by No one » Sun Apr 04, 2021 9:17 am
Shadow/female/Tags: Laylay, Lexi, Saffron, Baxter, Shiloh/Location: Camp/Mate is Buck/Brother is Baxter/Pups are: Fire, Leo, Fish/Husky/Alpha of Leaf Pack/Bisexual/6-7 years old
Shadow heard the healer come and said with panic in her voice, “I was talking to her about something and then when she was trying to explain something, her words slurred and she collapsed.” As she heard the familiar voice of her friend, Saffron, she walked over and buried her face into her friend’s shoulder fur. She said, “It’s... it’s...it’s my fault. If I hadn’t put stress onto her with talking to her about something this... this could have been avoided. I’m.... I’m a terrible leader. I can’t protect my pack from a pack of coyotes and I.... I....” Her breaths were shallow and tears filled her usual twinkling blue eyes as she raised her head from Saffron’s shoulder. Was she even cut out to be a leader now. It seemed that ever since Asher died, she started to lose control of the pack. Of course, she had her mate, Buck, along with her friend, Saffron, and her/Asher’s pups: Leo, Fish, and Fire, but it seemed that even all five of them couldn’t do what Asher did to her. Her pups seemed so happy like there father, Asher, and it had seemed that her life was perfect with Asher. She had her first mate, her friends: Saffron and Buck, and even her young daughter, Fish as well as her newborn pups, Leo and Fire Who were the only two from the four to survive. Then... a fight with the Underdogs took her beloved Asher from her and the pack when her twins were only six months old. Has this finally come to an end. Had she reached the breaking point. No... she concluded in her mind...but what if it was. She knew her brother has so much responsibility being a step-father to Lua’s pups and still recovering from his wounds from those coyotes, but was it time.... was it time to step down and give her brother Alpha? Shadow has always known Baxter to be her baby brother, but for her to give him the role as Alpha now knowing his wounds and being a first time father... was it really worth stepping down to add more pressure to her brother? As she gazed at Saffron, she for an instance saw Asher flash before her eyes. She blinked her tear filled eyes and felt some tears roll down her cheeks. She was starting to hallucinate him into existence now, but it had seemed real for that instant. That one waning flash of her mate, Asher, was proof enough that she had to keep going, not for herself, but for her pack, Buck, her pups, Saffron, and most importantly.... Asher.