Anywho, this is my New Year's/new decade artwork, yay!! A few days late, but eh, oh well! I wrote "2010's" on it because I wanted to honor the decade part of 2020, but truthfully, it pictures the many characters and people who were the biggest part of my 2019 and greatly impacted me. I debated about changing that last 0, but eh, I decided against it!
I wish I could have included all my absolutely friends here too, because they definitely kept me going 100%, but unfortunately this already took long enough, not to mention the canvas isn't the biggest. So I couldn't do that this time. ;-; It doesn't mean I don't cherish you, though (you all know who you are), and please know that I really, really do wish I could've added you all! <333
If you're wondering who's who...
Center: Me (with an Eevee!)
Gray cat: Crowfeather, to represent my love for the Warriors series
Light brown cat: Scatterdrop, my Warriors OC
Green dog: Oliver, my first OC
Cream-colored fennec fox: Haven, my newest OC
Red hoodie: DanTDM
Gray t-shirt: Adam Young/Owl City
White hoodie and flamingo: Flamingo/Albert
Anywho, uh, 2019-reflection time, I guess! XD
If you don't feel like reading my sorta-venty rambling, you can skip past all these paragraphs to the end if you'd like, or just stop here altogether! C;
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Being entirely honest, 2019 wasn't the best year for me at all. In fact, I'm kinda sorry to label it as one of the lower-ranking ones in my memory. A lot happened this past year, a lot that I wasn't prepared for, even if I thought I was. School got tougher in the second half of the year, despite me mentally telling myself the first couple of weeks that things were gonna work out fine. I felt like I was falling behind in almost all subjects, and I couldn't even seem to do as well as I used to at things I'd always loved and had a knack for, like choir. Tbh, it kinda felt like I lost a big part of myself, you know? The confidence I had gained from 2018 was pretty much stomped out, and soon I just felt like my life was going in circles: almost the exact same, dull routine every day, with nothing much to look forward to. Yeesh, looking back on that... it was a scary feeling, being trapped in such a rut like that. It really was.
This year, before the new school year started, I was pretty much terrified at even the thought of school returning, because I didn't want to go through that all over again. And then a couple other things happened throughout the rest of the year... yeah. That's the bad. Yippee. Sorry about all that... :1
But okay, it was actually a really good year sometimes, too? After the 2018-19 school year ended, I had a wonderful summer where I felt completely at peace mostly everyday. Later, once school returned, I was able to connect and become even closer with some of my old friends from middle school. I became even better in conversations and talking to/interacting with people in general. Choir became easier, and now I feel like I truly do fit into that class. I regained some of my confidence regarding intelligence. I grew even closer still to my best friends, and we had lots of fun times together. I improved greatly in my art, more than I thought I had at first. I made new OCs. I found my favorite YouTubers. I had a great Christmas with my family. Yeah, there was lots and lots of good, too.
So I hope 2020 is different, yes. I hope it doesn't include the hardships that last year had, or that they're at least not as extreme this time around. But I also hope it has lots of good moments, just like 2019, ones that I'll always remember.
I suppose I'll just have to see. So, let's do this. <3
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Oi, sorry. I tend to go on and on sometimes, I guess, my apologies!!! But I really, really hope that 2020 is wonderful for all of you - even if you're really not feeling it, and you think it'll probably suck, keep in mind that there's always good in the world around you! You've got this. <3
Happy New Year and new decade, everyone!!!!! <33
