lately ive been having a really hard time with art; ive been getting really self-conscious and feeling like my art just isn't good enough to be popular. ive been worrying about if i could ever make a career out of art, and whether or not i'll ever be good enough to get a job in the industry.
i don't really get engagement when i post and my numbers don't really compare to any of my mutuals and friends and it does kind of get to me if im honest. it sounds really bad but i do care about numbers and when people comment i always get excited and read them all even im too nervous to respond.
it sounds really selfish and bad but i do wish i had a bigger audience. i appreciate everyone who already likes and comments on my stuff, i really do. i just feel demotivated. maybe i'll get out of this funk soon.
just not having a great time lately.