Sometimes the problem is right in front of you. And you love it, because it is beautiful. No one would consider it harmful. Not even you. No one would ever believe you if you told them it's hurting you. How are you supposed to break free of something that even you yourself care about? Even if its hurting you?
This is the predicament i'm in. I hope the visual helps explain? Let me know if the message comes across clearly art wise. (And if you got the message by just looking at the picture/not reading the description first.)