[Kalon Readoptions] (READ UPDATE PG 14)

[Cutieduckpie]

username: Cutieduckpie
link to kalon you're trying out for: Anya /or/ Laverna
kalon's name: tbd
kalon's gender:tbd

Dropping, prob won't have time. GL everyone<3

[AngelsRuin]

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[fruitvale]

username:
link to kalon you're trying out for:
kalon's gender: genderfluid ( they / she / he )
res bc hooOOOEY im luv
i'll pretty this up when not on mobile !


notes ;

name: charlie clark may
meaning: ? ?
nickname: char , clark , may
gender: genderfluid
sexuality: panromantic
ethnicity: african american
age: 27
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height: 5'9
weight: 148 lb
build: hourglass shape
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[cad bane]

username: luna and artemis
link to kalon you're trying out for: here
kalon's name: Azura
kalon's gender: Female

Azura's to-do list:

Buy flowers for Mothers' Day ✔
Bake muffins ×
Bake muffins but with sugar instead of salt this time ✔
Schedule an eye doctor appointment ✔
Turn in the overdue library book ✔
Pay library fines ✔
Purchase a new coffee machine ×
Return broken coffee machine ✔
Buy a coffee machine that works ✔
Get a new dress for that date tonight ✔
Have the date go well ✔
Schedule a second date ×
Cry and eat ice cream in the bathtub ✔

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username: luna and artemis
link to kalon you're trying out for: here
kalon's name: Kailee
kalon's gender: Female

theme song

This is Kailee's theme song because even though others judge her and try to weigh her down, she pushes forwards, like a radiant sun coming out from behind the gray clouds.

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username: luna and artemis
link to kalon you're trying out for: here
kalon's name: zachary
kalon's gender: male

moodboard

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username: luna and artemis
link to kalon you're trying out for: here
kalon's name: Irene
kalon's gender: Female

moodboard

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username: luna and artemis
link to kalon you're trying out for: here
kalon's name:Felix
kalon's gender: Agender

Felix's favorite quotes:

Tell me and I forget. Teach me and I remember. Involve me and I learn.
-Benjamin Franklin

Scaw's not bad. He's just being mean.
-Ben DiAngelo from Red Kayak

Not all those who wander are lost.
-J. R. R. Tolkien

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【 Nikolina ☀ Sheelah (meaning blind) ☀ female 】

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Empty dark, falling
star crept in, only to be
consumed by dark void
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Empty dark.
For how long have I been here? Has it been months, days, years, even? Has it been only a few seconds?
How did I come here? And why here, out of all places?... Am I dreaming?
Hah...I got lost in my thoughts again. I stared too far into the empty space.
I shook my head, to remind myself I am still here, and floated closer to the planet. The planet used to be filled with life once, even though I can't remember those times, I know it was. It used to have life, animals, hope. And now?.. Now it's empty. Now it's dead.

How did it die?

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Empty heart, fallen
star mourns, as she is consumed
by her darkest thoughts
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Then, there was the voice. Kian. They would show up now and then, whenever I drifted too far, whenever my thoughts got too empty. I can't seem to remember our past conversations.. Kian.. Their voice.. Neither a man's, nor a woman's. Their voice sounded like a whisper, but as they spoke, I felt my body shake.
"Sheelah, why are you still here?"
I look around me, trying to find Kian, like I always do, not expecting to see them..And as always, there was only darkness. The more I think about it, the less I actually want it to happen. After all this time, to actually see them?.. Will that mean the end?
"It's my fault The World died."
I say that, the only thing I believed to be the truth.
I glance at the lifeless planet, covered with snow. Why didn't I save it? I was right here.

Why is it so cold?

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Empty mind, long lost
fallen star lay, as she is
consumed by her guilt
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"Sheelah, you have to see the truth."
I don't understand.. Do I have to?
"I hope you'll be able to realize it this time, Sheelah."
Realize what, I wanted to ask, but I felt something pulling my mouth, not letting me ask that question. Maybe it's too early?
"Everything will be fine, I promise. If things become too much for you, please say so."
I don't know what they mean by saying that. I don't think I want to know.
"Sheelah, how about we step onto the planet now? "
-"Alright, we could do that, I guess."
As I spoke that, I concentrated my mind and body on The World. I close my eyes for a second, thinking about the cold ground, the snow, the frozen lakes I saw from the space... And I'm seeing it. I'm seeing it all so clearly! It's like I'm right here!.. I open my eyes, and the pictures from my mind, are here. Looking exactly the same. I can feel the snow under my feet now, the cold air caressing my face, and the cold air filling my lungs.
"What do you see, Sheelah? "
I can see plains, mountains, lakes, but no trees, or any animals. Nothing alive is here. It's all so silent. I can only hear the wind howling.
"Look a little closer. "
I turned around, and saw a tall concrete building, standing next to a frozen lake, and the tall mountains behind it. The building fit the rest of the place perfectly. As if it was meant to be here. Like it always existed here. Since the start of everything.
"What do you see, now? "
-"A building."
"That's great, Sheelah! Could you walk closer to it? "
I did as Kian said, taking small steps, the cold snow biting my bare feet.
The pictures of a little girl started coming out of nowhere, appearing in my head, in front of my eyes. A warm sensation in my heart, and a lump in my throat appeared. I heard her laughter. I laughed with her. Roses, everywhere. Their sweet smell, making me smile even more. The taste of tea. Too much sugar. Just like she likes it. I see a little girl dressed as a princess. Pink, she's dressed in pink. Her favorite color. Her small hands, holding something... She is holding a doll. The doll looks like-

"Where are you now Sheelah? I heard you laugh."
-"I'm still outside the building.. But.. I saw a little girl. She looks so familiar."
"Can you remember her name? "
The pictures, and everything was gone. I am in the snow again.
Staring at the concrete building.. I hear a loud noise. Like a scream, and then windows break.
I see a few drops of blood fall from the sky.
It colored the snow. In a sort of beautiful way.
My palms hurt.. I look at them.
I'm holding the doll the little girl held.
The doll looks like me.
"Erin. Her name is Erin."
"Well aren't we making progress today! You are holding the doll aren't you?"
-"Yes.. Yes I am."
The doll's face looked wrong. Her eyes were stitched shut.. Blind.
I ran my fingers slowly over my own eyes.
Even though I could clearly see everything, my eyes were closed.
I wasn't afraid. This happened before, hasn't it? Many times, probably.
I am ready to finally finish this all. This can't go on like this.
Holding the doll closely to my chest, I am running towards the building. Ignoring the cold. Ignoring the glass from the broken windows.
The perspective seemed to change, and now I am facing the front of the building.
I am right in front of the door. I open them.
The hallway. As soon as I entered the hallway, the doors closed shut behind me. I jump at the sound if it, but I don't look behind me. No time to lose. I press, walking towards the living room. Something happened here, something horrible. I know it.
"Sheelah where are you?"
-"I'm in the living room."
"Take your time. And if it becomes too much, please say-"
-"No. Doctor no, not this time. I'm finally ready."
"You are breaking the illusion, Sheelah, I advise we stop and continue some other-"
-"No! Let me do this. I know I can do it this time. Please, let me. I can feel it all, it's so close. The truth. It's so important, I can't leave it behind, I can't forget it again, please."
I am crying now. The salty tears running down my cheek, and into my mouth.
I have to finish this.
It's right here.
... I slowly enter the living room, the TV is on, a kids' cartoon. I've seen this episode before. It's about a little fox that ran away from her mom to go play in the woods with her friends. I look at the time 5:27 PM. Dinner time. I look at the coffee table, snacks, and two books. I wrote those books. I look at the couch. I see a coloring book, it hasn't been used, not once, and now it's too late.
Finally.
I look at the ground.
I see Erin, lying on the ground, wearing her pink princess costume.
I walk closer to her.
The blood.
Oh no, no, no, no..
She-



-"..Is it now my turn?..Hello everyone! I'm Sheelah. And well, I lost someone like all of you. That's why we're here, isn't it?... I used to work from home, I was a writer, writing children's books for many years.. I worked a couple of other jobs since this one didn't really work out until it was too late.. But that isn't important right now...The reason I'm here is.. Erin.. Erin is the name of the little girl I lost, my girl, my daughter. She passed away on February 6th...That dreaded day...I was in the kitchen, preparing dinner, it was around 5 PM, while she was playing in the living room..Wearing her princess costume, again.. I didn't hear her.. I...Didn't know she fell.. I told her so many times before that she should never jump on the couch, because she could slip and... I didn't hear her. I was lost in my thoughts.. How could've I been so ignorant?... February 6th.. I lost an entire world that day. Everything lost it's meaning. I was in such shock I forgot what even happened. I forgot I even had a daughter...It's horrible.. I don't want to think about it.. But I have to...She loved reading with me, she was such a clever little girl.. Then one day, she begged me to make a story about just her, and me.. She couldn't choose what she wanted to be.. A princess? A dragon? A mermaid? A parrot, or a wolf?.. So I just told her, she could be everything, and anything she wants. And I'll help her with making her dreams come true, in my stories... I told her she could be the world, and I'll be the sun. I'll make sure she is safe, loved, and that nothing bad will ever happen to her... Then she begged me to sew a toy of her, and me, so we could wear pretty dresses, and attend secret parties with the faeries... I asked who should I make a toy of first, and she said the sun...So you could always be with me, mommy!...I didn't have the time to make a toy of her.. It all happened so soon.. I lost everything that day.. I don't think I'll ever be able to forgive myself.. But I can hope better times are ahead of me. And ahead of all of us."

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Empty soul, consumed
by her peace, believes the star
will shine, rise again.
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eDn

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Full drawings (All by me)
-> The Sun Goddess
-> The Empty Dark
-> The Blind

Erin's Moodboard
->Simplicity

Sheelah's Song
->Now the night is coming to an end...
writing haiku is super hard, i wish i knew that before. (: sorry for them being that bad.
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Nina

[Avisowl]

mark, I might try out for this noot https://sta.sh/016ilfhevhwy

[carotid]

username: carotid
link to kalon you're trying out for: this babe!
kalon's name: millicent
kalon's gender: female

[Mimu]

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[Cloasiii]

》 Cloasiii ✦ Nadine ✦ ♀ 《
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prelude.

stars glisten.
They tell us: those which remain constant -- forever truthful -- are intangible. consider that we cannot touch the stars.
Yet we feel their eternal dust, beckoning the birth of mortal breath and coaxing our eyes upwards to the sky.
From the wombs come dreams! little dreams of thought, temporary and brisk and so in awe of the stars!
In great strides they reach, in pilgrimage, in religion, towards the stars and towards nirvana.
The inspiring qualities of the stars summon
Hope.
and
Warfare.

stars glisten in equal intensity no matter their backdrop, hail mary blue orbloodshed maroon.

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story.

"You can't do this, Nadine. You'll leave our mother behind."

The air was drawn as tight and tense as the night was dark. In that haunted, awful place, the sisters and their auras stood against each other. The only gentleness in existence was a burn-marked door, hanging softly ajar; It was silent for a long while, though the common distress was tangible.

"There's nothing that I can do," Nadine cried; "I can't stop him from hurting her."

"You're the only thing that's been guiding us through these times! I depend on you, mom depends on you, you're the only hope that we have --"

"I'm not!"

The outburst quickly fizzled into another drawn silence. Nadine's form fell further into the shadows of the room, now barely illuminated by a morgue of sad nighttime stars. It was as if they had burned out with her.

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5 years prior, the sisters' mother had married a man who would go on to abuse the family's financial neediness. They needed food to eat, and their mother couldn't provide for even the most basic necessities. Nadine, the eldest and brightest daughter, was set to get a great education and become the new breadwinner, freeing them of their financial burdens and the man's abuse.
Nadine, however, couldn't be that shining light for them. She burned out.

[Flowerbud X.]

username: Hellfire X.
link to kalon you're trying out for: 1 2 3
kalon's name:
kalon's gender:
Will put these in separate forms and edit later.