing? If they are being themselves then I have no need to judge them. If they are, say robbing banks and are blaming it on their father then yeah I'm going to have to judged you for making poor decisions.
I really try not to. I don't have the best of luck and when I usually take risk it isn't worth it at all! Not to mention. . .they really aren't my thing.
. . .
Are you trying to say my cowardice is becoming?! Are you serious?! Geez, why don't you just insult my driving to add salt to the wound?
Can anyone really answer this question?
23. What is my biggest fear?
To be honest, it's probably being alone. I get. . .so terrified of it. I already have a mask, so I should show it to people, I guess. If I'm alone what's the point of hiding yourself? You're trapped, stuck and there is no one to care or to show emotion. It's dry, cracked and eternal. Excuse me, that was pretty dark I guess. To be honest, I think loneliness is the exact same thing as death.
24. How can I conquer that fear?
Conquer it? I'm the small island and that's the rest of the world. I currently have. . .no idea how to conquer it, and I won't be going around telling people that I can't do it either.
25. Do I thank people enough?
A bit too much in my opinion. Simply because just me doing the simplest mistakes I'll have an entire apology speech like I planned it in advance or something. Ha ha, but really I think I thank people more then enough. Wait, I was just talking about apologizing! My bad! Let's see, as for thank yous. . .well to be honest not that many people do things for me, but I try to squeeze in a couple kind words here and there.
Before my hostess job, no. I don't even think I was in the top percentage of the best teachers of the school. But, as a host I believe I am. Our shows are very successful and get at least one thousand listeners every ten minutes! It is also a lot of fun, so there is that too.
27. What am I ashamed of?
Being a coward, having to fake my emotions, having to be single due to my own insecurities, not keeping in touch with my greying parents, unable to manage my money, the ability of my long ears moving around too much when I talk, ect, ect. I'm also ashamed that I'm ashamed of so many things. I really need to boost up my self confidence.
Yeah, probably. I don't really mind or care though. Everyone feels annoyed by everyone else sometimes. However, I think I might be more annoying then others with my ability to pick fits.
Well, I sorta have a small dream to become famous, but I already acheived that. Oh! I want to fly in an airplane. I'm afraid of heights, so wish me luck!
Most of the time yes!
Rarely so, but I'm not going to deny the claim.
32. Is there an afterlife?
Yes there is, or at least I think so. I would elaborate more but to be honest I don't think you would want to hear it. Besides, I also don't want to step on any toes.
33. Does everything happen for a reason?
Another hard hitting question. Um. . .for now I think so. The universe always seems to balance itself right back up and never completely fall over like that infamous spinning top from Inception. As long as you keep moving forward, I believe everything will happen in due time, as long as you do the required things of course!
34. What can I do to change the world?
A lot. For one, I teach the next generator, which is really a huge accomplishment. I feel really proud too!
35. What is the most foolish thing I’ve ever done?
. . .probably sneaking into a fraternity party when I'm under aged. Whoops!
Cheap? Nah, I'm mostly trendy! *lifts up trash bag scarf* Okay, I may be just a bit cheap. . .but not much though!
Greedy. Greedy. Greedy. Wow, what a question.
I love anyone and everyone! And I don't see why you shouldn't love everyone! Everyone deserves kindness.
. . .even me.
39. Who do I want to meet?
I would love to meet some world leader and hear about politics from them! I bet it would be stressful fun!
40. Where do I want to go?
France, Italy, somewhere European, that's for sure!
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