ೃ⁀➷ 𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕤 𝕔𝕠𝕦𝕝𝕕 𝕓𝕖 𝕥𝕙𝕖 𝕕𝕒𝕪

[pearljam]

there isn't a day that goes by where i don't think of you
i so dearly wish you were still here
i can't sleep without snuggling up to a soft toy, like you used to snuggle me
i hope we will meet again someday, for that is the only thought that is bringing me joy right now
i hope you'd be proud of me, i know you are
i wish you could've stayed a little longer
you could've seen me accomplish so many things i didn't think were possible
like finishing year 12
please visit me in dreams more often, they feel so real..
please lay on my chest once more felix
please be there while i cry, i'm sorry i used to get your fur all wet
you will never be replaced

[pearljam]

hoping i'm always there

[pearljam]

all you do is hurt me
never forget how he makes you feel
the feeling of being a disappointed child is now back
why did i believe him again?

[pearljam]

oh well, enough said

[pearljam]

sigh
last week of being this age n im not ok
10 years gone
ten years gone..

[pearljam]

i'm still alive..

[pearljam]

thinking about you georgie

[pearljam]

i've felt myself slowly slipping for a while now,
but i wish it wasn't so hard for me to be motivated at the moment
all of this wishing but no doing,
this semester has opened my eyes to how i am my own back-stabber
for i know i could achieve many things if i could put in the effort
but life seems so bland
i just want to be distracted from it
i am constantly stressed and anxious and nothing seems to help
meaning, i have to face my fears and talk
but i don't want to talk.
what's the point when i will have to relive those things
and i will probably get worse before it gets better
but what else will i do
how will i get there
i hope i can get there one day, though i don't think it will be soon
i wish it didn't affect every little thing
including the things i want to know and do
i'm so passionate for this subject, or at least i was, but i know i am behind all of this
i am just sad. with no real explanation. i cannot get over things that happened in my past. they come back to me.
just please, please, please can i pass this semester
i don't want my mental health taking this from me again
i just want my course to be over with

[pearljam]

at least i am still here
despite the war in my mind, at least i am still here.
i do want to be here.

[pearljam]

build a home for your strings
my roof is not stable, but theirs is
could you sing me a lullaby?
sometimes i wish we were as important to you
as material objects you love and view