TheComfortCorner | V.10

[beignet]

feeling a bit overwhelmed today and the last few days...
it's hard to feel tired like this all the time. im hardly functional.
i just want to sleep and i have the hardest time sleeping right now.

i would rather be reading, doing art or teaching myself new music on the piano.
but all i want to do is sit and vegetate.

my body and mind are suffering. i hate it.
trying not to think too much about it or make assumptions before meeting with my doctor
or talking to friends and family about it. which is hard. but im worried and scared honestly.
my blood results showed levels that represent liver cihrossis and kidney issues and i already
have nodules on my lungs. my internal organs have already been severely impacted.

[kotak]

i feel so alone
i don’t want to feel any feeling ever again

[vist]

yikes i feel like i’m on here every other day lately,

but when realization sets in that i only talk to either one person or none a day is saddening,. i have no friends again, how do i keep doing this,
i’m so lonely yet overwhelmed if someone messages me, i don’t know what to do anymore, < / 3

[scxr]

i’m so afraid that things will never change.

[DuckquackQUACK]

i try to make myself happy for you but when you say i am not normal... what do you expect my reaction to be? happy?

[zombiedoll]

please tell me you still like me

[67Phlox]

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thank you, sorry i didn't reply sooner

[DuckquackQUACK]

I still have fond memories of this site and of the interactions I've had. Yet there's a growing feeling inside me that it never really happened. That all of the good that happened here and off site was just one of my dreams. Did I really have friends? Or was my presence just tolerated out of necessity? Did I really accomplish something, be decent at art? Or was I deluding myself and all the "good" pieces were just works of pure coincidence?

Basically in the dumps and trying to stay off the internet. Sorry for bothering you once again. I guess I want to feel I exist like I used to.

I hope they don't, but I think things will only get worse for me.

I actually really liked having you here on cs! I still do, I wish you were happier, I really like the presence of you.

[beignet]

i slept 15 hours and i still have no energy.
im really worried about my health.

[OKULTRA]

i'm upset and need his reassurance,
but now i feel like it's becoming too often
do i stop asking and do this alone for his sake?
i'm afraid im not strong/secure enough for "medium-distance"
im going to be alone soon


i want to shy away, hide, and regress, so someone will come help me
i'm so scared to be alone, please don't leave me here
i'll curl into a ball and stay in this hole until you tell me it's okay to come out
i'm no good for you

does anyone have recommendations for coping with depression while battling severe executive dysfunction? im struggling to stay afloat with no one to talk to and i need to be able to self regulate direly right now