TheComfortCorner | V.8

[wren]

ayo its 3 am and i cant sleep cuz im oVeRtHiNkInG !1!!1 love that for me

[nydoorin ♥]

i would say that im sad, or hurting, but im not. im almost never anything. my whole life its just been apathy instead of emotion- i guess in a way thats better, im not ever heartbroken or depressed but it feels so lonely. whenever i go out with my friends for a day and have a blast, i come home and feel like garbage, and usually have a killed headache no matter how long i was out or how well cared for i was during it. like i used all of my energy to present a front of emotion that my brain physically cannot keep up.

my partner, and that may sound contradictory seeing as i cant feel much, often tells me it seems like im not invested in our relationship. but i am, i really am. you see, there are things i care about and hold dear, most often because they are the small things that bring me joy. art, my partner, my book collection are a couple of those things. i treasure these things- even though i sometimes think i dont care for them at all and its all a figment of my brain trying to overcompensate. but i have trouble expressing it.
when i smile i always look like im faking it, and i usually am, my real laugh is only heard by my inner inner circle, i vent to one person and one person alone, and i have a very hard time picking up signals. all of that together makes it seem like i dont care.

but thats because i dont, usually. my body language is hard to change because its all ive ever known. though my vent knows of my problems and worries, they dont know about my overarching apathy. no one really does.

[farewell]

Could I get a PM?
I ended up getting way more PMs than I expected so I only responded to a few. I do appreciate all of you though, thank you.

[houndoom]

part of me desperately wants to cling to someone i want support and i want to know that love can be real and it can be anything else other than pain and heartbreak
i want that
but i cant have it.
it feels like sometimes
im punishing myself

[Winstalgia]

my mom is making me anxious and not gonna lie getting on my nerves.

I can't believe she'd actually think I would go behind her back to date my friend. Yeah, we like each other,. That doesn't mean we'd both disrespect you and date behind your back.

Yeah, my crush and I hang out often. But I only hang with him when were with our other friends. This may be the first time were actually going somewhere alone but would you see it any different if we were best friends and didn't like each other?

You told me you didn't like it that I took dad's old phone and put a lock on it. What's the problem though, I've done that with almost every old phone you guys have had in the past? Or is it the fact you think I'm doing something bad? I already told you I talk to my crush almost every day, you can look at the messages if you want, it's all harmless! What's the difference if I message him on the computer or my tablet? Which btw, those both have locks!

Everytime after I hang out with him, for instance, at the beach last week, you asked me how the beach was. And I said good, and then went on about how I stepped on a crab and a stingray, but was lucky enough that it didn't sting me. You just stared at me and asked me again how the beach was. Then I realized that you specifically mean how was the beach with Adam. I said good. You just stared at me and have me an odd look again.

What am I supposed to say?

I hate how I seem like I'm lying when I'm anxious.

Sorry I don't know where this vent/rant is going.

My mom is just confusing me and making me feel like I did something terrible but I know I didn't do anything...

I just want her to be able to know that she can trust me.

[yeosang1]

why
cant i be important to ANYONE
im always second
or always forgotten
everywhere.
im sick of it.

[Sadowski]

I'm this 👌 close to say, "you're not my type of person, leave me finally alone."

[breadstick]

its getting hard to breathe and i dont know what else to say to them when i cant convince myself of the same thing

[dakotapaws]

why do i always have to
apologize for my feelings when im
not the one doing anything wrong
obviously you dont care a single bit
sorry for feeling feelings
i guess

[General Chaos]

Im so frustrated.
I was so excited.

We are finally getting a place.
It should be exciting.
Wrong.
Of course im wrong.
He makes everything so...
Wrong...

Instead of being excited.
Instead of being happy.
He tells me everything i need to change
Before we move in.

Instead of imagining all the things we can do
He tells me if my dog pees in the house
Shes gone.
My dog.
My baby.
Kicked out.
Because he said so.
Even if im paying rent
It doesnt matter.
His rules
Right?

Im so done with him.
I hate being with him.
I hate what he stands for.
I hate that he talks to other girls.
I hate that he doesnt love me.
I hate him.

But I cant leave.
Im stuck in this nightmare
I put myself in.
None of my family will talk to me.
Hes all I have.
Hes all I talk to.

Im stuck
And I hate it.