TheComfortCorner | V.7

[Lazy.Ferret]

It feels like there is a hole in me. A big ol' hole in my chest. I can't fill it. I failed to fill it.
Also there is an everyday coldness in my body and heart. I feel like blue (it sound stupid but i feel like the color blue).
I'm falling apart. Into little peaces. Slowly fadeing away. Being rude, sarcastic, dosen't give a dang the whole day and getting back home and thinking: "I messes up.. I'm messed up...'
Is this depression?

Everyone keeps telling me that I'm stressed. When I try to tell them they reject it and say that i can't feel that way bevouse i have "everything".
Is this depression or just a faithful love for sadness??

[momincharge]

i don't understand how people
can always say 'it'll get better
soon'. how long do i have to
wait? it doesn't get better.
it never does. don't lie to me
like that when i tell you
how i feel about myself. wow,
you can come to me and say
how 'insecure' you are and i
comfort you, but when i go
to you, all you say is 'it'll get
better soon' and go to your
other group of friends and
call me an attention seeker.
i ain't not attention seeker.
im diagnosed. bullied. my
parents don't care for me.
hah, if anything your the
attention seeker.

[revvington]

It hurts. I know I laugh, but it still hurts. Why are ya'll so optimistic about things, and you make fun of what I like? I know I've said some things, but I meant that jokingly. I know you guys have your own opinions, but come on. Eugh I've said too much... this is stupid.... just some venting..

[vicasterology]

i turned an entire fandom against each other
because i exposed a celebrity for making a racist comment
i started an #overparty so everyone would know what he did
and now people are attacking me,
saying that it wasn't even racist,
and just completely overlooking it.
they're all saying "block out the hate with love!!1!1"
but excuse me if i don't want to love a racist
i'm not spreading hate, i'm spreading the truth.
die mad about it.

[skorch]

talked to the school's 'therapist' about issues and it didn't help

[vicasterology]

i turned an entire fandom against each other
because i exposed a celebrity for making a racist comment
i started an #overparty so everyone would know what he did
and now people are attacking me,
saying that it wasn't even racist,
and just completely overlooking it.
they're all saying "block out the hate with love!!1!1"
but excuse me if i don't want to love a racist
i'm not spreading hate, i'm spreading the truth.
die mad about it.

okay update
i'm getting so much hate.
i'm being called a snake
people are sending anonymous hate to my sarahah
this girl is attacking my friends and girlfriend
i just don't know what to do honestly
i'm crying
i'm hated
i always felt safe in the editing community, and i would run to this fandom for comfort
but now i have nowhere to go

[Azure Dreams]

I get if people hate me, I'm pretty annoying and kind of pushy. I'm selfish and I victimize myself, like I'm probably doing right now. I just wish that if they did they would just tell me

[skorch]

hey, if anyone wants to rant/vent to me, feel free to pm!! i don't bite, and will always be on your side! i love chatting c:

[kiwikweenie]

I use shamchat to anonymously roleplay a lot and I ran into someone I was roleplaying with for a good four hours
it came around the time to exchange info if we wanted to continue and it turns out it was someone I roleplay with already?? we have like three aus going on right now
so I'm like lmao what a coincidence and we laughed and joked about it
but for some reason
I feel like I wasted their time
like we didn't continue the rp on other social media because we have others, which is totally okay
but now I realize I've roleplayed with them before on sham and they knew it was me, I'm 90% sure
like do they think I'll hate them if we accidentally run into one another?
I feel like a burden to them? it doesn't help I think I may have a tiny budding crush on her ugh
honestly this problem is so miniscule and by the time I wake up tomorrow I'll be fine

and again I ran into a bud on shamchat but it wasn't the same kinda experience, we didn't rp just chat

idk lately I've been feeling like my friends don't actually like me and are talking about me behind their back
+ a good handful of them are in the same kinda grouping and have done that to one of their friends before
I'm afraid I'm the next target
my jokes are repetitive and I'm annoying

I wish I could make friends without being so dang nervous about it!!!! ugh!!!

[jellybutter]

(please read my previous post for bg information and what this topic is. it's the last post on page 835)

i dont know. me and pitbull went to the school therapist today and all she did was act like a broken record. she kept saying, "ITS HORMONES. GET OVER IT. THINGS CHANGE. YOUR TAKING THIS TOO PERSONALLY." hormones is no excuse. everyone at our school has them. you have them. i do. its what our brains produce for emotions. not just specifically... well, you know what i mean. things do change, but leaving a childhood house is the same as losing a best friend. it hurts more than CHANGE. hurts more than getting rid of things in your room or getting a new dog. it hurts, because you think to yourself, "we're going to make it pretty long" and it sucks when a stupid friendship is cut short. and how can i get over it? they turn their backs away when me and pitbull are there, when we're away, they live in a tight, closed off group facing towards eachother like me and pitbull used to with them, a being the fourth in the "new" group without me and pitbull. i dont know what to think. sad, even depressing, to think that a counselor trained and majoring in phsycology gives advice with NO logic and no encouragement whatsoever, and making you feel worse than you already did, not better like you intended.