TheComfortCorner | V.10

[halo]

way too many people have a self-entitled savior complex.

[DuckquackQUACK]

i literally hate my sibling so much.

[Arlecchino ♡]

I'm falling into a hole I told myself I never would become a victim of, but I can't help it. Anything that numbs the pain is worth facing.

nvm dyed my hair. im healed

[OKULTRA]

i don't know why i have to keep going. i have no motivation or pull to keep me walking anymore. isn't it okay if i just lie down here and give up? i always come back to this same spiral. nothing ever changes. can't i lie down now? i won't bother anybody, i'll do it quietly. please let me succumb.

i miss when i was happy

[tea rose]

I don't want to be trans anymore. It's an obstacle I will never climb over. I wish I could take a pill to be cis

[SilveryBlueSky]

I am usually never angry.

I am much more familiar with sadness, hopelessness, and regret. Anger is, to my understanding, an attempt to displace my underlying sadness onto something else, to lessen the burden of it in that moment.

This understanding has led me to avoid becoming angry for most of my life. I have always tried to approach other people’s opinions and thoughts with compassion and understanding.

However, right now, I am seething with rage.

I am done trying to be compassionate and understanding towards people with no intention of changing their mind or admitting that they’re wrong.

I am sick of maintaining my composure for people who, on a fundamental level, have no respect for the people around them. They won’t hesitate to beat vulnerable people into the ground but cry about being “oppressed” as soon as the victim even alludes towards standing up or defending themselves.

They claim to act out of “concern,” but actually want to maintain as much control over other people as possible, because being in control allows them to feel powerful. And this power prevents them from needing to question their rigid and unmoving worldview, which they have built their entire perception of reality upon.

They want to feel like they’re right; the couldn’t care less about “facts and logic,” because as long as they don’t have to reevaluate their comfortable position in society, they can convince themselves to ignore the very real problems in our world as they pick and choose which sources and studies are “real” and which ones are not.

And, somehow, they decided that human rights are up for debate, because they can’t have someone that doesn’t fit within their rigid ideology of what a person should be. It’s so infuriating, and now, this very ideology is seeping into the veins of online comments everywhere; I don’t know if my words will even have an effect, with how far this poison has circulated.

I feel so infuriated because, in the end, there’s nothing I can do to stop this. No matter how many sources or studies I cite. No matter how many times I beg for these people to have basic human empathy. It feels as though I’m throwing words in an empty void, with those who need to hear it most being too apathetic or too spiteful to even bother.

And for the people most affected by this, I’m sorry that I can’t do more for you.

[kotak]

the loneliness is so. bad. today. a rock in my chest. i can't move and i can barely breathe. knowing you gave someone your life and you're not even worth a reply is just wrong. it's so wrong. after everything? after all of it?

was it ever real? if this is how it ends? you know me better than anyone, so why would you do this to me? why this way, why now, just why? why did you come so close only to throw me away at a moment's notice? who even are you and why did i ever trust you? why would you put me through this? there is a million ways to do this in which you wouldn't harm me or make my reality shatter, make me question everything and leave me to disassociate and rot. why did you choose this? how do i not feel like you're evil, malicious, selfish and uncaring when this is what you choose to do? how do i not hate you? how do i not see you as a liar when you lied about everything? when you lied you'd be here no matter what? when you lied that we'd make it through, that we're soulmates, that we'll always have each other, that you want me in your life, that i'm important to you, that any of this matters?? how do i keep a peaceful image of you in my heart when you left it to die?

i'm not okay. some days i can be numb which is better. but she is dying inside me, a person i held so closely, a path i gave everything to walk. she is dying and decomposing and the diseases she will leave behind will inevitably poison my essence.

[Jarex]

I love travelling but I hate plane rides and I'm already anxious about a plane ride that's 8 months away. I've always wanted to visit that country but the fact that I can only visit by plane is freaking me out, I don't want to sit in a plane for three hours to get there and then another three hours to get back home but I don't want to back out either because I love travelling and that country has been on my want-to-visit list for so long

[OKULTRA]

when everyone goes to college and work, where am i going to be? wasting away by myself. what do i do it for?

i'm not pretty enough to mope like this

i'm going to lose him

waking up and feeling the same feeling of dread and sadness that you fell asleep in is miserable

[♥ mizu]

oh my god i was using dad's speakers to play music while he was out and he just came home and found me OH MY GOD IM SO MORTIFIED. he told me not to use them but i did and shouldn't have and i feel guilty but he's going to KILL. ME. he just brought dinner home so i have to face him but oh my god im so scared oh my god. and it was an explicit song too hooo my god i don't think he noticed im hoping he didnt hear the lyrics oh my goddd. i never play music around other people because im embarrassed of my taste and this is like 10000x worse. this is his like his top of the line multi-thousand dollar speaker system and thankfully i didn't break it or anything but he will MURDER me im so scared what do i do oh my god. im soooo embarrassed. im so embarrassed. so. so. soooooooooo embarrassed. i feel so guilty and i KNOW im in the wrong here i just feel bad

update: i think everything's ok, we talked it out a bit and he's not mad