^.^ wrote:We're not supposed to really talk about my problem on CS, so I won't say anything about it, I just need to vent. Just ignore it
It hurts
It hurts
It hurts worse than anything I've ever felt
I never knew someone could have pain like this
It hurts
Jesus please help me
I have no one to talk to right now and I am dying
Please talk to me
I need you
Please help
Aw, I'm sorry for whatever is hurting you I hope it gets better for you. <3 -Huggies-
vjorgen wrote:
father, i understand that all parents have this perfect image of their children. what i don't understand is why you can't let go of the image you have of me as a small child, when i'm nearly an adult now. it hurts me in many ways, especially this one - you expecting me to be perfectly skinny and not have half an inch of fat. i was severely underweight as a kid, but it was not caused by disease or lack of money to buy enough food. i simply didn't like to eat much, and that was unhealthy. now i'm much older, and yet you still harbor that image of me. i eat normally now, but apparently just because my ribs and spine aren't poking out of my skin anymore, i'm 'fat' to you. and i was under that impression for so, so long. i hated myself for it. but slowly i realized that this was not true. let me tell you one thing, i am still below average weight for my height. i have never been called fat in school where teenagers tend to notice and pick on anyone who is even a little overweight. by medical standards i am perfectly healthy. so father, please stop bugging me about something that's not even true. father, please put aside these unrealistic, unhealthy exceptions of me. you yourself said some time ago that the 'skinny fashion' is stupid. then why do you still expect it from me? you contradict your own words at times. it hurts me a lot when you say these things. i still manage to hold on against this, but with the terrible mental state i have been in for almost a decade, i'm not sure how much longer until i acquiesce.
Aww! -Huggies- :c It seems like you are a changed person, but it's just that your father hasn't overcome your old state yet. I want you to know that whatever happens, you are still beautiful on the inside and out. <3 I think your father hasn't got used to you being perfectly healthy now, and he just hasn't let go. But that doesn't mean he has the right to verbally hurt you. Your body is your body, and not his. And it seems like you weren't unhealthy like before! That's great! C: But maybe your father always had an image of you being skinny, and he just didn't accept you for who you are yet. Give him some time to remember that you are still his daughter, and nothing has changed but you're very healthy now which is a good thing, your dad doesn't see it yet. Maybe you should talk to him, as a daughter he would understand if you explained to him how much he's hurting you and that you are perfectly fine, and even though I'm not the "skinny fashion" anymore, that doesn't mean you can hurt me like that. Good luck sweetie, I hope everything gose well for you soon! <3
chevy, wrote:My dad called me pathetic today
Aw! -Hugs- <3 Words can hurt, can they? :c Whatever the reason why he called you pathetic, you are not. You are an amazing person, and you shouldn't let these words pull you down. Maybe you should talk to him, tell him how you feeling, and maybe you guys can sort out the problem! Good luck! c:
SouthernOcean wrote:dammit.
I'm not sure what happened but it went like this:
I think I had an anxiety attack on the field when I was playing soccer cause I kept thinking
I dont know what to do and, god I'm just messing this up for everyone
I'd rather let someone who knows what theyre doing play
And so dad kept telling me to play but I couldnt breathe well and I was holding back because I thought I was just so bad ;-;
So I asked the coach to substitute me because I couldnt play like that dude DX
As I said it dad was like 'NO.." and was gonna say some other stuff but I cut him off sorta rapidly saying
"I WANT TO COME OFF SO LET ME." (This was directed to my dad) I wasnt like ignorant, no, I was doing it for others and my own good. But when I was about to come off (The coach had said OK) he was walking off.
HE LEGIT JUST WALKED OFF.
I WANTED TO CRY.
He didnt come back, not even when the game was over and because he had to drive me home I needed to go over to HIM.
HE WAS SILENT AND TRIED TO KEEP DISTANCE BECAUSE I GET IT.
ALL THIS TIME I THOUGHT HE WOULD BE ENCOURAGING OF MY DECISIONS, LIFE IS HARD FOR ME OK, AND IT AS CLEAR AS damn DAYLIGHT.
HE DOESNT LIKE A FAIL.
AND APPARENTLY THATS EXACTLY WHAT I AM
A DEPRESSED TEEN THAT HAS HUGE ANXIETY AND ALL ROUND TROUBLE.
Aww... -Hugs- :c It seems like your dad has not accepted your decision on not playing for the team because of your attack, and he left you!? That's terrible! I hope you are okay from the incident though. c: You're right, you made a great decision for not playing the game anymore because of what happened... Which is perfectly fine, but your dad needs to know how important your health is as well. Maybe he doesn't feel like talking right now, give it some time and then you can explain to him how you were feeling when he ditched you. As a daughter, your father will understand and hopefully the problem could be solved there. <3 He has no right to ditch you, and your decision was fair. I want you to know that he should be helping you with your decisions, and not leave them. You are not a sign of trouble, you are awesome for standing up to what you believed in! C: Good luck with everything! <3
ProudHufflepuff wrote:Okay so I'm feeling really sick.....all I had to eat today was like half a little bacon egg and cheese wrap and a box of candy....I couldn't eat dinner cause I was worried sick about something and now I can't even get up to get something cause when I do I feel like I'm gonna pass out
Oh no! :c -Hugs- Aw, this sounds horrible! Have you contacted with your family about this? Maybe they could take you the doctor, to get a check up and see what's really going on or you're just feeling light-headed today. Whatever it is, I hope you'll feel better soon! <3