TheComfortCorner | V.7

[i<3 wolves678]

why am i allowed brief moments of happiness
are they just there to tease me?
to show me what i will likely never properly experience again?

i don't want my friends to worry about me
i only told one of them that it's started again
why did i do it
why

my mother knows
she's suggesting antidepressants now
but i just don't want to accept that it's come that far
can we just pretend i'm okay
i just want everyone to stop wasting their time worrying about me
i don't deserve it

[Spearow]

Feeling really depressed. <_> keep getting migraines, i can’t sleep. besides stress the changing weather is making my anxiety really bad. I wish it could stay winter forever, i hate the heat so much. I hate summer and i hate change. Feel like i’m being crushed. And lately belongings have been stressing me out, like I just feel really claustraphobic or something lowkey want to take everything I own and make a bonfire. Really don’t want to have an anxiety attack but if I’m honest I know it will be coming

[~ moth ~]

i'm just feeling so sad at the moment. school is stressing me out so much. the work is getting to be too much. most days i don't even want to get out of bed. i hear that alarm and tear up. i have been getting almost no sleep as well. i try to go to bed at a reasonable time, but my mind just won't shut off. i feel that i have nobody that i can turn to either about all of this. i have always been reclusive and hide my emotions, but i think it's becoming a problem. i also have no friends and that has me down too. i want people to hang out with. to talk to. to joke with. i just want someone to like me. at home i've begun to get really snappy as well. i yell at my brother. i back talk to my parents. i cuss. i'm not like that. i also think that i have become anorexic. i eat just enough to get through the day. i have a waffle for breakfast, i have a tangerine for lunch, and sometimes i just skip dinner or eat very little. either that or i stuff my face with whatever. i think i might be depressed as well. i have no desier to watch the tv shows that i used to be in to. i mindlessly browse through youtube, not even clicking on anything to watch. i just do it to do something for a moment. i just stare at a wall and zone out. i stay up in my room and hide from my family as well, wanting no contact with anyone. for a while i thought that was just me being an introvert, but it's getting worse and worse. and my anxiety is flaring up. i don't know why. i can't pin point the reason, usually i can though. maybe it's just everything getting to me. i need help. i know i need to tell someone. i'm just too scared to say anything. i feel like i have no voice. how will i ever accomplish anything in life if i can't speak up for myself? the answer is i won't. i think that's whats scaring me the most. that i will never live up to the expectations that my parents, sister, and myself have set for me. that i will let them down and turn out to be the unsuccessful one in my family.

anyway, if you read this, thanks.

[Vixem]

My brother is being admitted to the
hospital cause of his depression.

He’s the only thing that makes me
happy nowadays, he’s the only loyal
person I know.

I hate seeing him so flat and upset.
It absolutely breaks my heart seeing
him this way.

I wish it would go away so he could be
normal again. I miss my old, happy
brother..

[catra]

i've been having the worst time with panic attacks and flashbacks lately
i have so much to say but none of it would be CS-appropriate
i just feel so horrible :(

[nickjr]

When I was in 4th grade, I found HTML 4 and (inline) CSS completely on my own, and I was really happy to learn it completely on my own. (For comparison, my father thought it would be a good idea for me to learn Photoshop Elements in 4th grade and dropped me a giant manual for it along with the CD. I was happy to learn PSE, but... I didn't start learning it or continue learning it at my own behest. I did it at his.)

I want to find that feeling again. I want to feel what I felt when I was driven to learn HTML/CSS on my own.

I haven't felt it for years... definitely not in high school, probably not in middle school, maybe even not in 6th grade or 5th grade.

I haven't had the drive to learn anything that isn't just handed to me (by school) or do my own stuff (outside of class) for a long time, and now it's finally biting me in the read end because I feel really inferior in the computer science department at uni as well as in life in general

because for compsci stuff, I only know what I've been taught in school

What kind of computer science student am I?

I don't even have the drive to relearn HTML5/CSS3 or learn JavaScript on my own, and those are so much more basic than what we're taught in compsci that... why don't I know them already?

+ if there's one field where self-teaching and projects are a big thing, it's computer science, and I have not self-taught since I was little, and I have never had any projects

I love computer science. I'm good at what we do in classes (I'm one of those compsci students for whom a lot of stuff just clicks). But outside class, what do I have? Nothing! I can't contribute anything! Is it okay for me to be a computer science student like this?

[chilombo]

hi,
im disappointed in everything. does anybody know any thing i could do to help my depression to fade away? (like some activities, ect)

[kalcifer]

hi,
im disappointed in everything. does anybody know any thing i could do to help my depression to fade away? (like some activities, ect)

I'd suggest buying a pet. Even if it's just a small reptile or some fish they help give purpose to your life. They'll give you a reason to get up in the morning and it's just nice to know someone relies on you >.<

[Skiv]

Hope tomorrow will be better for everyone <3

[graec]

Could I get a PM please? Thanks.