((I feel like I'm cheating on Stormpaw x Smokepelt for writing this, but. . .))
Gathering
~Stormpaw~
He's. . . Still looking at me -- I think I can actually physically feel his green eyes boring a twin pair of holes into my skull, for it's burning as though an entire colony of fire ants were attacking my flesh. Of course, that could be due to the fact that my entire head is flushed so deeply that I can only send a silent prayer to StarClan that it isn't visible through my dark pelt. It shouldn't be, should it? I spend a few heartbeats immersed in this inane worry before acknowledgement of my strange actions as well as thoughts -- especially thoughts -- processes in my mind, which is still whirling from the presence of the brown-striped tom -- Earthpaw, was his name? -- Before me. Or it could be my near-death experience that occurred only moments previously; I vainly hope so, for it is rather humiliating to be put so out of sorts by the mere proximity of a perfect stranger. Yet I am too distracted to notice the embarrassment that curls my tail ever so slightly. . . I glance up for just a moment -- for some reason, I feel ravenous to set my eyes on his equally detached face, and I can not bear the urge that is gnawing my insides to ribbons; it's just as effective as a DarkClan minion's claws raking down my churning belly, but perhaps a bit more dangerous than a flesh wound -- and am struck once again by his earthen gaze, so dark but bright and seeming to blow every other color in this world out of the spectrum. His teeth flash bright white in the brilliant light of the moon that fills the hollow with incandescence, accompanied by its personal swathe of stars; our warrior ancestors are watching. I am reminded of this blatant fact with a clandestine shiver that fails to stir my fur that is already beginning to quiver and stand on end.
You idiot! I hiss inaudibly to myself, my own silent words rattling within the confines of my skull. My eyes avert themselves once again, and I experience a queer pang of hunger that follows my deprivation of the other apprentice's shadow-strewn figure in my sight. Instead I stare in a sorrowfully forced manner at my seldom used claws gouging deep marks in the shifting ground beneath them.
You're a medicine cat -- not to mention the apprentice of one; you're forbidden to have a partner -- not until you receive your full name! The thought pierces something sensitive inside me, and I whisk it away bitterly. I was far more content without such troubling thoughts.
Are you? the same voice, my own, chides me brusquely. The self-inflicted lashing out is meant to be reprimanding as well as berating, but I give it no heed and focus my attentions on Earthpaw. This tom will definitely be part of my imminent future -- that much is certain, amid such a variety of things that aren't. What I have to decide is whether it will be positive or negative -- his part in my fate. My head hurts. Attraction, fate, future. . . The words have suddenly become so meaningful to me in only moments, and my thoughts are inevitably directed toward them. It's too much. . .
My eyes snap open, and I only just now realize that I have been squeezing them shut so tightly that my eyelids are sore, but I am barely aware of the minute amount of pain. I had been shutting them out against what I am desperately trying to hold out, or is it what I am attempting to contain within myself? Can an attempt be desperate if it is only half-hearted? I am not sure. Nothing is at the moment -- are my paws really digging up ground in anxiety at the Gathering, or am I simply dreaming curled up in my nest close to Heathersong back in LeafClan camp? No. I set my jaw stubbornly. This is real. It has to be -- and it seems impossible to believe otherwise. But. . . How did it end up like this? It was only a glance, albeit an accidental one. Every longing, intoxicated emotion that I experience is riddled through with guilt, and I am tempted to simply ignore it and succumb to the whims of my adolescent mind, but my duties as a medicine cat apprentice suppresses any lingering temptation that torments me and thrills me simultaneously. My heart hurts and is beating at a rate faster than I have ever thought possible. . . My head is spinning. . . My pulse is rushing. The mere presence of Earthpaw is inducing such a reaction that it both shocks me and intrigues me at the same time. I am also feeling excited and grieving pangs that pulsate throughout my being, amid so many other emotions that vary like so. But I have now grown accustomed to this, and now I feel myself yearning for more. I give my head a shake as if to clear it, but the sudden motion only seems to discombobulate me even further.
I cannot stand it any longer and jerk my face up to examinate his, to lose myself in his eyes once more. I am an unembellished toy in his claws, but somehow the notion fails to bother me, nor do I reluctantly approach the fact that this tom has ensnared me in only heartbeats -- which feel like moons, I assure you -- and has transformed me into but a will-less slave, vulnerable to anything, especially him if he willed it to be.
Is this what it's like to be a DarkClan minion? But the thought is quickly lost within the depths of the numerous chambers of my own mind. I dismiss it with a surprisingly lucid, curt
No. By now I have grown so used to the tabby apprentice's features that it is now quite familiar to me -- embedded on the back of my eyelids when I blink or close my eyes, it seems -- and I am quick to notice the increasing queries in his expression. This minuscule, barely detectable detail caters to my attention and I abruptly realize that I have forgotten all along to tell him my name. I part my lips in a flash in a fumble to utter my name aloud, but something halts me. It's rather enjoyable to be mysterious, but is it preferable? I tantalizingly decide to take it slower and try his name on my lips before betraying my own. "Earthpaw," I breathe, and a delicate smile defines my dark features. Hopefully he doesn't register it to be a grimace. Something beyond recognition to me enters my voice as I say, "Stormpaw. My name is Stormpaw."
((I didn't have very long to type Bloodstar's, I just thought to do so because I won't be able to get on the computer later. . . Besides, no one's posted in this thread for a while.))
Bloodstar blinked in surprise when an apprentice from his Clan was named before all of the Clans. For him, that was his expression of near-total astonishment. He almost didn't register his deputy's name being stated as well, for he was too busy trying to keep himself composed so as to refrain from embarrassing himself in front of the whole of PowerClans -- his perch on the forked branches, as well as the other inhabitants of Centertree's seats, were ever so conveniently placed right where every cat in the hollow attending the Gathering could see them. His squirmed slightly in mild rage however, thinking bitterly to himself,
An apprentice, leading my Clan into battle! He won't live to be even twice his age. . . And so on; similar rants cluttered his already occupied mind, and he ignored the rest of the names being rattled on by a nervous-looking apprentice of LeafClan whose fur was outlined by starlight as she spoke, and every eye was fixated desperately on her. Mudpaw was only seven moons; nearly still a kit himself! There was no way he would survive the blood-thirsty, mindless army of cats that was DarkClan. His spirits plummeted and dark thoughts entered his pessimistic mind. His deputy being chosen as well was a better decision for his warrior ancestors to make, but only just. What if the white-furred she-cat lost her only life in the bloody battle against the Scourge of PowerClans? FireClan would be left without a deputy, and weakness was most unwelcomed in times such as these. Of course he would appoint a fresh one prior to the next moonhigh, but it took time to grow accustomed to such a promotion -- it would mean being next in line to lead his mighty Clan, but time was something inaccessible far beyond the foreseeable future.
The massive white tom unhappily lashed his tail, and he jerked his head up to stare angrily up at the stars as if he were challenging them.
Why, StarClan?! he hissed; he was the only living cat that could hear the words as they tumbled angrily out of his brain.
Do you honestly think it wise to select a mere kit to carry out your dirty work? Bloodstar's sharp teeth gnashed together, and his stomach was a writhing mass of anger and anxiety. Out of the lot of apprentices in FireClan, Mudpaw was a fine choice; he was still rather young, but a formidable opponent for his age. Plus, he had one of the best mentors he could ask for. But the Clan that he served and lived in had quite a large range of cats much more experienced and older than the young tom; there was ample opportunity for StarClan to choose a more suitable cat. The scarlet-eyed leader heaved a weary sigh, his attempts to conceal his displeasure fading. If he was agitated by their predecessors' decision, then why shouldn't he display it? Still, it seemed like a rather inane and irresponsible manner to act in, so he donned a mask of chilling composure once more as his fellow leader, Skystar of AirClan, concluded the Gathering with a string of words that were undoubtedly from StarClan; the fearsome she-cat would likely much rather face a league of DarkClan minions instead of being forced to utter those words. "Not the first time we've been stripped of our own choices tonight. . ." quietly growled Bloodstar as he roused himself to his feet. He let his unnatural gaze rake the skies once more before leaping from his perch to the flat, charred surface of Centertree's trunk.
He declined to break his stride as he continued to his destination at the base of the great oak; unbeknownst of himself, he was too enveloped in his mutinous musings to notice that he had nearly bumped a shy-looking, dark-pelted apprentice right off Centertree, into the throngs below. Whoops. His descent down the spiraling vines and branches seemed to take mere heartbeats, and he headed immediately toward the edge of FireClan territory where the border met the neutral territory of the hollow in which Centertree was situated in. The teeming crowds parted when he made his way to the place where his Clan met prior to their plunge back into the jungle. Bloodstar turned and stood attentively in the small clearing and waited while cats slowly began to file into it. Several moments had passed when he deemed it was about time for a head count, and his frown tugged the corners of his mouth down even further. "Where's Foxflame?" he snapped to no one in particular, and a hollow silence greeted his ears that were straining to hear anything over the cacophonous cats that shared the depression with them. For the time being, at least, until the missing ginger tom joined their ranks in order to journey back to their camp. Bloodstar was preparing to gather the majority of cats and irritably leave without him before a sleek-furred AirClan she-cat whose name escaped him approached him. She mewed his name, although the soft sound was engulfed in the noises of the other felines that gradually began to diminish and filter back to their own territories. However, his perceptive eyes did scrutinize the single word that inaudibly formed on her lips, and he recognized it as his own name. Bloodstar raised his voice over all of the other ones that bounced about the hollow, "Yes? Yes, what do you want?"
((o.o" Again, I was carried away by the length of my post -- this was much shorter than I had originally intended it to be. Meh, I could do better if I didn't have WB, but what the he**. . . I trapped just a little bit of my muse in a corner and hurried to get this on the computer screen. I was tempted to PM Tink halfway through it and ask if she could have Heathersong interrupt them just before she tells him her name, to add suspense (Which I fail miserably at. X'3), but I figured that it would only take even longer. Also, a note to everyone -- I will be on the computer even less due to NaNoWriMo (So sorry to hear that you are unable to do it, Fairy! ;_;); so as to remain active I will likely scrap quick posts that are much shorter than my usual ones -- I don't want to fall behind even more. Oh, and good job on improvement -- to everyone on here. n.n *Yawns* I won't be able to be on for much of Halloween because I am helping a friend of mine organize a party. . .
Personally, I think that my pencils and paper are evil; every time I attempt to write something worthwhile with/on them, I feel a bout of writer's block creeping up on me. x.x"
Also, I know this is pretty random, but -- my class is doing a choice PowerPoint presentation of ten slides or more, and you'll never guess what I'm doing, Fairy. . . Zombies! X'3 I couldn't get it on my flash-drive, since I still have to find it, though. D:
Happy Halloween, everyone~ :} Even if you don't celebrate it, I hope you have a good day nonetheless.
Ah, I'm glad that you brought back the Icestar/Bloodstar recollection posts. n.n It was really fun writing those. . .))