[♥ mizu]

i'm not sure what to title this because i don't want to sound silly and dramatic but i'm genuinely pretty disturbed rn. i'm gonna be ok i just need a good night's sleep but i want to vent here a bit. this might be a bit intense for cs forums so if it gets removed i wouldn't be surprised and i'm totally ok with that. it's nothing like. violent. but it's eerie i guess. so heavy tw for fainting. it's in transparent text and if anyone responds it'd be great if you also put your message in transparent


so i was sitting in art class today and one of my good friends wasn't in class. a few people were wondering where she was, but obviously it's not abnormal for somebody to be missing. whatever. so we're learning about the elements of photography and we hear a knock at the door. in comes our residence manager (she manages the students' welfare) and my friend (i'll call her caitlin). caitlin is literally being dragged by the manager, she can barely stand and is hobbling. she's sobbing and crying and looks terrified but i can tell she's delirious. but the manager says, "it's ok, you don't need to be alone! i'll sit you on the floor in the front here with [me, mizu]." i was sitting in the front desk and i'm actually so grateful i was. so the manager plops her down on the floor and this girl collapses. she CANNOT walk. and the class just continues as usual...? meanwhile this girl is lying on the floor beside me. caitlin is going in and out of consciousness. she's sobbing so i hold her hand and try to stroke her hair, which she seems to appreciate, i guess? i don't know. i was just sitting there in my desk with this girl going in and out beside me. like she was crying and every so often the crying would stop because she'd collapse again. she was literally gripping my desk for support. i asked her what i could do and she asked me if i could ask the teacher to go the sick room.

mind you, caitlin speaks japanese and her english is flawed. she's an extraordinarily kind, quiet person and she is EXACTLY like fluttershy. i'm not exaggerating and i'm not saying that to be nice. but she is a very quiet speaker. so it makes sense that she would ask me to do that when she can barely keep her eyes open. i asked the teacher and she said something along the lines of "[the residence manager] has already made the decision in caitlin's best interest and i really can't interfere no matter what", which makes sense but i felt absolutely awful. my poor friend. i was trying so hard to understand her but her accent is very thick and she was speaking so quietly. eventually the actual lesson ended so we had a work period and one of her japanese friends came over and was talking to her. she seemed a bit better but was shaky of course. they worked on their work a bit but her face was still blotchy. i felt AWFUL. i installed a japanese keyboard on my phone so she could write about what happened.

so apparently she'd collapsed in the stairwell and was having a dizzy spell. she absolutely could not walk. my hunch is that the manager didn't want to leave a lightheaded person alone in the sick room, but isn't your job to supervise her..? anyways. at the end of class, all the girls had to come over and lift her up because she couldn't get up. i felt so freaking awful but we had to walk her downstairs and she managed ok. but the manager again said she needed to get through MSIP (a work period) so we had to take her back up. she seemed great the rest of the day.

but it was just so freaking disturbing. the fact that the class resumed like nothing had happened while there was a girl literally begging me to help her was terrifying. i could do nothing for her and that hurts. she seemed a bit comforted but what kills me is that she is the kindest, most gentle person. like i said she's basically fluttershy personified. this was so out of character and i feel awful that it happened to her of all people, and especially in front of the whole class. my classmates are rather nice and understanding so i doubt they were judging her - they were more concerned if anything. but it was just so weird.

i told my dad who told my mom, which i'm annoyed at. but anyway my dad is livid about it. he said that he wanted me to confront the manager about it and defend her, which i said i can't really do as it's not my business. if he wants to he can. i would LOVE to but this woman is a wretch and i don't want to be expelled.

i did realise one thing when i was talking to dad, though. i think the superiors almost take advantage of the fact that some people don't speak great english. my peers (who are mostly asian) are also incredibly polite because it's in their culture to always show up to class and be courteous. they don't want to cause problems, it's how they were raised. i've noticed that, whenever i accompany them to talk to the superiors, they don't seem to take them as seriously and almost purposely misunderstand them? like i'll be listening and i'm thinking, "that's not what she means...", almost like they're putting words into their mouth. they're interpreting their faulty language to their own advantage. i mean, the manager was talking to caitlin like she was a child today. others noticed.

but when i or my peers who speak native-level english go to them, we get exactly what we want. they know they can't mess with us. if i even feel tired i can lie down. it's not a problem and it's insane to me that my friend was put into class in that condition. it breaks my heart guys. it hurts so bad. like how dare you? how dare you send her to class? even if she were faking it, don't you think maybe, if it's this excessive, she has a reason she wants to lie down? get help.

caitlin called her parents who are very concerned. they might bring her back home. i just cannot get over the fact that her parents are on the other side of the world and this happened to her. she must be terrified. they're also paying around $60k each semester to send her here so it's not like she shouldn't have proper care. it's sickening how she was treated. i am so incredibly disappointed

[Hawk WillowWatcher]

Ill Pm you in a bit

[arcadia.]

i’m so sorry mizu

wow, mizu<33

I’m so very sorry for you, and for her. i wish there was something i could do. that really sucks
please go ahead and pm me if you need to vent or just talk
xo <33

[♥ mizu]

Ill Pm you in a bit

thank you <3

i’m so sorry mizu

wow, mizu<33

I’m so very sorry for you, and for her. i wish there was something i could do. that really sucks
please go ahead and pm me if you need to vent or just talk
xo <33

aw gosh this means a lot, thank you <3

i'm going to be talking to the residence manager tomorrow, i think. both my parents and my sister have told me i should, and, even though the class seems to have moved past it, it's still not ok for her to put that on the students

[coffee.berry]

omg bliss this is so horrible
i'm so sorry this had to happen to you & your friend. both of y'all don't deserve
it. nobody does, to be frank. anything that i can do to help, just let me know.
that manager sounds like an absolute ogre. and i agree, you can't have people
treating kids differently just because some speak better english/are from the
place the school is. that's RACISM.

[♥ mizu]

omg bliss this is so horrible
i'm so sorry this had to happen to you & your friend. both of y'all don't deserve
it. nobody does, to be frank. anything that i can do to help, just let me know.
that manager sounds like an absolute ogre. and i agree, you can't have people
treating kids differently just because some speak better english/are from the
place the school is. that's RACISM.

thank you so much for your kind words vai <3


it's just absolutely wild to me. everything is just so normal now? people just moved past it. it really bothered me but i guess i have to leave it in the past too. my dad told me not to end up doing it because i'm just asking for trouble. and i know, she's a total ogre. it's crazy. it does feel like racism, the kids are treated so well until a bad situation arises and they need to speak for themselves. and then it's "let her speak for herself" she CAN'T.