TheComfortCorner | V.7

[EmilineRose]

I was just thinking about all the people I used to talk to..
and I went to message them...
but then i thought..
"what if I bother them"
"would they even remember me?"
"or care that i messaged?"
"i bet they havent thought about me in years"
"why would they"
and now im a sobbing mess at 8am.
i'm not someone people remember.
who would want to remember me.
im so worthless and useless.

[~IronRose~]

I was just thinking about all the people I used to talk to..
and I went to message them...
but then i thought..
"what if I bother them"
"would they even remember me?"
"or care that i messaged?"
"i bet they havent thought about me in years"
"why would they"
and now im a sobbing mess at 8am.
i'm not someone people remember.
who would want to remember me.
im so worthless and useless.

I know exactly how you feel. I would say hi to people I knew from middle school and they would have no idea who I was, even if we hung out everyday or ate lunch together everyday. I know how hard it can be but I want you to focus on making new friends instead of focusing on old ones. Look forward, be open to new possibilities, and think about the new experiences you could encounter and the new people you will meet.

[DrinaLestrange]

My bf is at court but he woke up really sick so I feel awful for him, my toddler is semi sick and I'm hoping I dont get sick because I'm job searching right now but my entire body hurts from various things and I am so tired ugh. Just a bad day.

[Samael_3]

I don't know, I feel horrible I guess.
My gosh, I feel like nothing is worth it anymore because I won't try. What's the point of anything if I can't get myself to accomplish my dreams. What's the point of my life if I can't accomplish anything. It seems like I only live in the fantasies of my imaginary world where I actually do accomplish my dreams, where I actually do try. I want to try to change the world, but I can't. I can't when I don't try. I've tried writing, but my writing is the worst on the planet and I can't get myself to write anymore because I know I'll never improve. I'm not sure if I should just give up, but if I do I feel like there's no other way to change the world. There's people all around me that probably would like to tear me down if they knew what my views were. I feel like I'm left alone, because I have no one to agree with me. How am I going to change the world if I have no one on my side? Why do I even try, it's not like I'll ever accomplish anything anyways? I keep telling myself that if I die trying then everything will be okay. It seems like I'm worthless and have no point. No one agrees with me and no one likes me because of who I am. I just want to crawl in a hole and die because I feel like I am so powerless. I feel like I need someone to help me, but I don't have anyone to help me. I wish I had someone to care about me, but I have no one that cares about me. My family has already made fun of me because of my views and I feel like no one else would accept me because of my views. I feel even the person reading this would want to kill me if I ever told them what I believe, but I still somehow want to stay on my side. And all my feelings and arguments just mix together into pure hate for everything and everyone on this planet. It makes me so mad because I feel like the whole world is brainwashed into something and can't get out, and I'm the only one that knows anything. I hate everything, and I wish I had someone to agree with me on the things I believe. I wish I had someone that I could change the world with, but I don't. And I don't think I ever will have anyone to help me with these things.
Sorry if I'm being extremely emotionally, I just needed to get it out.

[kolechia]

If anyone one remembers me ranting about being stuck in an ICT form which I hate so much we did a test and I got the results back. I got an A and it is typical my highest grade at the moment is ICT- I guess trying to be moved out of my current form is enough motivation for me! I'm WAY above my predict grade and I'm hoping (if this keeps up) it might get me moved. My friend got moved so why can't I be moved...?

But this isn't the main reason why I posting here today. I'm worried for my boyfriends mental health. It is slipping and I'm really scared for him. I have a feeling he has depression but he refuses to seek help from anyone or talk to anyone about it, not even his parents. I have a feeling it is mostly dealing with years and years of emotional abuse from his mum (I'm not going into details because it will break the rules) but he keeps saying it is not. Before he was moved households he always used to rant about her and saying how he hates her. Long story short she lost all her memories and doesn't remember ever being horrible to him (she is nice to him now I guess). He doesn't like being comforted and likes being left alone but it is so hard for me to just sit there and watch him cry his eyes out and trash talk himself for hours on end. I really don't know what I can do, I don't think I can do anything. He also believes everything is his fault.

I don't know what to do and I feel like he is hiding so much from me but I feel like he doesn't trust anyone.

I'm just worried as his grades are slipping and he lacks confidence and believes he is stupid and worthless. To make matters worse I suffer from Bipolar disorder so we often clash. I often lash out at him without realising and I know it is bad when we once got in an argument he compared me to his mother- I try my best but it is hard to understand other people's emotions when you cannot understand your own. I'm so moody and my mood changes so much it is unreal. I can be so salty and snappy, I just end up ruining everything. When I was younger I used to cry whenever I felt upset, now I just pick fights and yell at people. I can't help it, I'm just tired of being pushed around and treated like a doormat but standing up for myself makes things worse.

I really needed to vent a bit- sorry if this breaks any of the rules or something-

[Samael_3]

If anyone one remembers me ranting about being stuck in an ICT form which I hate so much we did a test and I got the results back. I got an A and it is typical my highest grade at the moment is ICT- I guess trying to be moved out of my current form is enough motivation for me! I'm WAY above my predict grade and I'm hoping (if this keeps up) it might get me moved. My friend got moved so why can't I be moved...?

But this isn't the main reason why I posting here today. I'm worried for my boyfriends mental health. It is slipping and I'm really scared for him. I have a feeling he has depression but he refuses to seek help from anyone or talk to anyone about it, not even his parents. I have a feeling it is mostly dealing with years and years of emotional abuse from his mum (I'm not going into details because it will break the rules) but he keeps saying it is not. Before he was moved households he always used to rant about her and saying how he hates her. Long story short she lost all her memories and doesn't remember ever being horrible to him (she is nice to him now I guess). He doesn't like being comforted and likes being left alone but it is so hard for me to just sit there and watch him cry his eyes out and trash talk himself for hours on end. I really don't know what I can do, I don't think I can do anything. He also believes everything is his fault.

I don't know what to do and I feel like he is hiding so much from me but I feel like he doesn't trust anyone.

I'm just worried as his grades are slipping and he lacks confidence and believes he is stupid and worthless. To make matters worse I suffer from Bipolar disorder so we often clash. I often lash out at him without realising and I know it is bad when we once got in an argument he compared me to his mother- I try my best but it is hard to understand other people's emotions when you cannot understand your own. I'm so moody and my mood changes so much it is unreal. I can be so salty and snappy, I just end up ruining everything. When I was younger I used to cry whenever I felt upset, now I just pick fights and yell at people. I can't help it, I'm just tired of being pushed around and treated like a doormat but standing up for myself makes things worse.

I really needed to vent a bit- sorry if this breaks any of the rules or something-

I posted before you, so I decided to read your post and it seems heartbreaking to see your boyfriend go through this. I can give you some advice, though I've never been in a relationship before. I might be able to give you some help.
You should really talk to him, because communication in a relationship is important. You should spend some time with him just to talk to him. I wouldn't really blankly blurt out anything about his depression first. If I were you I would start to talk to him maybe telling him how much you love him. Tell him with all your heart how much you love him. Then move on to something like, "You know I love you, but I don't want to you see you getting hurt. I want to see you happy. As long as your happy I'm happy." Maybe that could work a bit. Sorry if this gets into really deep advice, but you might even learn something if so. I don't know what you think or what is in your mind, so I'm kind of going by how I think.
The number one reason people are depressed is they find life worthless and pointless. They feel like living isn't worth it. But really you should tell him there's many reasons and points in life. That life isn't pointless or worthless. You just have to find a point to live, you have to find a reason that you want to be on this planet. And most of all, that if you don't do anything with your life your going to live pointless.
Just tell him these things. Most of all always tell him whats on your mind. That will build trust between the two of you, and soon maybe he will open up to the things he thinks. This might just help.
And talk to him about his mother. I have a step-sister who was abused by her mother. She was taken away from her mother and her mother went to prison. She used to always hate her mother. A few years ago her mother died in prison, she never got to see her ever since she was taken away from her. After her mother's death she realized that you should always love anyone since life is short. They just might be taken away from you forever and you'll never get to realize that you loved them until their gone. Nothing should break the bond between a parent and their child no matter what.

I'm not sure what kind of person you are and what kind of person your boyfriend is, but the key thing to a relationship is communication. And I hope my advice helped. I really don't know anything about relationships since I've never been in one.
You'll be in my prayers, I wish the best!

[xXFoxfaceToastXx]

I feel like I can't trust my mom anymore. At first she said I could quit this day program that frustrates me if I got a job, then she said oh no no I meant you don't have to go to program on the days you work. I got wind from program that she was saying opposite to the supervisor and I confronted her about it. She assured me it wasn't so and added my accusations hurt her.

WELL, welly, well, well.

In a meeting to clear things up she said oh I meant if you had a full time job. I started the job on boxing day, she knew it wasn't part time and she totally had the chance to tell me when I confronted her as well as two other prime opportunities when I was talking about work. Or she could've took initiative and had a mini family meeting to clear things up before. Now I have this nasty surprise and even more unsure about my own mother.

Plus she threatens to kick me out over everything like not willing to go with her for grocery shopping or her bf's family events. I'm like some pet that has to go out for walks when she decides.

[slushy puppy]

I have a pretty bad cough :(
(Sorry it's not very long)

[kolechia]

I have a pretty bad cough
(Sorry it's not very long)

I feel your pain. I have a super sore throat and my chest hurts from coughing.
Sadly there isn't really much medicine you can take for it (or at least that is
the case for me). It seems to be some sort of bug going around at the moment
or at least where I live. I've lost count of how many people I have heard cough
heavily today. Hey, I hope you get better and you don't have it for very long!
I've only had mine for a few days. I wish you the best of luck!

[abxy]

im so sick of everything i do being wrong
or everything i do being something that makes it worse
just one time i want something to be a right