TheComfortCorner | V.9

[BlueEyedKite]

I dont feel good

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[Soy Sauce]

Please just get mad. Id rather have you screaming and yelling than quiet and withdrawn. I hate this

[pandaa]

Why can’t I just understand this? I’m trying I swear, I think I know how to do it but every time, it’s just wrong. Why can’t I work like a normal person, why?

[Dlrt]

constantly having to relive trauma is not fun.
i have really bad abandonment and trust issues and it has been eating away at me for years. people leaving, abandoning or replacing me is traumatic to say the least. so constantly having to relive the exact same experience over and over and over again is just,, tiring. i'm tired of constantly having to experience trauma while the people in question, fully knowing the damage they're inflicting onto me, get to move on like i am absolutely nothing. one of the first things i tell any of my new 'friends' about is my abandonment and trust issues because it will pop up and it will affect the relationship. do you know how painful it is to hear the phrase "i will never leave you, i cherish you as a friend too much to do that" is now? it's agonizing. because it's never true. so far, 100% of people who've said even anything remotely close to that have left me without a single goodbye to accompany it. i don't mind people leaving, it's their choice that they are allowed to make.. but god do i wish they'd tell me about it. i wish people told me things in general. i've been trying to deal with this in therapy, but when i dont know the causation of peoples departures, it's hard for me to even get better. my therapist tells me that the issue isn't with me and that it's just people moving on, but that is so difficult to truly believe. if i was better, if i was funnier, if i was more interesting, if i was better at speaking, if i was more entertaining, if i could offer more to them, they'd surely want to stick around more.. and yet i don't know how to do any of that. i've tried and i've failed so much, i really don't see a reason in trying anymore. i'm just going to be hurt again. i'll just have to relive trauma, again. i'll just have to relive trauma and have no one even try to understand why i'm in such shambles. i wish they'd be upfront with me and tell me when and why they don't care about me anymore instead of forcing me to have false hope and excuses, until i eventually just can't give them the benefit of the doubt anymore. i wish they'd tell me, at least them i wouldn't have to feel so horrible and uncomfortable around them. or maybe it wouldn't change anything. who knows. i just wish for this pain to stop.

[Animall]

Im so depressed. Here I am, raising our beautiful child, and he sleeps next to me every night, but he makes it abundantly clear that he hates me. I dont know where the man I loved went but hes a shell of his former self. Im to blame for all of his problems. It is so unattractive to hear an adult man tell you that youre the reason he cant do his homework. To tell you that you havent been supporting him simply because you werent planning his homework times for him and telling him to do it. What the heck?
I want to be with him so badly but I cant keep being gaslit and scapegoated like this. Im slowly coming to realize that Im so depressed because this dude is miserable and is tearing me down with him. I want to save him but he would prefer to drown.

[DanYourMan]

I just wish I had one friend. One single person. Someone I could talk to about the stuff I'm going through or to share a laugh with or play video games together. Sometimes I feel okay being alone, but it's times like this where I just want to talk to someone about my problems and get a little personal support. I can only see my therapist so often, and it's not like I'm gonna try to get her email or phone number just to message her about how my mom was mean to me today. I mean, I don't talk to anyone all day every day aside from family and occasional emails about school and work. I haven't had a conversation with anyone outside of my households in literally years probably. I just wish I could have a friend who didn't twist one of the 1500000 stakes in my back for no reason.

[skyline]

another night of trying to drown out the crippling anxiety of all my serious health problems with thinking of the fun silly little activities i'm doing in the next couple weeks

[viles]

• this house is falling apart. i can smell the water from my bed,, i think this might be my fault djgjsjf i didn't know,, why do i always mess up adn cause issues why cant i follow the rules and do what im supposed to i need my imaginary friend to come back or just,, idk i need someone right now i dont want to be alone i cant stand myself why am i like this why did i do that i am so stupid so,, useless im scared i dont want to go to bed in case the ceiling falls on me this is bad this is really bad why did i mess up why do i do anything at all i need to stop im so scared of whats going to happen

[Espresso. ༺]

Who you were is dead, and now I must mourn you. However, I simply cannot bring myself to. I almost wonder if the person I knew you as was ever real to begin with. I used to think that all that I am was because of you, but now I see that all that you were was because of me. I hope you become a better person, because it really is never too late to come home, and while I'll open the door for you, I'll never trust you as it is the scorpion's nature to sting.

[valyxa]

It makes me vilely uncomfortable that you are entirely okay with and almost oblivious to everything she is saying/doing around and towards you, it's so obvious she's interested in you. I wish you could understand and see how that makes me feel - how don't you? I know for a fact that if a guy was acting that way towards me, you'd be extremely uncomfortable and furious, and you'd definitely say something to him immediately.

It's not fair. :(