[sun struck]

Not going lie, I know this drawing isn't pretty, or realistic, or even well-rendered...
But this is how I feel lately...

People in real life, they love to tell me what I can't do. Somedays I feel like most of the things I heard throughout the day is either "You can't do it, at least not the way you're doing it", "It won't work", or about things they say I already did wrong...

It never seem to be how much I tried, how much I cared, or how much I cried trying to make it work...
It was always the results. the things that can be measured...

I tend to think the most valuable things cannot be measured...
But it seemed like everyone was considering numbers to be the ultimate goal.

I hated it. I still do.
And the more people pressed those "numbers" up against me, my hatred grew...

now, I am not saying they are worthless.
They might even be "important" in this little society we built...

But valuable...?
no, it isn't really valuable.


I was depressed for a very long time. I shut out myself from most people, including my parents. I acted all tough just to show people that they can't hurt me with their worthless words. I was fake... and as time passed by, the fake me was the only thing left of me, and what people remembered of me. And I started to feel discomfort even at the thought of being the 'me' I used to be...


and then I wandered upon CS.
I seeked CS just as an escape at first. just a place to be when I needed a break from real-life problems and angry people.

there are some wonderful people in this community. People who encourage you to be yourself.

People who tell you that you can do it, that you can pull through.
People who tell you you are doing a good job and encourage you to go on.

You guys are amazing.
Sometimes your messages make me cry in joy. You guys do an excellent job making people feel welcome. You guys motivate me just when I need it.

And that is why I have learned to turn to this site after hard days of so many "can't"s.


I am so grateful for this site, and sometimes I feel like it is my life source
Thank you guys<333

I hope you continue being awesome,
and I hop you all only the best of the best!

[-chirp-]

I know how you feel, getting told things that make you feel worthless, stupid, and depressed. I felt like that for awhile, but look at me now, the happiest kid in school, always smiling and laughing. But deep down I'm half a fake.....

Good job for pulling through this!! <333333

[Puff the Fluff]

<3