TheComfortCorner | V.9

[nickjr]

I’m starting to think I’ve overbooked myself for this semester. I thought I didn’t.

I’m scared. I don’t want to choose between my usual good performance and ending up in the hospital bleeding out the wazoo again.

There’s nothing I can realistically do other than hoping for the best. (I envy all of you with parents who didn’t tear your self-esteem to shreds for 15+ years and/or who are no longer involved in your lives. I’m getting better but I’m not getting better fast enough and I can’t cut off contact yet. The damage done to how I view myself and the damage that continues to be dealt are the main reason none of the typical advice works for me yet)

I’m terrified

[spooks.]

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[risotto]

I accidentally brought up some memories from a few years ago and now I can't sleep and I've been crying

I'm probably to fall asleep in the morning when I get woken up

hopefully I won't get yelled at, I'm such a mess and I hate it

it made me go back into my identity issue mess and I'm tired of it

[Recidivism]

Here I am, crying like a baby at 6 am, after pulling an all nighter from being depressed and sick, because it's really hitting me hard that my mom will never see me as her son. The woman who means the world to me and who has always been there for me will never see me as her son. I could pass tomorrow and she'd put my birthname on the tombstone and tell everyone how much she misses her daughter. I love you mom, but you're killing me and you don't even realize it.

[KittyandCat]

i screwed up...
i feel like i'm going to cry
i was just being sarcastic
and i hurt someone
on the cottontails server?
i thought i could get over my anxiety, have people like me for once
and shake this feeling... stop wanting to go to sleep and never wake up, stop wanted to leave this world
but i guess it'd be better if i did
no one would noticed, let alone care
it'd be better for everyone

[겨울 꽃]

I can't deal with my sister's abrupt and continuous mood swings, it's doing my head in. One minute she'll
say you're the best sister in the world and that she'll always love you then the next she'll be on the floor
screaming "I hope you rot in hell", "I hate you, I wish you were dead".

Not only is it remarkably bothersome and tiring but it's also really embarrassing, particularly when we're
in public. She'll throw herself onto the floor and scream at the top of her lungs until she gets what she
wants. So many people glare at us and give my mother dirty looks, a few people have approached her
and called her a lousy mother who doesn't know how to discipline her children. It's really upsetting
seeing the expression in my mother's eyes when it happens. She works so hard to provide for us and
make us all happy but my sister just acts like an unappreciative spoilt brat.

Honestly, I think she has autism. Judging by the way she doesn't follow instructions, has difficulty under
-standing how other people are feeling and avoids eye contact.. it just kind of adds up. I have noticed
these traits (as well as more) since she was a toddler, but have only recently put more thought into it.
I don't want to stress my mother out by suggesting autism, but maybe it would be better to diagnose it
earlier so we can find out ways to help her in the future.

[strawbewwy.]

just......say it already. say it. just say it. i know you're disappointed in me. i ruin everything. i'm never going to be what you want me to be. i'm supposed to be pretty and healthy and smart not this. not me. i'm not even good at anything. i'm not even good for anything.

i'm so tired.

[onion]

everything feels bland. even the things im most excited for are nothing to me. ive lost passion for nearly everything. i dont know what to do anymore

[×Seven of Nine×]

I wish I wasn't mentally disabled. I feel so useless, like a burden.

[grey matter]

Don't tell me I'm not real. Don't tell me I'm faking.

Fools of the internet, stop ruining my positivity eves of looking through nonbinary memes with your comments which show up with the posts. I want my positive enby memes without you trying to invalidate me. Garbage humans.