Me: oh boy this is the first weekend that i have no where to go since February! I can't wait to rest and catch up on everything I have to do!
Me once the weekend came: O-O so many thoughts,,, be gone thought
i forgot how bad being alone with my own thoughts was for me!!!!!!! certainly does not help that even more people i know are getting engaged/getting married/finding S.O.'s etc. meanwhile i'm just over here covered in calf manure half the time. the older i get and the more and more people my age or even younger than me getting engaged or married when i've never even been in a single serious relationship really just,,, hits me idk. but what can you do when you've got a nice helping of social anxiety, and are just a tad too eccentric and too passionate about animals for most guys' liking (my accent doesn't help either but i don't even want to think about that right now)
also doesn't help that i tried to use this unusual amount of alone time to reconnect with friends from home and,,, not a single one of them has bothered to answer me all day. so. yay.
sorry for the pity party yall and i know there's worse things going on all over but i needed something to do to distract my brain for a hot minute and i guess i also needed a quick rant too. at the end of the day at least i still have my cow bbys who i know love me v much which is enough to bring me to (happy) tears when i know how excited some of them get to see me<3 also you can very much tell why i do not draw humans, i gave myself a marshmallow body with little marshmallow feet
