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dear A -
why heya there! it has been over a year since i last saw
you. thankfully, i'll be able to see you in about a month,
which i really cant wait any longer! im super exited for it.
but... as much as im exited, im incredibly nervous as well..
you're like a sibling to me, but, maybe im not a sibling to
you anymore, a lot happens in a year, and i've seen the
pictures you've posted in the year, you look so happy with
your other friends, they're probably more social, more
friendly, or just overall better than me. and i wouldn't
blame you if you did find someone better.
i was an awful friend, i was completely toxic to you, i
didn't deserve you. you were too good, too nice. you
needed someone, you needed a friend. and i couldn't
be a good friend to you. i only noticed how horrible i
was until it was too late, and i lost you. i lost you for
such a long time. i'll finally have you again soon, but
im afraid that you wont be the same. i want to say
sorry to you, to apologise for being such a trash
human being, but i cant find the words to tell you,
i want to help you in your tough situation you are
in, but i dont know how, i dont know what to do.
im so sorry, im so sorry that i cant be better.
hopefully, i'll make it up to you next time im
with you.
see you soon!
-me
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