i<3 wolves678 wrote:i'm so scared
There's a guy in my house
I don't know what to do
I'm alone upstairs and they're in the next room
Last thing I heard was my mom phone the police an hour ago
All I hear now are loud noises from the other room
I'm just so scared
Swishy & Broken wrote:I don't know, I don't know anymore.
M came over again, at 1 AM just like last time. This time we were a lot closer, and we cuddled and spooned and my head is a mess. I don't know it's so wrong to like him but I do and I feel awful for it. He put his at arm around me this time, then we spooned and it was so warm and fantastic even though I felt like my heart was going a hundred miles a minute. He kept asking if I was alright, which I think is his way of seeing if I'm uncomfortable. He put his arm around me while we were spooning and it was so.. I'm so happy I might cry but I might also cry because it's so wrong. I can't like him, but I do and it's awful. I can't do that, I can't just start liking someone. I can't hurt the people I know like that, I can't .. I just.. I can't.
And the worst part is, I know I'll think about it for a long while, and keep thinking about it.
Something that keeps running through my head ::
*tilts my head* "Are you okay" (M)
"Why do you keep doing that?" (me)
"You're breathing weird" (M)
And also, he knows I like him.. as I told him. I didn't wanna feel so darn guilty about it. But heck he seems to keep doing these things that make me so much more embarrassed and wanting to be close to him/ around him.
EDIT; but he did tell me I'm not fat.. and it kinda helped. like.. idk.. I was so embarresed and worried he'd think I was fat while he cuddled and when I brought it up he said "nah don't worry about it" and I just.. I feel a whole lot calmer right now about myself. (except, ya know, my emotional turmoil)
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