when you know you have alot of stuff to get done over the weekend so asking your boyfriend if he has time to hang out isn't even an option even though you miss him so darn much,, and you dont want to admit that because you were never taught to show your emotions in a healthy way
at the same time Im sort of happy that Im even able to miss a person this much because just a few years ago I was pretty sure I was completely aromantic and I struggled to connect with people on any kind of personal level to the point I never missed any specific person, even close friends and family. But like why does human connection hurt? genuinly, why do I feel physically ill when I miss a person? feels unnecessary and also homophobic and ableist and generally just rude of the universe to do that smh