Rikimaru left the shelter module slowly and silently, not remembering to wake up Monty. They closed the screen door to the rv-like structure and sat down on the ground, back laid against the metal walls of the shelter module. They closed their eyes and tried to think about anything except what had just happened.
But when you try not to think about something it becomes all you can think about.
They kept feeling his mouth against theirs, kept feeling his hand on their cheek and smelling his breath.
But worst of all, they kept feeling a fluttering in their chest that wouldn't go away. They felt light, like the gravity on this planet all but went away. They grabbed a handful of purple grass to root themself and braced themself against the shelter module to try to keep their head from spinning. They pressed their lips together, remembering the kiss. They had no idea what this rush of emotion was, and logically concluded their head wound was worse than previously thought. They brushed off the thought that they were in any danger and closed their eyes.
And all they could see were Reinen's.
Opening their eyes again, they decided their head wound was definitely severe. They wouldn't be thinking like this in their right mind. Let alone want to go back in time and feel his hand on their cheek again. They definitely wouldn't be thinking about his goofy smile, his beautiful eyes, and the sweet taste of his breath as they leaned into him...
They snapped themself from these thoughts sharply. "Stop that." they mumbled to themself.
He was hurt, he had a concussion. He didn't know what he was doing. So there was no reason for this to ever happen again.
Why did the prospect upset then?
They thought about their parents. When they were a little child their parents could be seen snuggling on the couch together. They looked so happy. And now Riki was wanting to do the same thing; to lay down with Reinen and hold him tight.
But... why?
They were sick. That's all there was to it. They huffed and stood up, walking over to Icarus. "Excuse me, but I believe I've sustained a grievous head wound. Could you take a look?"