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[kanata]

hhhhhhhhhggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
hallucinations r not fun

i miss the way you were shu
you were a good person, we had so much fun
i wish you didn't throw me away for that long
and you kinda just keep on doing it
i wanna blame you for how messed up i am now, how much i aspired to be close with you, only for you to * with me
and tell me to my face that i'm the only one left and how i'm your last choice
i wished i didn't feel that hint of joy when you say you love me, how i'm the only one left and praise me for being so loyal
i feel disgust, too,
but no matter how much you ruin me, i just gotta be happy with it! even over all of these years, throwing me away like that
and lying to me, over and over, i stay with you, and it's toxic for me to do!!!! i know whats happening but
it jusr hurts i guess
no matter how much i am hurt i could never hate you
because i see myself in you, scared, my entire mind feels like a contradiction
you're trying so hard to feel put together, , we're the same, we're both mentally ill to all hell
and when you vent to me, my friends tell me, its not okay for them to do that,
but i see myself doing that, so whats the difference yknow??
we're just both disgusting n thats okay, w'e'll just, die together<!!

!

[cece.]

goddamit

why did i do that

edit:
i just had my first therapy appointment and im so glad an outside adult can see my parents are irrational

[chop top]

I still feel really bad. He's never left my mind since. I feel so lost. He could've been gone for good, and I really appreciate that he's alive. I just want to see him. Tell him he's loved and is properly beautiful. He's such a good person, and I really hope he understands that.
To everyone else here, everything is going to turn better soon enough. You're strong enough and I know you can make it to the next day. A new start. Know you're loved as you are. You're an amazing person and I couldn't ask for more.

[illyria]

hey, thanks for posting this thread. i needed this.

i was really great for almost a year now but things just crashed. a lot of problems i had back in the worst year of my life are coming back and unfortunately it's all out of my power to stop it. im just going to ride it out like i did back in 2015, but when i get in these moods i always wonder if i really /can/ keep going. i know i've made it this far and lived this long but it's always hard to remind myself that i'll be ok when i hit a low.

i don't have a group of people irl i can find support with. friends i told that i trusted with my problems talked about it behind my back without telling me or discussing my problems with me at all, so i feel i can't trust anyone with the knowledge of what i'm going through. i can talk to my internet friends, but honestly i don't want to ruin the mood. it is what it is i guess. i just need the strength to continue that i don't have a lot of right now.

[incognito!]

someone stole my $250 coat...
love that.
have been asking around to see if anyone has seen a person in the specific coat that i have; not that i would immediately accuse them of theft, but it would at least be nice to know if it's still in the area. so far, nothing. i'm fortunate enough for that to not be my only coat, but i worked for hours to be able to afford it and someone just swiped it.
:(

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[Shrewd]

I've been feeling like a sad bum lately for no apparent reason.
Oddly enough, I've decided to resort towards the comfy forum of the internet.
(As if that's going to solve my problem.) I feel out of place with my friends.
In a way, I don't think they want me around as much.

[strawbewwy.]

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[Guest]

i hate it when i think of my 'best friend' and start to shake.

[skyline]

ugh. all i want to do is care about the thing literally like all of my friends like, idk why i can't get into it???? it's like just, not my thing?? it's getting to the point where i almost feel left out of everything because i don't care for it. now since there's a direct for it tomorrow it's literally the only thing they're going to be talking about for the next week. don't get me wrong, it makes me happy to see them really excited about something, because i obviously know how that feels, but i just hate the fact that i just can't get into it, and be apart of it