"It's like everything turned into a dream,
A dream without an end.
I can't remember what happened;
I just remember you...
And how you made me laugh out loud.
When you decided to go,
I wish I could have gone with you.
I don't like it here anymore,
And I don't like being alone.
And when I cry,
Who's going to make it okay?
When I fall, who's going to carry me?
Tell me what are we gonna do...now."
Wait 4 Me - Shiny Toy Guns
A dream without an end.
I can't remember what happened;
I just remember you...
And how you made me laugh out loud.
When you decided to go,
I wish I could have gone with you.
I don't like it here anymore,
And I don't like being alone.
And when I cry,
Who's going to make it okay?
When I fall, who's going to carry me?
Tell me what are we gonna do...now."
Wait 4 Me - Shiny Toy Guns
For all those that don't know; my boyfriend passed away on the 18th of November. It's been a tough time... a really tough time...
Last night I had a dream though. We were at a computer lab together because he had homework to do. I left him alone to do his work and ended up coming back to check up on him after about 10 minutes. When I found him at the door he grabbed my hand with watery eyes; I got really scared. The butterflies in my chest felt real and the panic felt real. He led me to a closet that was the size of an average bathroom and we laid down and he said, "I think it's time we split up.." I really panicked then. How could he leave me? Why would he leave me? He didn't look like he wanted to leave. So I asked him why he thought that and he shook his head really slowly, the tears getting larger and more present and then pulled me close to him. He buried his face in my shoulder, gasping for air and crying so hard and said, "I don't know.. I don't want to do this, I don't want to let go of you, I don't want you to leave me! ...But I can't hold you back anymore..."
And then I woke up.. After that, I woke up. I laid in bed thinking about what had happened with watery eyes and that single dream has been on my mind all night. I'm not usually the type to believe that messages are sent through dreams, but this.. This felt so real.
About the drawing: The timer might be off; I had Spotify and facebook distractions.. But this is the first time I've highlighted and I was rather impressed with it since it was so super quick and sloppy.. Anyways, I envisioned that as myself, staring at the moon, waiting for him to say something... Not a very good moon, BUT OH WELL.. Enjoy. <3
