- its ok i'll figure it out --
i just feel like im stuck in the tide right now. some days its only washing over my feet, but other days its just sucking me in. its covering me up and I don't know how to get to the surface. I wish I knew how to escape it. Wish I had the energy to fight my way back to shore.
but I feel lazy and stupid because I can't.
but i'm also not allowed to feel any of this because the moment I act like i'm unhappy my family jumps on it and acts like i'm going to do something stupid. they act like the moment I feel sad is the moment they need to wrap me in bubble wrap the point that I can't even talk about what im feeling without someone getting worried or crying
i just want to talk about it. i want to solve it. i don't want to feel like this all the time, i want to at least get a farm damnit and im not gonna let the tide sweep me out until i can.
im just tired right now, and sinking. but its okay. i've bounced back before and I'll bounce back again.
