TheComfortCorner | V.9

[Onion_707]

I am a piece of garbage. a literal piece of trash. I can't even spell some basic words right. And, be honest. You don't enjoy talking to me. you just feel like you have to because it makes me happy. You should just leave me behind like everyone else did. I am a bad friend. I don't know how to express my feelings, I don't know how to make you happier when you're feeling down, I am nothing but a big pile of stupidity. I guess I deserve to only have 1 real friend. I mean, who would genuinely like me anyways?

[huskyhiccups]

I know everyone feels this way, but I hate cancer.
I’m trying so hard to be strong for him, but it’s getting really tough now and he’s noticed my anxiety and irritability…
I want to cry. I have cried, so many times. He needs to be here with me. I wish I could take care of him and do more for him. Life isn’t fair. I know it’s not meant to be easy, but what in the world… It always finds a way to kick the people who are already down and hurting the most, it feels like.
We need a miracle..

[viles]

• tw - i'm gonna talk about my anxiety surrounding the characters seen in horror films, specifically the purge. not sure if there's like,, a specific name for that but yeah sdkfjhs
  i watched an analysis of the political messaging within the purge films, and while i enjoyed what the video had to say, i am anxious at the moment. there's a window next to me, and i keep glancing out of it, checking to make sure that someone in a mask isn't standing out there and staring at me. idk i haven't had this type of anxiety in awhile so i thought watching the video would be fine, but it's sort of triggered me, ig? idk i'm like,, mostly just uneasy and like,, a little anxious and/or scared so ig i'll be okay i just,, idk, i just don't want to be alone. i want to eat something bc that's what i usually do to calm my nerves but idk i just came from upstairs and also like,, i get really anxious when im walking up a staircase. like,, my brain is like 'there's someone behind you right now!!' sometimes i even have to walk up them like,, turned sideways so i don't have to worry about someone coming up behind me,,, idk i just don't think i can handle doing that again rn sdkjhs i keep hearing noises upstairs and like,, yeah i live with cats so it's probably them but there's a little voice in my head that's like 'but what if it's not' and i just sdkjksdh idk. it's my own fault,, i should've known better than to watch that video ykyk
  
  edit: pudge keeps making noises, like, he's moving stuff under my bed or messing with things across my room and i just,, idk i know it's not his fault but i keep jumping bc im anxious and this si one of the reasons that makes me not like pets??? like i just really need quiet rn ykyk and i can't make him understand that and i dont want to put earbuds in bc thatll make me more anxious but i also cant like,, make him stop either??? like i can only hope that hell lay down of his own volition,, there's also like some birds outside and my ears are ringing and idk i just want to go to bed but idk if i can sleep at this point,, im trying to watch a different video on something more lighthearted to help calm down but im still p worried sdkjhsk

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[67Phlox]

*insert keysmash*
oKAY
I really, REALLY need to look over my past mistakes and all the wrong turns I took
because, hoo boy... the people i chose to hang around?? how annoyingly + impulsively i acted (and still probably act)??
It really makes sense now why I feel like I'm the biggest loser slash outcast and not even bothering acting towards reaching my goals.. Ina matter of fact, this realisation (high IQ moment /joke) might finally help me with stuff....

and then.. idk??? I've been wanting for SO LONG to donate blood, help sb, charity?? chat?! with people it's just.. ughhh
okay, i prefered (and still somewhat do) to stay in my comfortable homestead and play vidya; that's on me for being an immoveable couch potato (credit, where credit is due, at least i help around the house?? sometimes??? kinda??? hah)

again, it's my job to fix myself n my personality sooooooooooo yeah...
hopefully this'll be the last vent post on this thread

but hey, ima leave it to future me, bcus now im eating dinner and it's delish yum

[BlueEyedKite]

My mom died. She died too young. It was sudden so I did not get to say goodbye. Very sad. What else can I say.

[.destiny]

i had my final therapy session today. it'll be some time before my therapist will become available. she is a wonderful person and i really connected well with her.
after our session, i was left pondering about many things. she has truly helped me and it truly felt as though she believed in me and wants to see me succeed. we've talked about my fears for the future and what steps i should take moving forward. however in the back of my mind, i can't help but fear that nothing about me will change next time we meet. i've been stuck and isolated for so long, i don't know if it'll ever change.
she believes that the next time we'll meet, i'll be in a different position in life. i really do hope that's the case. i don't want to disappoint her or anyone else but i fear that's all i do.

[vist]

so sleepy

[rogan]

i dont feel good. i dont feel good at all

[huskyhiccups]

So tired of this one practitioner at my job thinking she's above everyone else (specifically the rehab workers, which I am)… We've had multiple staff meetings, all of which she has attended, stating that pracs need to help out with rehab duties when possible, pracs are not above any other position, etc..
After working my 12 hour shift (plus some because I always punch in 7-10 minutes early), I answered a phone call that was a minute before my shift ended because no one else was in the office... In comes the practitioner of the client whose appointment just got canceled (what the phone call was about) and so I asked the prac to take over the phone call because I wanted to leave. She stares at me like I just asked her to sacrifice her firstborn and says "I just got here."

LIKE? HUH? OKAY, AND?

I said, "And I want to leave, my shift ended four minutes ago." She ignored me, and I belligerently finished the phone call and went home.

I'm probably overreacting, but I never really had a problem with this prac before (a lot of other coworkers have, she's very abrasive and bossy)… ugh. it just ruined my mood and my working relationship with her. I'm really hurt.