Pøst Cards wrote:
I’ve been diagnosed with Parkinson’s Disease.
I’m so scared how my friends will react, will
they think I’m some sort of loser that can’t
control her body? Will I even be able to go
to school without getting bullied?
vist wrote:
oh gosh , i feel so utterly alone
i·dée fixe wrote:im so mad and frustrated at myself
i took an important 3 question quiz and i knew all of the material on it but i managed to mess up one large part of a question
i dont understand why i'm like this
im so hurt and mad
i know the material
why do i still mess it up so badly??
i worked so hard to make sure i understood everything, yet one careless mistake messed it all up
that's going to add up to so many points..
i was going to do better this semester
i just want to cry and quit it all
i got an 81 on another test too. i know, 81 is a satisfactory grade, but not when you literally thought you knew everything about the unit. i was so ready and i thought i was prepared
where did i mess up?
why do i keep doing this?
i tried and i worked so hard, why does this keep happening to me? i was so sure i'd at least get a 95
i sacrificed so much
how much more do i have to give to stop feeling like this
Slushy. wrote:My grandmother is in bad condition and in the hospital. We went there and I think she's feeling a bit better, I hope things come out to be alright.
♡ sunflower wrote:i'm so alone.
he shows affection to everyone but me
he's become closer with my best friend than i am
why doesn't he care? why doesn't anyone care?
i've been crying for two days
Spearow wrote:
i hurt so much, i’ve been worried about my friend. and he just told me a bunch of stuff i wish he wouldn’t have. he makes me so upset, sometimes i don’t know if i should just cut ties, i love him but it might be better not to know when something bad happens to him. i’m so scared, i hate caring about people they only cause pain
vanishing pixie wrote:i screwed up again, now i don't have any friends,
starry nights. wrote:i'm afraid to loose my most caring friend because i'm a burden and have no self-confidence
Betta_Frida wrote:So I'm probably going to drop out of college.
Not because I'm stupid. I know I'm not. As weak and pathetic as this sounds, I'm just not emotionally able to handle it right now.
I made a mistake in pushing myself to go when I had been diagnosed with depression in the first place. It was just hard to imagine doing anything else, and I'm still not quite sure what I'm going to do in my life without a college degree.
The hardest thing is breaking this to my parents. They expect so much of me and to have wasted their money this first semester and disappointed them like this is probably the worst part of all of this. I texted my mom that I wanted to talk to her about school jut a few minutes ago. I'm just scared because my relationship with my parents has already gone very downhill this last year to the point where my mother has threatened to kick me out of the house a few months ago. I don't do drugs or have bad friends or anything (actually I have no friends), but emotionally I've been very unstable and it's been hard on everyone. It doesn't help that I never talk about any of this with my family, and they don't understand the extent of how bad it is and that my meds don't help very much.
It's just hard. All my life, ever since I was 10 or something, I was so sure I'd graduate highschool with good grades (which I did), and then go to college and knock it out of the park. Nope. That dream is destroyed now. It's not what I thought it'd be, and I'm not sure what I'm supposed to do with my life now. Clearly, I have a lot of growing up and changing left to do.
I'm scared and confused and sad. If someone could please respond that would be nice. I probably won't respond to you, but I could use to kind words right now and know that my lack of reaction to any possible responses doesn't mean I don't appreciate what everyone else says.
arisu. wrote:so i have a plan to run away on march break
i have a couple friends who will help
im just really scared
i have a lot of reasoning behind this.
i want to be known as a boy but i'm female so i'm gonna cut my hair to look like a guy and then get guy clothes and always keep my face hidden
there is an abandoned apartment which im gonna stay in.
my friends will deliver food and stuff and-
i just want to be me.
i just don't want to be known as a female.
i don't want to be known as the idiot i am.
i know i'm going really far and risking a lot to be 'me' with running away but my parents would disown me if they found out that i don't want to be known as a girl or that i identify as a guy but biologically a girl or that im biologically a girl and i date girls
like
i'd rather run away than be disowned and i just want to be me
im going to lie about my name and everything
im going
to just
be me
minizerkah wrote:doctors annoy me
i was told i was gonna have an ultrasound done
and what arrives at the doorstep this morning?
a letter telling my parents that instead im being sent to a physiatrist IN AUGUST
it would be quicker for me to go to the emergency when the pains are bad and have tests done and have the results within an hour
DONT TELL ME YOURE SENDING ME FOR ONE THING AND INSTEAD SEND ME TO ANOTHER
DONT LIE IF YOU ARE A DOCTOR LIKE COME ON
im sorry im x and stressed
this is probably stupid but im annoyed which makes me irrational
illusion. wrote:i really want a hug pls :'c
taffydilla. wrote:aw yes. I love being sad and stressed.
I'm stressed about everything I have to do for school, but honestly that's just
normal at this point and that's not my main problem. my main problem is that
I have a crush on a guy. i'm scared because I thought i was gay, but i've been super
crushing on this guy and i love talking to him. and i'm really interested in him, but
i'm scared about ruining our friendship. i've already ruined two friendships with two
very cool guy friends because of my stupid crushes in the past, and when I dated my
girlfriend at first I was happy but then we broke up and now we never talk and it
sucks butt cause I loved talking to all these people. i don't want that to happen
with this new crush. also i'm scared about talking about it to my friends, cause
1. they know this guy and might judge my taste and 2. i told them I was mega
gay and that i'd never ever like a guy but i guess i was wrong and then they'll
think i'm fake and goood i hate feelings like idk if I should hide it in or just
tell my friends and let them help me get advice cause they actually know
the guy but god idk and I'm a mega idiot for falling for people easily[/center]
sweetarts. wrote:my depression is draining me out so much, and i feel like i'm just rotting away. i've had depression for almost four years on and off, but it's never been this bad. i have to force myself to do the most basic things, and school used to be my top priority, and now i couldn't care less if i get a bad grade. i finally accepted recently that i need help with getting treatment for my depression, but my family isn't financially stable, and i know they'd guilt trip me or they just wouldn't understand, and just pass it off as teenage hormones. i'm going to be independent so soon, and it's scary, because i have nothing planned for my future, because i can't even think that far. i'm trying to get a job, but i can't, because my anxiety and depression is so bad. gosh, i feel like i'm never going to be happy.
hollow-point wrote:i'm so paranoid and jumpy i don't even know what to do with myself.
this sucks so much.
Makoto Naegi wrote:I don't know what to do. I don't care what people say I don't care what happens. I just want you. I still want you no matter what. But I've ruined everything. It's all my fault. I said too much and practically talked about you behind your back. I understand why you're hurt I understand if you don't trust me anymore. But no matter what you still want me too. You don't have to do out of pity for me but if that's how you really feel I believe you just the same. I'm tired of it all. I'm tired of feeling like it's all my fault and I'm tired of hurting you even when I don't want to. I never meant to hurt you. I'm just tired. I don't want us to be perfect I just want us to be happy. Together. Forever.
BlankSlate wrote:Woo boi this gonna be interesting. plbllblbth you don't need to reply to this i mostly just wanted to rant.
aight so back last year I was friends with this guy we'll call J. J was my friend along side a few others, and he and I grew to be close within the group. Eventually, the was Drama where someone will start a rumor about so and so liking whoever, and we all just kinda played along with it. The someone turned it into a who would make the best couple, and in a group of about 10 close friends there were a lot of combinations. However, almost everyone jumped on J and i saying we'd make the best. We laughed it off and continued with the night.
However, later that night when i was back home, J texted me basically asking if i would be willing to give it a try. He had an entire paragraph about how he had a crush on he since forever and how he wanted to be with me, but i had never felt that way. Either way, i decided to give it a try.
We we're dating for a whopping 4 days before he gave me a promise ring. I immediately turned it down and said something along the lines of 'dude what' and he stuttered something about having bought this for his ex and she broke up with him before he could give it to her and he wanted to give it to me before i broke up with him. that just amplified the 'dude, WHAT' but i brushed it off.
over the course of our relationship, we were idolized within our friends. Being called the 'golden gays' and such (which i actually found kinda hilarious), and i think that put a lot of pressure on him to step it up.
J started planning elaborate dates, knowing full well i hate going out to places. i instead offered alternatives, like staying in with a movie marathon, which he accepted and enjoyed. He was mostly putting on a show for our friends. i was fine with that, i had always known he could be easily swayed by others opinions.
eventually though, he started getting more and more 'desperate'. He would want to do typical couple stuff and intimate stuff and long term stuff just a bunch of stuff i wasn't ready for, and didn't think i would ever be ready for. the last 4 months i had yet to develop any feelings romantically. of course, i was close to him now, on a more intimate level but nothing romantic. this is when i started to think about breaking up, and he could tell.
after that, he started always going on and on about how devastated he would be if i broke up with him to the group chat. our friends immediately jumped to comfort him, saying how i would never do that. it was disheartening.
I rounded two of my closer friends in a private chat and explained my predicament. they said they could tell how unhappy i was in the relationship, and told me to go for it. we planned for 2 months about different ways to break the news.
eventually, J just walked up to me and asked "are you going to break up with me?" I said yes and explained how i wasn't able to provide him the attention and love he needs. He basically just nodded and walked away.
We remained friends, but significantly less close. I was fine, even glad to have a bit of distance. all was well and balance was resorted. for maybe a month.
then J got a boyfriend.
Don't get me wrong, I'm all for him moving on, but a month? really? and this is an online relationship, he's known the guy for maybe a week before they started dating. All our friends were wary, but supportive. then things started getting worse, the guy he's dating turns out to be 5 years older, and planning on whisking J away from his home and going to live together a plane's ride down south. Our friends were silent.
now, I can see he's mentioning his boyfriend to get to me. He'll casually mention how his boyfriend and him have Skype dates and how they've planned their future, even one very awkward conversation about how intimate they've gotten. I just want him to be happy and move on, but i know i cant with words, he'll deny or twist anything i say.
Pøst Cards wrote:
I’ve been diagnosed with Parkinson’s Disease.
I’m so scared how my friends will react, will
they think I’m some sort of loser that can’t
control her body? Will I even be able to go
to school without getting bullied?
vist wrote:
oh gosh , i feel so utterly alone
blakebelladonna wrote:yeah. i dont care about me either.
Matthew Murdock wrote:I feel like I may have a panic attack at any moment due to a school project I was unable to work on due to being out of town and now my group is practically yelling at me, even though they knew and we talked about it.
And it doesn't help that my stomach is hurting and I can smell throw up and can feel it coming from my throat and I just feel terrible.
➳ palla wrote:it's fine
I'm fine
she's fine
I shouldn't worry
maybe if I tell myself that enough
it'll all just disappear
and I can finally relax
I just need to breathe
♡ sunflower wrote:i miss when it was the three of us and not the two of you
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