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[koegami]

( I will post later c: )

[littleghosthunter]

>>alright take your time

[koegami]

( thanks for bumping this, I lost it in my posts; I'll post tonight )

[littleghosthunter]

>>alright

[koegami]

Katrina looked up just barely noticing Luka, and he went and sat by some trees. But she could still feel his eyes on her and it made her feel uncomfortable, and not really willing to get out. She'd sit here until he looked away. She was willing to wait that long. Dunking under the water she swam towards the shore. Stopping when it was a bit higher than her chest. When she was positive he had looked away she was quick to get out of the water. Licking her lips she grabbed the pair of shorts and pulled them on. She had to roll them up of course otherwise they'd be to big for her. And would slip right off. The shirt was still a bit damp and she sighed. First she threw her hair up in a pony tail. She let out a shriek automatically covering her chest up when she spotted Luka. She blew a random strand of her hair out of her face and stared at him wide eyed. "I-I-I guess? I don't know." she muttered reaching down with one of her hands to grab the shirt. She wasn't comfortable with being seen like this.

'Its worth a shot to go isn't it?' I said as I stood up and picked up my bag. I turned around, waving my hand in a meaning of dismissal. 'Better get used to it. Your dead if you can't smell anyone coming; or even around you.' I said coldly as I threw the bag over my shoulder, move some loose strands of my sandy-white blond hair from my face, and looked back at her. No emotion was on my face. If we didn't see, and they were gone, we would have probably lost our chances of getting out of here. Sane that is. I motioned for her to follow before walking back to the woods, turning around on my heel and striding swiftly into the thick undergrowth. I was worn and tired. Not ready for any of this. I wanted to go home and stay there.


( seriously, yell at me when I do that. When I poof off this for an extended period of time. I forget. -sighs- sorry it's late and short. I'm prepping for the end of the year. I get out on the 16, and go back on the 19 and 23 for tests. )

[littleghosthunter]

katrina huffed puffing out her cheeks as she pulled the shirt on over her head. she looked at luca's back, which was facing her and glared at him. she crossed her arms with a pout, and sighed. she was still getting used to everything, being alert, the smells, the things she can hear, her speed and agility. it was all so different and she was trying so hard to get used to it. more than anything in the world she wanted to get used to it. but she didn't understand it one bit, and she was didn't enjoy it the least bit. it was up setting especially when she did something wrong. which she might've, might not have. she couldn't currently remember at the moment. but that's not the point. licking her lips she ran her fingers threw her hair, and stuck her tongue out at his back. she didn't want to follow him, she didn't want to follow someone who was being rude, and can't even say please or announce they are there. i mean he knows she's knew to all this, yet he expects her to know everything like she had been dealing with this stuff since the day she was born. when he looked back at her she met his gaze with a glare and walked right past him with a huff.

when she had walked past him she made sure not to look at him, and keep a hard expression on her face. she knew where the beach was located, she wasn't that stupid. she's been there enough times, she'd have to be stupid not to know where it's at. and she's positive she knows exactly where they were working on the raft they were making. where the wreckage from the ship sinking, was where they were probably working. it was hard to accept the fact that the wreck happened barely over a week ago. and in that time her life has changed dramatically. not only by becoming an orphan but by becoming a lycan. it was strange, but she actually quite enjoyed it. playing with a random strand of her hair she sighed. until she felt the sand between her toes. at that sensation a smile slipped onto her face. she knew luca was still behind her, but she was still mad at him so she didn't bother looking back at him. as she walked off in the direction the wreckage washed up at.

>>but i don't like yelling at people, i like to give them the time they need to reply. and if their busy i understand. and i often time forget about things a lot also.
my last day is this friday, my last finals are tomorrow. then it's on to drivers ed the next two weeks after that.

[koegami]

(Will post; I'm on a look out for a bear. It's real close to the house. Not wantin' to miss it XD)

[littleghosthunter]

>>alright. and cool. i don't see many bears around here. i hear people talk about seeing them. but i never see one.

[koegami]

( i hate myself...... i'm in such a stressed situation that i literally can't think...... it's all too much)

i couldn't conceal my grin. she thinks she could phase me. i'm trouble enough without her around.
heck, i still don't understand why i even saved her. i pulled her through this, and now was acting
like i ruled the world. i chuckled to myself and thought about that. 'ha, sounds like my dad...' i so
couldn't help but to smirk to myself. he was schizophrenic, an alcoholic and one of those people
that take pleasure in hurting others. a sadist maybe. i couldn't help but to shudder at the thought
of what i went through. i didn't really understand at that time. being in-and-out of hospitals from
the ages of one to five, and then to my foster homes.

i sighed and decided to steel a glance at her. she was angry, yes, but i was in a worse mental state
than she ever wanted to believe. what i keep concealed from her. this behavior -i have determined-
is more mild and calmer than i'd ever let her see. she wouldn't be able to handle me if i did. the fact
that i'm without my medications to keep me at bay, her testing and pushing my limits like i'm a cliff
and she's stranded on the edge while the world around her is crumbling to dust like my hopes of getting
out of here without a problem, and acting without thinking were hard enough.... i don't know how much
longer i can take this. in this case, i really want my medications. badly. and with her, in one's right mind,
standing in front of a mad man, that could go mad at any given time.

Granted at any open entry, no matter the time, was bad enough, then i dont know what is. i sighed and
shook back and forth, like there was water in my ears. i had to keep it together. i wanted to see how
far those boys got. if they in fact got off this island and stranded them, i would swim out there and kill
them all even if i died on the return back. or snap and kill my girlfriend and regret it later. whichever
one happened first i guess. i stopped walking when realization dawned on me again. i looked at her, i
wasn't going to flinch, i was going to keep myself sincere. and i felt as though i had to ask this question.
i took a shaking breath before asking her. "Katrina, if you hate me, why haven't you killed me yet?"
i asked as i hooked my thumbs in the waistband of my clothes.

i didn't give her time to answer, only think before i roused a few more questions that were eating at my
brain and whatever little control i had left. "i.... if i just let loose, let go right now. showed you just
how bad i could really be. would you run?" i asked. before following up with one last question. "do
you even trust me? love me? you seem so angry at me..." i flinched, not really wanting to put it like
that. i took a breath before looking her eye-to-eye and speaking once more. "do you even care about
me or are you just using me to get off this island? i finshed. granted, i looked hurt, i felt hurt to. and
i probably had a really lost and dazed gaze. i was worn, i haven't eaten or slept in days. i was starting to
become a little delusional.

granted, no meds, no help. no way of having just a little self control. but these questions were eating me.
tearing me apart. i just had to know. to know how she truly felt. another question dawned on me. "would
you rather i just leave? so you don't have to have me as a reminder of who you are now. what you
are? i can go. death seems like a much better option now than it did a week ago." i muttered, lost in
thought. i was starting to shiver. i took a step back, pulling my thumbs from my waistband and putting
them behind my back. my knife was in my sleeve. i could just do it and get it over with. she probably
wouldn't even know. one minuet i'm alive and talking, the next, cold and dead. it probably would be for
the better.

i sat down on the ground, hands still behind my back. i looked down and didn't look up. just wanting to go.
i was loosing it, but not in the way your thinking. loosing hope, then loosing my morals. we had to get off
this island. somehow, some way.

( yay for a leg up on doing literate writing...... i really don't feel well... )

[littleghosthunter]

spinning around katrina face luka when he asked his first question. she furrowed her brows confused. she opened her mouth to ask what he meant, why he would even say something like that. when she was cut off by him. snapping her mouth shut she just stared at him. her brows screased as she glanced down at the sand then back up to him. what did he mean? he was confusing her to very much, and scaring her.taking a step forward she went to cut him off. but his next questions made her stop and think. did she trust him, love him? she thought she did. maybe it was something that her mind made her believe. but she wasn't sure. wrapping her arms around her stomach she looked up at him, shocked to find him already looking at her. her gaze drifted down to the ground, but snapped back up to him at his next question.

staring at him wide eyed, wondering why he would even say that, yet again. shaking her head she took a few more steps towards him and again opened her mouth to say something. but only to be cut off again. her eyes began filling with tears, and she stumbled back a few steps. "why would you even say that?" she cried out a few tears running down her face. she felt like he was accusing her of lying. of just pretending to care. she felt like she had just been stabbed in ther heart. repeatedly. running her fingers threw her her she just stood there staring at him. his questions bounced around her head, pounding against her skull. she couldn't take it. placing her head in her hands she fell to her knees. tears running down her face. she began rocking back and forth. her heart pounded against her chest. that was when she realized if she didn't calm down she would have a panic attack.

snapping her head up she looked at luka. slowly she crawled over to him. "i don't hate you luka. and i wouldn't kill you. even if someone was holding a gun to my head telling me it was me or you i still wouldn't." she muttered when she got in front of him. "and i don't acre how you act, or who you are luka. i trust you and i really do love you." she whispered taking his face his her hands gently. and placed a gentle kiss on his lips. resting her fore head against his."i care, and i don't want to lose you luke. don't ever leave me." she said looking into his eyes pleading with him.