TheComfortCorner | V.8

[dawnchu]

i don't post here too often but-
the world is falling apart and there's nothing i can do about it. i just want to help. i want to help my friends who are feeling sad and depressed. i want to help the freaking world. but i can't. it seems like everything i do isn't enough. it feels like everytime i try, something else bad springs up. it's like a game of whack a mole except instead of winning, the moles just pop up until they consume me and rip me apart. i'm stressed out. trying to help is tearing me apart. why can't the world just be whole again?

[grey matter]

i don't know how i feel

i've been lonely since school started

i feel as if i've lost emotion to get my good grades

[taetxe]

i don't know what happened. maybe i do but i don't want to admit it.
everything was fine. like yes i missed you guys but it wasn't too much.

but last night came, and then this morning. and oh my gosh, it's absolutely horrible. it hurts so bad. all the money i saved, the work i've had to endure, all the arguments just so i could go on this trip to meet my online friends that while i've only known for a select amount of years, feels like lifelong. the memories come flying in all at once and it's so much. too much.

maybe it's because i found something when i was with all of you that i don't find in my own hometown. some friends who actually cared about my presence, even if some cases i felt like you didn't. maybe it's because you're just as physically affectionate as i am and that's something i crave heavily but never have the courage to admit it. how can i? i always get left feeling embarrassed and needy, or i always need to have an answer why i do, or both. and i get left out in groups so damn easy and yet you guys always found a way to make it better for me.

and now it's gone. all i got left is the memories. the photos, flashbacks, and things i received. the phone calls and messages help, but it isn't enough to cure how sad and lonely i feel.

if anyone that's messaged me on here or discord recently is seeing this, i know i haven't responded yet, and i've been m.i.a. i'm sorry, truly. this is the reason why. i promise i'll get back to you soon, i just need a little time.

[autumnsoundtrack]

I'm going to have an anxiety attack??

The one final class I need for this quarter has 5 seats left, and I'm two days away from my pass/registration time. Which means other people will probably get it before me, and I'll get screwed over have have to go for another quarter at least.

And now submitting a student loan application is stressing me out so bad because it's a lot of legal stuff, and it all falls on my shoulders, and it means that in the future I'm going to have to be paying ~$1000 a month to this loan company for both the loans I took out and just... it's so much financial planning that I don't want to deal with.

Not to mention most on-campus jobs are requiring 12 hours of work per week, which seems like a lot to me because I also have to get an internship and study for my courses. But since the school won't let me take out a bit more money on my loan, then I'm going to have to get a job to support my car payments and gas.

Life and money is so stressful. I feel like I can hardly breathe.

[grey matter]

my emotions are stupid


I want to cry over something pointless I missed out on



stupid account isn't new but I still don't have good rate pets even though I occasionally try

My worries are stupid

[cribunni]

please. just tell me what you think of me. i want to known if i should give up this hope, but how should i know? i'm so scared of love. i haven't felt it in so long.

[hiero]

i hate literally everything about being alive there is nothing good about this

[GAIRENTH]

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[K#%!]

i lately started feeling very
depressed, because i have
been constantly thinking
about my loved one, who
has died due to having a
heart attack, less then a
year ago. i miss him so
much. he was the most
nicest and kindest
family member of mine.
he always cared for me,
when my other family
members didn't. i wish
he was still alive.
after his death, i started
becoming very antisocial
and slowly stopping
talking to people in real
life; i still barely do so.
and the fact that it
happened on my sister's
birthday, makes now
celebrating it more
harder for her. i even
stopped celebrating
my own birthday
and i'm not planning
on celebrating it
anymore.

[the folly of man]

im sorry i just

i don't want it to be true

i personally have no problem with being ace. i don't consider it to be wrong. it's just a lack of attraction. i just don't know what my parents and other people would think, since it's still technically part of LGBT+.
i've been struggling with this for around 4 or 5 months. it's really been bothering me because everyone already knows what i believe, and if i turn out to be ace then everyone's gonna claim i'm a huge hypocrite and no one will ever wanna be around me again.

um,, pm me about this if you want,, just don't do it just to judge me because i'm in a hard place.