Write a Letter You Cannot Send (Read the Rules!)

[drift.]

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"Talk to your friends or be your own friend.
Sometimes having a dialogue in your head is
just as healing."

[froggy.satan]

Transparent for personal matters.

I'm' sorry all commissioners of mine, I bit off more then I can chew and sadly started getting really stressed, broken, and depressed,
about this all, I thought everyone would hate me because of this, So I did things I shouldn't had done, That ended me up in the hospital, But when I got that break, I Learned from my mistakes and once I was home, Immediately got to work, Again, I truly am sorry.

[splatling]

Dear H

I wish you would understand my emotions, or at least try. Yeah im sensitive and rude sometimes but im just stressed, and i know you know that! I just wish i wasn't feeling this way but it gets on my nerves, the way you react to everything. Its so.. bland and childish. Childish to the point its rude. Like the way anytime i do something you do all the time, you freak out!! I wanna say something but i dont know how to. I'm sorry it has to be this way but, you made it this way in my opinion.

Dear S*,

i love you and dont wanna ruin our friendship. Im sorry i'm rude i just get stressed like i do with H. You both do the same sort of thing. I wanna explain how it makes me feel but i can't.
Maybe its just me.

[sniper tf2]

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dear A -
why heya there! it has been over a year since i last saw
you. thankfully, i'll be able to see you in about a month,
which i really cant wait any longer! im super exited for it.
but... as much as im exited, im incredibly nervous as well..
you're like a sibling to me, but, maybe im not a sibling to
you anymore, a lot happens in a year, and i've seen the
pictures you've posted in the year, you look so happy with
your other friends, they're probably more social, more
friendly, or just overall better than me. and i wouldn't
blame you if you did find someone better.
i was an awful friend, i was completely toxic to you, i
didn't deserve you. you were too good, too nice. you
needed someone, you needed a friend. and i couldn't
be a good friend to you. i only noticed how horrible i
was until it was too late, and i lost you. i lost you for
such a long time. i'll finally have you again soon, but
im afraid that you wont be the same. i want to say
sorry to you, to apologise for being such a trash
human being, but i cant find the words to tell you,
i want to help you in your tough situation you are
in, but i dont know how, i dont know what to do.
im so sorry, im so sorry that i cant be better.
hopefully, i'll make it up to you next time im
with you.

see you soon!
-me
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[regular;]

dear r.
what happened to you?
what happened to us?
you've changed. and I hate how ur always quick to make fun of me.
I know u don't mean to hurt anyone.
I don't take it personal, but I can't see how I ever fell for u.
- I don't love u anymore

dear e.
you're the sweetest guy ever.
u make me feel important.
thank u for filling the void,
thank u for doing and saying the things
I wish my boyfriend would.
- a friend.. maybe

[nyctophilia]

To my clueless R,
Just when I think I've stopped loving
you, you do something that makes my
heart flutter. I'm so stupid. All I think
about is when you told me you loved me,
and how you imagined our future together.
If only I had told you I felt the same, sooner.
Because now you are committed to someone
I hate... and you know how painful that was.
We've talked for hours about it, about us,
about everything. Time has passed, and I
really thought I'd be able to shake off my love
for you, to move on. But my heart won't change.
I'm always going to love you, and I know that.
I don't expect anything from you, though.
I understand that we can never happen. Fate
just played out differently than we had expected.
I know that you don't love me like you once did,
but I am happy to have the kind of love we share now.
You are my dearest friend. You don't know I'm still in
love with you, and I don't plan on telling you. I don't
want to mess up the happiness you have now. It gets
hard sometimes... to be sidelined, to just have to watch
you fall deeper in love with someone else every day...
I'm not going to lie and say that it isn't painful. But it is
getting better. I don't get as insanely jealous as I did before.
I think things are getting better. I think I'm finally excepting
everything that has happened. I'm just happy that we are
still so close, and that I can be here for you when you
need me.
It was all in the timing...
I can't help but sometimes imagine...
What could've been.

[gophic]

dear s,

you're in heaven now, with the rest of the angels. i can't believe this happened. you're the last person on the earth who deserved that.
i didn't know you well, but i've talked to you, and i could tell you were just a really sweet kid. my friend said you were the papa bear of the swim team. you were so positive. you are where you belong now. please just make sure to be there for friends, they are taking this so hard. i know you're watching down on all of us. i'm so proud of you. i hope you're swimming in heaven happily. i'm so sorry. <3

- ally

dear a&a,

i need you both. you can't give up now. you've been so strong, and you can't leave me here. please don't. i don't know what i would do without you. you guys are my closest friends. if i have to, i will talk to your parents or go to the counselors. please know you're not alone. i love you to death, don't leave me.

- ally

[kiwikweenie]

dear d,

I hope you'd be proud of me if you could see me now, y'know...I always wonder what you would have thought of all the decisions I've made in my life since you've been gone. I miss ya dude

I hope you would have accepted me as a lesbian,
I hope you would have accepted the path I chose in my education,

I hope you would have accepted me;

[yetzali]

x
to dan

please accept me into your school thank you

[froggy.satan]

Dear whoever is up in the sky watching me.

Why are you trying to hurt me? Are you hoping i die by the end of this year? I've gotten hurt 238 times so far since 2018 started, Seriously? Please stop this, Thanks.

-Quinn