fluffysweetfloss wrote:guys i love eva tsunaka so much someone please let me yap about her my sillyyy
^ ^ ^ if you'd like, i love listening to infodumps and my pms are always open :-) i've never heard of her, but i'm always open to learning about new medias & characters !!
PrinceOfTheAliens wrote:Do you ever like something so much it hurts? I’m not really sure how to describe it. It’s like, this longing to actually be a part of it. Reading and watching and listening and talking about it isn’t enough. I need to actually BE it. And I know that I never can, and that makes me insanely sad.
Sorry that’s a bad description but I don’t know how to better say it. It’s just this intense longing for I don’t even know what. It’s weird. I’m not sure if this is considered venting, it’s just… thoughts I guess.
i can completely relate to this. i get so intensely hyperfixated on media sometimes that it's hard to separate myself from it, to the point of distress or frustration when i'm not engaging with it. and even then, like you said, sometimes it just doesn't feel like enough -- you just wanna jump into the world yourself, or embody it in some way. you're definitely not alone! i hope that you're able to get to a more comfortable position with your hyperfixes / interests !!
i'm soo hyperfixated on this world / writing project that me and my partner have been working on hahaha, but it always makes me feel so silly to hyperfixate on my own creations. though, honestly, i'm so immensely proud of the world we've built so far and i'm Beyond excited to start using it as a rp universe!! i've been making ocs / concepts for days .. and i have some really good character ideas, but i struggle so much with designing them. i love crafting up unique personalities but when it comes to hair color and height i just sit here like this ↓↓

it is extremely rewarding to struggle with it and come out with a concept i'm proud of though. i'm autistic and can be extremely particular & picky about things because it has to Feel right for me to click with it; getting to the finish line with a design or plotline and realizing that it Feels right is just such an overwhelmingly relieving & satisfying experience hahaha