by Prince Apollyon » Mon Sep 02, 2024 7:23 am
REALLY LATE UPDATE (oh god i should've done this sooner--)
so!! i've been planning to continue working on commissions, but long story short: my preparations for transferring to college has very much been getting in the way of that.
now, here's the longer story:
i'm set to up and leave my hometown for the first time EVER in about two weeks now, and have been scrambling all summer to both a. get everything set up in place for my move/new college semester, and b. come to terms with the fact that i'm going to have to say goodbye to all my friends, family, and pets for the time being. change has always been excruciatingly hard for me (likely due to a plethora of trauma-induced-yet-still-not-properly-diagnosed mental disorders) because i process it less-so as a shift from one good thing to the next, but more-so as a complete loss of a good thing, and the start of a new scary thing that has the potential to be either really great or really, really bad. ugh. so yes, even though logically this change is only temporary as i'll be able to visit my hometown during summers and holidays, it still feels like a really big lifestyle change that is happening all too fast, at once, and quickly.
all the stress from this has caused me to: lose out on sleep due to frequent nightmares leaving me in the middle of the night awake in a pool of sweat, anxiously try and force gatherings between me and my friends because i feel like if i don't see them now that i'll lose them, and fight the urge to isolate myself because this is all too overwhelming and likely also as a way of mental sh (in the vein of "if i cut people out first then losing them can't hurt me" despite that being an obvious fallacy, as the very act of "cutting them out" causes me to suffer anyway).
needless to say, preparing for this change has been the foremost priority in my life lately, causing everything else to fall off to the backburner. AND on top of that, because of how emotionally and mentally taxing this process has been for me (on top of the physical stuff, like making sure i'm packed in time and have all the paperwork filled out to officially attend this university i've been accepted into) i haven't had much left to give. as much as i want to draw and have tried to set time aside for commissions, often times once i get there, i find that i don't even have enough energy left after work to do much other than sleep, or sit in my bed and rot (which in my eyes is equivalent).
CONCLUSION:
please know, i still have every intention to follow-through on my end of the deal and draw for you guys! it's just taking longer than i thought because of all the life stuff that's in the way.
on my part, i am sorry for how long this is taking. if anyone wants to rescind their commission, feel free to cancel your trade, delete your posted form, and/or PM me to give me the heads up. no hard feelings! this is my bad for leaving this and not communicating well, and i own that. c:
for anyone else still interested, unfortunately i cannot give an exact timeline for when this will be done, as the issues preventing me from drawing are mostly mental/emotional. however, if you need it or would like it done by a certain time, for some reason explicit due-dates seem to have great effects on me, so feel free to message me a date you'd like to see it done by and i'll try my best to accommodate that. ^^
that's all from me! expect to see more drawings for me soon. >:3
-Jayce
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shoot me a dm if you're interested in commissions or art trades!†✞♰✟♱ ᴏʀʙ ᴄᴀᴛꜱ - ᴛʜ - ᴄᴀʀʀᴅ ♱✟♰✞†i look like thiiiiiiiiiiissssssss --->
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+ some other WL pets and rares! I can send over a trade if you'd like!
